Disclaimer again I'll tell you I don't own Criminal Minds but I can nick characters from you for a little while!

Picture perfect memories scattered all around the floor
Reaching for the phone cause I can't fight it anymore
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now

She couldn't believe that it was only weeks, looking at the photo she felt like it was years ago that she had a man in her life that she could call her best friend, the one she could just tell her concerns to, just empty her thoughts to and not have to worry. Now she'd realised that their relationship wasn't empty of boundaries like she had wanted to believe.

She'd voiced her concerns over his choice in one woman and she knew from the look on his face that she had taken one step too far with it. He didn't even take any proper notice that she'd told him she loved him in that sentence, he just told her he knew. Except he didn't know how much she loved him but what caused her to tell him was jealous but instead her voice wedged a jam between them. After all he was a grown man, she was just the best friend on the side, at the end of the day what she wanted for him was never going to be what he wanted.

She looked at the photo's that surrounded her on the wooden floor, the good times as she'd deemed them. The cheerier times when she could believe that the world was full of awesome people and that not everyone was out for greed or neglect or to be selfish but then she soon realised that everyone had a part of them that was reserved for those feelings. Even she could hold herself accountable for that part, sometimes you need to be selfish to gain anything in life.

She picked up one photos and smiled, first year of their friendship, when she was still naive to what their jobs entailed but she knew that soon after that when she slowly learnt he was beside her to help her cope. He was there to help soothe her qualms and rid of her memories the best he could. She let the photo fall to the floor and picked up a new one, a major skip in life.

They were grown more, matured, life lines and frown lines showing up deeper. She remembered this photo, he'd taken her out about a week after she'd gotten out of the hospital after Battle, and he'd wanted her to have as many happy memories as she wanted but soon that wasn't what he wanted because Kevin Lynch came along.

The next photo her hand laid on was of her and said man, she looked at it; she'd loved the man in the still frame, almost gone as far to say she was peaking being in love. Her eyes blurred out the photo in her hand as they focused on the photo's below. Derek Morgan was in the top one, was in the one to the left of that, was in the one above that, below it, several layers of photo's were scattered around and on most of them were of her and Derek Morgan, each and everyone they had some sort of connection, most times it was physically, others it was their gaze holding one another's.

Without thinking she ripped the photo in her hands up, Kevin was a useless SOB that would and could rot in hell. It was as she looked at the photo's she realised that her disengagement with Derek was all down to Kevin. Fair enough she was in a relationship and she wanted it to work, needed it to work but in the end it was useless. Kevin Lynch was a love rat and had been for the 2 months of their relationship.

It was at the same time that she found out Kevin's first, and as he claimed only infidelity, that she loved Derek Morgan more than she could ever love Kevin Lynch. However, Kevin had been leading a double life, when a case was on, he was sleeping around, when a case wasn't on, he was sleeping with her.

Now it was past one in the morning and she couldn't help but feel that life wasn't as dandy as she loved it to be, it was darker, and scarier and lonelier and the only person she wanted and needed right at that moment was the one man that was no longer living in her pocket.

She had to admit that since taking Kevin back 2 months ago her thoughts had become somewhat consumed with the man that knew her best. She'd promised herself she'd make the distance with him bearable, allow him the relationship she hadn't wanted to acknowledge and give him his independence back.

But it was as she felt her heart break all over again at the truth she'd just discovered that she realised that she didn't want to keep her heart's desires a secret anymore. The way she saw it was that she'd already lost Derek from her life in the biggest way possible that telling him a home truth couldn't do much more damage.

She grabbed her phone from among the photos and pushed the number she'd kept for him. She hadn't changed it, she might have lost him in person but she'd didn't have to lose him in all other aspects of her life. She put the phone to her ear and sighed.

'You've reach the voicemail of Derek Morgan, sorry I can't take your call but just leave a message and I'll get back to you when I can.'

Penelope didn't wait for the beep; she felt she didn't deserve it so she put the phone down. It was as the call disconnected that she hit a realisation. She didn't want to talk to his phone, or talk to him through a phone; she wanted to talk to the real deal. Have her chocolate God in front of her, to take him in, to bask in what made him, him.

She suddenly realised that in the time she'd spent in her head she'd ripped up most, if not all, photo's that had Kevin in. Leaving the photo's she checked herself in the mirror, reapplying her make up to be immaculate, she blinked away the tears she was fed up with and smiled slightly before leaving her apartment.

Penelope Garcia was after one thing and one thing only that night. She wanted Derek Morgan to know what she felt and thought every time he came near any part of her. And if it all fell through all she asked for was for him to call her Baby Girl for one last time and truly mean it.

A/N: New One I Know! But it's only a threeshot, maybe fourshot but I got stuck in and finished it in one go! =)

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Song: Lady Antebellum – Need You Now