So yeah…I've been very blocked for a while so I worry this isn't worth the wait…I swear! I try! T.T

Life could always be worse…right?

"Roxas…?"

But sometimes you hit so far in rock bottom that it's a little hard to think of life as worse.

"Hey…Roxas?"

With a sigh, Roxas slowly looked up from his desk to see a concerned Sora.

"I'm sorry, Sora. I'm…not feeling too hot. Don't wanna talk right now…" he stated and returned to resting to his had on his hand.

"Oh…well okay…"

So close yet so far. There's only one thing to do when you realize how badly you have the hots for someone and you stand no chance: the inevitable and painful journey of moving on. How far was Roxas in that journey? Barely started. Not to mention it was painful enough to turn away Sora like that, knowing how much the boy was worried.

"Ugh…I hate my life…"

"So I was thinking maybe it would be a good time for you to come over…Sora? Hey, Sora?" Riku gently nudged his boyfriend who jerked in his sitting position,

"Y-Yeah? I'm sorry!" the brunette immediately responded. Riku sighed before he started pulling off his scarf. Without warning he tossed it around Sora.

"Wh-What's this for?" Sora asked but shivered a bit when he felt Riku's cold hand against his skin.

"You looked cold. I told you its cold out today but you still said you wanted to eat out here," Riku stated as and finished tying it around Sora. The brunette blushed and looked to the ground.

"Th-Thank you…I'm sorry, I'm just…thinking. About Roxas."

Riku found himself going stiff for a moment but he quickly regained his posture and put his arm around Sora to pull him closer.

"Why? Is something wrong with him?"

"Well…yeah. He seems oddly depressed since our trip to the amusement park…"

"…I'm sure he's fine. He's prob-"

"It's just that, he was fine before!"

Riku let out another sigh. It's been like this since…well the amusement park trip a couple weeks ago…

First it simply Sora ditching their lunch to keep Roxas company; and when he wasn't doing that, he was shifting in his position whenever they sit together sometimes.

Then it was leading to Sora talking about Roxas during their dates. Even when Riku told him to stop doing that, Sora sometimes forgets anyway. Not to mention, the times when Sora would leave his arms or break their hand-holding to run up to Roxas in the hallways who in turns tries to dodge the other anyway with a flush face.

"Just how long am I supposed to put up with this?"

"Actually…now that I think about it…Roxas was acting kind of strange on the Ferris wheel ride too. We were as close as you and I are actually."

The proximity, upon realizing just how close they are, struck a cord within the silverette…

"I was trying to make sure he wasn't getting sick but…he didn't seem to be responding much anyway."

"..."

Roxas dragged himself to his shoe locker and took his sweet time in changing his shoes, letting everyone else go by him as the school day ended. Upon finishing, he shut his locket door only to notice that the light from the outside wasn't hitting him like before and he looked to see a figure leaning against the lockers and outlined in the light. Was he waiting for him? Roxas looked around to see no one else was leaving. Were they the last ones?

"Riku?" Roxas whispered and Riku stood up straight as the two approached each other. "Something I can help you with?"

When Roxas got a good look at Riku, he didn't exactly like the glare he received…

"What did you do to Sora?"

"Wh-What do you mean?"

"At the amusement park. What did you?" it was soft…but even Roxas noticed the demanding tone used.

"I didn't do anything! What are you talking about?"

There was a pause between them, a simple pause. Roxas didn't see it coming but without warning, the taller one's hand hit between his chest and shoulders and Roxas toppled over from his shove.

"What the hell is your PROBLEM?" Roxas exclaimed upon realizing he just hit the ground and his shoulder is probably gonna bruise from the way he landed. The blonde slowly went into a sitting position while his hand held onto his shoulder and upon looking up, he sadly regretted doing so as Riku didn't exactly look any less intimidating than before.

"If you made a move on Sora, be lucky I don't pound you here and now. If you didn't then I warn you to grow the fuck up and learn how to move on!"

Roxas could've sworn he saw a huff as saw Riku turn and leave. Riku being angry was an understatement that even Roxas felt that he got lucky…

But it also didn't help raise his spirits either…

He slowly dragged himself to his feet, picked up his bag, and slowly walked out of the building.

"Move on? How long will that take…? Sora…" The thought depressed him…how can you move on from someone like…Sora?

"I don't know, I think I would want a cat…nothing's wrong with a dog, I just prefer a cat! What? Oh come on, like you don't like cats…because you decided to call yourself Leon…uh huh, right, I'm sure…ugh, hold on, someone's at the door…" Cloud pulled himself off from the couch and peeked at the hole only to see some ruffling blonde spikes. With a sigh, Cloud put the phone back to his ear,

"I think it's my brother, I'll see you later. Yeah, okay, love you, bye."

