Okay.

Okay, okay, okay. This has been long overdue, and you guys deserve so much better.

I started this story enthusiastically, without any real direction in mind. Up until that point I had never had more than a handful of reviews to anything I'd ever written so there wasn't much pressure. And then people did start reviewing…and favoriting…and following. That scared me SO MUCH!

I was suddenly at this point where I had people who were genuinely interested and I just didn't want to let anyone down; the strain of which completely drying up any writing ability I had.

I tried of course, I kept cranking out chapters about the crew's interaction, and trying (and doing it badly at that,) to build up suspense about what was happening with Robin…but I had no idea where I was going with it. I didn't know how to solve the problems I had created, and I had absolutely no idea how to end it. In fact, I don't think I have EVER finished a story, (that wasn't a one shot,) endings are my worst nightmare.

That was the reason I went on hiatus, (well, and I was having my first kid, but I optimistically thought that wouldn't keep me from writing. I am not excusing myself but let me just say, omg how can anyone parent and still do anything else?!) because I wanted to take some time and give you guys something that was worthwhile.

And then time kept going by, -and yeah I was busy,- but I knew in the back of my mind that people were still waiting on me. And the longer I went without writing, the more the panic grew.

I didn't want to disappoint anyone, and so I did nothing and I've let everyone down.

I can't apologize enough for that.

I don't know how other people view their reviewers; but you guys, you are my sunshine. Your words cheered me up, and you were so kind about my grammatical errors, and all the other glaringly obvious mistakes. You were so encouraging, and I could really feel that excited energy that each chapter provided. I am also an avid reader; I get what that high is like. So, to let you guys down, just fills me with shame.

I don't see it as a, "oh, people online don't really care, it makes no difference if I post or not," kind of thing. I see it as I would as a reviewer; the suspense, and the nagging at the back of my mind about what might happen, and the giggles when I think of fluff. Like, I don't know if you can see where I'm coming from, but if you have ever felt like that while waiting for me…then I am the biggest pile of garbage, and I am so, SO sorry.

So I have to address what will happen from now on.

I can't re-write Crazy. I sincerely wish I could, but there's just no way. In all this time, I have never had another burst of inspiration, or even a random thought I had to jot down and think about. I have nothing guys; it's something I can't finish. I just can't.

The second reason I can't re-write makes me feel just as guilty. I have, several times, mentioned my best friend. Well, there was a period of time where she lived with my family, and we finally watched One Piece together. You can't understand how happy it made me; not only had I spent years trying to convince her to give it a try, she is –without a doubt- one of the greatest authors I have ever had the privilege of reading. I've mentioned her on my profile for the last 9 years for a reason guys. She's amazing. So, knowing that she was getting into OP just made me suuuuuper happy, because I knew I would get to read her stuff.

(Conveniently forgetting how good she is at ripping out your heart and crushing it under her super cute boots! She's Oda's apprentice, I swear! Joss Whedon doesn't destroy you like she does. Don't misunderstand; you should all go read her stuff because it is amazing. I'm just warning you that if you start down that path, -reading anything she writes- forever will it dominate your destiny. You will become one of her fans too. It's unavoidable. Back to the point…)

So we'd throw ideas at each other, and giggle about the fluff, and plan out the logistics of stories, (like, floorplans and stuff like that. For reference when writing.) and just enjoying being in a fandom together again…

Anyway, I mentioned something about ZoRo, and she was like "What are you talking about? Robin and Franky are practically married."

I did not want to like it guys, I swear!

But we were going through Water 7/Enis Lobby and…ksdflkasjdf. How did I miss that they were practically married?! No, don't tell me. The point is: I don't even sail with the ZoRo ship anymore, so how can I possibly write anything for it? This is a pretty big issue, and I am placing the blame squarely on her.

That being said; go read her stuff.

To conclude: I really hope it isn't something that's too disappointing for you, because it has been forever so hopefully you aren't as invested in the story as you were when it was regularly updating. But if it is, and if you feel totally betrayed by my not continuing, I am so sorry to you. I promised I would, and had every intention to, and I just can't. I'm so, so sorry. I can't ever apologize enough.

(Honestly, I hadn't checked my email in nearly two years because every time I saw a review alert I just wanted to curl up and cry, because what kind of a monster am I?!)

So I am, officially, abandoning Crazy.

Thank you all so much for your time and your kind words. I have loved and appreciated every single one.

I have only one last thing to say; if you are looking for good One Piece fanfiction, and if you can handle the emotional roller coaster of a good author, (and let's face it, you can. Otherwise you wouldn't be able to handle reading OP in the first place.) I fervently recommend Mithril-Lace.
https: u/4414735/Mithril-Lace

(Without the spaces, obviously. FF .net even hates itself.)

A gem. My Scheherazade. I can sit and listen to just the outlines of her stories for hours. She is incredible, and you won't be disappointed if you check out her stuff.