This is a Low

Chapter 14: This is a Low

Written By: StalkerDex

This is a low, but it won't hurt you.

-Blur, 'This is a Low'

It had been a few hours in the waiting room, the three of them struggling to occupy their minds with celebrity gossip magazines and television news. It was so sterile, and difficult to focus in the environment...in the situation. They hadn't heard if he was going to be okay or not. They had just rushed him into the back, where they wouldn't allow anyone else to enter, not even Murdoc.

"Fuck this...I'm gonna go back there," Murdoc stated as he got out of his chair. Noodle stared up at him along with Russel.

"Calm down, just relax. You can't help the situation any," Russel demanded as he yanked Murdoc back into his seat. He sighed; he knew Russel was right, but all of this waiting was killing him.

"He lost a lot of blood in the water car," Murdoc stated, his eyes all puffy from the crying he'd done. None of them had ever seen him cry, and it was sort of surreal to be able to say they had now.

"I know, Muds. I know," Russel responded, setting his magazine down. There was no way he could read any more of that shit; it wasn't helping anyway.

A long and awkward silence passed between the three of them and Russel kept looking between Murdoc and Noodle. She was still all tattered looking, now with the added damage of tear stained cheeks. She was sitting with her legs crossed and her hands digging into each of her arms. She was biting her lower lip and tapping one of her feet. She seemed to be very fidgety, and even a bit angry. Murdoc was an entirely different sight. He looked ill as he sat completely still. His hair was a matted up mess from the sex he'd had with D earlier, and his clothes hung loosely on his frail body. He looked really broken up.

"So, is anyone in here going to fucking acknowledge the enormous, smelly-ass elephant in the room!?" he finally spoke up, unable to contain himself.

"Wot the fuck're you talkin' about," Murdoc muttered, sounding entirely uninterested as he shifted, looking at the ground. He looked so tired.

"I'm talkin' between you and her. You two should have some words about this, shouldn't you? For Christ's sake, this silence is killin' me!"

Another moment of silence passed before Noodle spoke up, "fine, ok. What should I say? Should I say how fucking disappointed I am? How my angry I am that you fucked my fiance? The only thing that got me through when they were holding me hostage?"

"Well, you could've called or somefin' when you got away, couldn't you've? You know, ta let your fiance know that you were fuckin', I don't know, ALIVE!?"

"Do you really think I knew how to get in touch!? I went straight to Kong and I found it burned the goddamned ground, Asshole!"

Murdoc shifted again, this time looking extremely frustrated.

"He thought you were dead. Russel thought you were dead. I fucking thought you were dead. End of fuckin' story. I had no reason not to fuck him...an' furthermore, it wasn't just fucking for yer information, not that it really even is any of yer goddamn business, but I happen to love him, an' you had to go and open yer fuckin' fat ass mouth an' tell him he was fucking dead to you and now look where the fuck we are! I finally fuckin' fall in love and now he's gonna be dead, when you're the one who's supposed to be fuckin' dead, so don't you dare come in here and tell me you can't believe I fucked yer fiance, because if ANYONE fucked him, it's YOU!"

A long silence passed, the only sound was Murdoc's heavy breathing. He'd really gotten himself worked up.

"See, that's progress," Russel spoke quietly, a little scared to speak after all of that.

Murdoc put up his hand and waved it at him to indicate he didn't give a shit. Noodle just refolded her arms and looked down at her feet.

"Um, excuse me, I don't mean to interrupt this, er, family moment, but, he's asking for a Mr. Niccals?"

Murdoc stood up, a nervous look on his face, "Yes, tha's me."

The young doctor nodded as he started to walk away, "follow me then."

Murdoc shuffled his hair a bit and straightened his shirt and then followed the doctor to the singer's room. Russel and Noodle stared, relieved that D had woken back up.

"Okay, now, you can't be in there too long, but, you can have a moment alone."

Murdoc nodded and took in a deep breath as the doctor opened the door for him. As he walked inside he drank the whole room in. The sun was shining in, completely oblivious to the trying day he was currently having, and enhancing the whiteness of the entire room. D was sitting in the middle of the white bed, his blue hair sticking out like a sore thumb. He looked just as gorgeous as always, even when he was all fucked up and in a hospital bed. Murdoc sat down on the bed and looked at him, relieved to see that he was okay.

"They said I 'ave ta see a therapist," he spoke up rather bluntly. He was smiling though.

"Ye, well, I kinda figured that one," Murdoc responded, avoiding eye contact. He was looking at the ceiling, counting the squares.

Suddenly, he felt the singer's soft hand on top of his, causing him to look at him. He didn't even look like anything had just happened.

"I'm sorry, Muds. I won't do this again."

The bassist took his hand out from under the singer's, and for a brief moment D thought that he was going to leave. However, he was pleasantly surprised to see Murdoc turn towards him, putting the hand he'd retrieved onto his cheek.

"You'd better not," he whispered, staring at him, an intense look on his face. Suddenly, 2D felt overwhelmed with guilt. He hadn't thought of how it would've affected Murdoc if he'd offed himself.

"I won't. I promise. I'll never hurt you again."

He felt overwhelmed as he watched a tear fall down Murdoc's cheek.

"Muds..."

"Shhh, don't talk," he hushed as he leaned in and kissed the singer. It was a long, closed mouth kiss, but it was the single most meaningful kiss either D or Murdoc had ever experienced in their lives.

"I love you, Stuart," he whispered once they parted. He rubbed the side of the singer's face with his thumb, unwilling to back away.

D smiled softly at him, reaching up to touch his hand. He closed his eyes as he held his hand to his face and sighed a relieved and happy sigh.

"I know, but I'm so glad ta hear you say it."

As the two of them sat together, thankful to have one another, Russel and Noodle quietly entered the room. Russel was the first to approach.

"Hey, bud," he stated as he sat on the side of the bed opposite Murdoc.

"Hi," he smiled before everyone turned to look at Noodle, who was standing nervously in the doorway.

"I'm sorry," she stated flatly as she looked at the singer, "I was too hard on you."

2D smiled at her reassuringly, "it's okay. This has been...really, really hard," he admitted as he reached out his arm, indicating for her to join the rest of them. She smirked before walking over and embracing him. The held each other for a moment before they parted and she looked at Murdoc.

"If anyone was there to pick up the pieces from the mess I left behind, I'm glad it was you. We'll figure this shit out. It'll be rough, but, we're a family."

Murdoc nodded at her, assuring her he was willing to work whatever he needed to out to keep D happy, and, as he looked at his lover, he could tell that he was happy.

"Ok, big hug everyone," Russel stated as he pulled everyone in.

As the singer was sitting there in the middle of a giant, family hug he couldn't help but feel warm inside for the first time in ages. This is what he had wanted all along; his family. People can function as single units, you need a stable foundation to catch you when you fall, and now he had that back. Any time he felt like he was going to stumble, he knew that now, from this point on, he could always count on his family, and that was something he would never, ever forget again.

"I love you," he stated, smiling and resting his head down onto Russel's arm.

"We love you, too."

END.

Author's Note: Thank you guys so much for reading. :] I really appreciate it, and I did finally decide to write one with a nice, happy ending...although you've NO idea how badly I wanted to kill of D and leave it all sad and tragic, but, he always dies in the end, so I decided to show some mercy on him this time :] And, Murdoc finally got to tell 2D he loves him in one as well, which is something I always ensure he doesn't get the chance to say. Hehe, I hope you guys enjoyed it. I'll be starting a new one probably tonight.