The older blonde placed the phone back in its place on a table and he went back after yelling at Roxas to stop knocking to open it. Upon doing so, he almost felt guilty when he saw the pouting face with a depressed aura radiating off the boy.

"Oh no, you didn't tell Sora you loved him only to get rejected did you?"

Roxas only sent back a (cute) glare,

"I'm not that stupid!"

"I kid…come on, what's wrong?" Cloud asked as he stepped aside to let Roxas in.

"I…I can't get over Sora. Every time I THINK about it…it drives me up the wall! I just…CAN'T! And Riku…" Roxas groaned from frustration again as he dropped his bag and he fell on the couch Cloud previously occupied, "Riku's totally out to get me now! I don't know what to do! I can't do this anymore!"

"Whoa…okay, Roxas," Cloud sat at the edge of the couch after he swiftly locked the door and ruffled his brother's hair, "Look…it hurts, I know. It's frustrating…I know. But it takes time to get over people and well, ignore Riku. Try to. But if you think its best to get over Sora then you have to make it a commitment."

"I don't wanna make it a commitment…!" Roxas practically whined, "Sora…Its SORA! I think it may be the best for me but at the same time…it's Sora! What if they break up? I mean…ugh!"

So many what ifs…then there's the now-existing Riku problem. Is he supposed to not hang out with Sora now?

What's the right thing to do?

It's as if the answer should be natural…but it just doesn't work that way in real life…

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Roxas sighed as he hesitantly held the phone to his ear that night upon returning to his home and lying in bed.

"Roxas, Buddy! You've come to the right person!"

"Ugh…" the poor blonde immediately groaned when his best friend spoke.

"We are you gonna take your mind off all this! I promise you!"

"Great…" maybe he really should've asked Hayner instead…

That weekend, as promised, Axel arrived to drag Roxas out of the house for some fun…literally dragged the blonde out of the house. Roxas wanted to kill the red-head for coming before noon.

"Okay so let's go drinking!"

"…I'm not 21."

"Oh yeah…"

"And its not even night."

"So? I have drinks at home."

Roxas sighed as Axel pulled him along the street.

"Axel, I really rather not…maybe we can have ice cream instead?"

"Tch, sure, drown yourself in fat-food!" Axel rolled his eyes though in response, Roxas rolled his.

The pair agreed on having one treat so they headed to their ice cream stand with Axel doing his best to take his friend's mind off Sora. But it didn't last very long when Roxas stopped in his tracks, forcing Axel to do the same.

"What's wrong?"

Roxas merely continued to stare ahead of him until Axel's eyes followed down the street to see said-brunette ordering ice cream.

"Ugh…I hate my life…" Roxas groaned and evidently gave up by turning around but Axel pulled the blonde back.

"We didn't come all the way down here for nothing! Come on, you sit here," Axel pulled his friend and sat the boy down on a bench, "And I'll get our treats!"

Roxas only sighed and just shrugged it off, letting Axel do what he wants. He waited, merely staring at the ground in hopes that by not looking up he want avoid getting attention. After all, when you stare at someone, they somehow know they're being stared at. Same way when people stare at you. You just FEEL it. So to avoid Sora is to avoid the temptation of examining every perfect aspect that was visible…

Upon seeing a shadow approaching him, Roxas let out a sigh and straightened up in his sitting.

"What took so, Ax…el…" Instead of a red-head looking down on him with sea salt, it was no other than…

"Oh…hey Sora…"

The brunette's face lit up as he held a sea salt as well, but the scoop form and in a cup.

"Roxas! I knew that was you!"

Wait…if Sora's here…then what the hell was Axel doing?

Roxas looked behind Sora and scanned for Axel only to see him near a building talking to Demyx. He couldn't see from here, but all he could tell by the way they were interacting was that Demyx had something in his hands and that they were both fan-boying over it.

"THIS IS THE LAST TIME I'M ASKING AXEL FOR HELP! That IDIOT!"

"Um…you okay, Roxas?"

The blonde blinked and looked away with a light blush. He could only imagine the face he had on when he was mentally cursing Axel's ability to not be reliable for anything!

"Y-Yeah, totally fine!" he faked as he placed a hand behind his head.

"What am I gonna say? No? No, I'm not fine because you decided to date a boy that's prettier than me…and taller than me…and more masculine than me…? More perfect than me! Gee I must really be depressed…"

"I hope so," Sora stated and sat down beside the blonde who stiffened.

