Title: Prometheus Rebound 1/2
Author: KellethMetheus
Spoilers: Prometheus Unbound SG-1 S 812
Category: Angst and Missing Scene
Summary: Daniel's and Vala's thoughts after she left the Prometheus.
Disclaimer: Not mine and I'll put them back eventually and hopefully happier!!
Warnings: none
Chapter One-Daniel
I watch the Alkesh vanish into hyperspace and a feeling of deep sadness crashes over me in waves. I look around to see if anyone else feels the same way. The crew of the Prometheus do their jobs, mostly trying to fix the mess Vala and I created. And now she's gone.
Looking back out the portal, I see the hyperspace window dispersing and I know I've lost something important. Vala offered a temptation I hadn't felt in a very long time. When she was here I felt as though I could take a chance on living again, but it slipped thought my fingers like sand. This time, just like with Sha're, it was out of my hands. There was a moment when maybe if I had spoken the words that were on the tip of my tongue; if I asked her to stay, to stay with me, it might have been so very different.
Vala Mal Doran stormed into my life showing me just what I was missing, what I hadn't been ready to admit to myself, I am ready to feel again, to live again. Now her sudden departure has left me with a empty place where she should be. Vala was a liar and a thief but I understand why. As an ex-host she wouldn't have many options for feeding herself or making an honest living. I admit that I judged her harshly and other would have too.
Her face would've been remembered as Qetesh more so than Vala. Especially when it was her home planet where Qetesh ruled with an iron hand. Her friends, her family and neighbors would have been beaten by her order at the wave of her hand or so it would seem to the populous. Then once she was free of Qetesh, they would never take the time to listen to what had really happened or that Vala's body did the crimes not Vala herself. To see that Vala was hurt just as much or more by every blow or death.
But part of me wonders if that story is even true, most of what had come out of Vala's mouth had been lies and half truths, but part of her tale rang true....he could see it in her eyes, and certain words when she let some emotion slip into her tone of voice. It was written clearly on her face for him to see, but it was so fleeting he questioned whether or not he really saw it.
For a long time I stand there staring into the emptiness of space where she disappeared. I can't help but wonder why, I'm still standing here, but I know the truth I just don't want to admit that Vala and I are the same. We both suffer from the same affliction, loneliness. Vala Mal Doran, liar, thief and swindler wanted to belong somewhere again, to be loved again, even if she wouldn't admit it to herself. She's been abandoned so many times that she's afraid to reach out to anyone or to show that she cares. Fear and self doubt are her companions and she hides behind a mask to protect the lost little girl inside. I wonder what happened to her, even before Qetesh to create this vamp and innocent. Why doesn't she just be herself?
But I suffered from the same affliction that plagues Vala, everyone abandons me. It's the story of my life, so in the dark of night I have only what ifs and maybes to keep me warm. First my parents, then Sha're, Sarah and now...even her. But maybe I'm wrong and I didn't really see what I thought I saw after all Vala did leave me.
I know I've stay here too long and people are beginning to look at me. Stuffing my hands into my pockets I leave the bridge to wander. I look around the ship and everywhere I see memories of her and the pain of her loss settles deep in my heart, but I do what I always do, I push it away and bury it, I go on with my life. Where ever she is or whatever she may have felt, Vala is gone and my life is dimmer for it and it'll never be the same.
One more chapter and I'll be putting it up tomorrow some time. This one from Vala's POV.