"Wait, I didn't invite you to sit down!"

"I've been worried about you, Roxas. You've...been acting quite strange," Sora stated in that tone that sends the guilt meter up for Roxas. This brunette sounds genuinely concerned. And what does he do? Always pushing him away. Well to be fair, said-brunette is indirectly the cause of his misery?

"Me? Strange?"

"For one, you're not even looking at me when you talk to you. You haven't for a while!"

Dammit...

Roxas could practically feel the other frown at him…as if a parent scolding a child. Slowly, as if Sora was some bright sunlight that could blind him, he slowly turned his head and carefully blinked his eyes open until he could clearly see Sora's pouting face. And that's all they did…stare. Finally Sora broke it when he sighed and started eating his treat,

"You're a jerk, Roxas."

"Wha? What did I do?" he asked out of curiosity and wondered if that was considered a tease from Sora.

"Well for one…did I do something wrong? Because you've been avoiding me…"

"Ngh…" why did Sora have to notice THAT of all things? "I swear, you didn't do anything, Sora. I'm just…kind of lost in myself."

"…Here," Sora reached into his pant pocket and pulled out an extra minispoon and then held out his ice cream to Roxas, "Have some. Sweets always cheer me up! Also gets me in a good mood to think and find the right path if you're lost!"

Did he just make that up? Probably.

Oh what is the correct decision? It's not like they're sharing a spoon or cone right? This is…okay? Right? Or is this considered self-inflicting harm if one were to say yes? But Riku isn't around right? But Sora could always end up telling Riku…Why is this so complicated?

"…If it's really okay," Roxas responded with a light smile and Sora responded with his own smile as he planted the extra spoon in the other's hand.

"I…am such an idiot…" Roxas internally cried to himself as he started sharing ice cream with someone he couldn't be sharing with if he didn't have certain feelings for this person…

"I should've said no…"

"You know…if you have a problem, I can try to help," Sora piped, breaking their silent eating.

"Erm, trust me, it's not anything you can do. But uh…" Roxas's brain quickly turned its gears, trying to get Sora to drop it without literally saying it, "So…why are you here without Riku?"

"Oh I'm waiting for Riku right now!"

"…Right now?" Roxas repeated, his actions frozen in mid-motion with the spoon mere inches from his mouth

"Yup!"

"As in…he's coming here…to meet with you?"

"That's right! He says he's got a surprise for me and well, I couldn't wait so I'm here a bit earlier than the planned meeting and I could kill time with ice cream!"

"I better get out of here before Riku shows up! I'm so screwed! He's totally going to get the wrong idea!"

"U-Um! What time is it?"

"Um…" Sora looked at his watch and he couldn't have looked more excited.

"Crap! That can only mean that Riku's going to be here soon!"

"Almost 1! Riku should be here any minute!"

"Oh! Um, I gotta go!" Roxas half-lied and stood up after swallowing the piece that was melting on his spoon.

"Really? Well okay…?"

"Yeah! Uh, thanks for the ice cream really! It was…nice talking to you. Have fun with Riku, bye!" he felt bad that he didn't really give Sora a chance to respond as he ran off to track down the red-head, not that it was hard since the man must've somehow forgot he had a best friend down in the dumps as he was STILL with Demyx in the exact same spot.

"Axel…" oh he was so going to get it…so going to get it!

Sora slightly pouted as he continued to eat alone. He couldn't decide if he helped out or if Roxas was acting more strange than usual. He sighed to himself and kicked in the air while he ate, wondering if he really did do something wrong.

"What's with that face, Sora? Upset you arrived early and got bored?"

Sora pouted some more as he looked up and cutely glared at the silverette that arrived at the scene.

"Very funny, Riku…even if you're right…" Sora murmured and Riku let out a chuckle before he held out a hand and Sora simply took it without thinking. Riku pulled him up and got a good look at the other's face.

"Something up?"

"Nothing…I just ran into Roxas earlier is all. You know, the usual."

"Yeah…the usual huh?" Riku pulled out slips of paper and put them against Sora's face, gently lifting his chin as if it were his own fingers.

"What is it?" Sora questioned and used his free hand to take them from Riku, "We're taking the train?" Sora questioned after concluding they're tickets.

"Yeah, let's head to Destiny Islands…"

Sora seemed to have taken that well as he lit up and started pulling Riku along hurryingly to the train station and exclaimed words of excitement. Though Riku's head was more filled with mixed emotions about seeing the blonde sharing an intimate moment with his boyfriend…

Finally! Please read and review! I apologize again!