This is the last chapter. The final words of Hoshigaki Kawako in the ninja world. I hope you all liked it :)
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I walked into the large building that I had awoken from. I hopped he was still there. The look in her eyes. It crushed every fibre of my being. Why would he do this. I had to go back, I changed my mind. I hurt her too much, it was best to leave her. She had people that cared for her. I love her too much to walk back into her life just like that. These feelings, this pain. I didn't know how to deal with it. I barged into the room I last encountered the stoic man. He wasn't there, but, the girl with blue hair was. Sitting in the desk, as if waiting for me to return.

"Sasori-san."

"I changed my mind, I want to be a puppet again. I don't want these feelings anymore. I don't want her anymore."

"Sasori..."

Pain seemed to fill her eyes, it reminded me of her eyes, the betrayal. I turned my head quickly, looking to the ground beside her feet. I couldn't bare to look her in the eyes and finish this.

"Is that what you really want? To leave her again, to let Sasuke have her love, feel her embrace... Do you wish to abandon her once again for your own selfish needs?"

I glared harshly at the ground now as the thoughts went through my head. The images of that Uchiha bastard holding her, kissing her. My hands clenched into knuckle piercing fists. She was mine, she is mine. I owned her! I won the bet! I can't let her just slip through my fingers again. I just turned and left the room. A quick glance as I turned was all I had, it seemed she had a smile on her face. She knew before I did what I would choose. I must get Kawako back. I can't live once again without her. I left the hide out and took off into the forest. I knew where she was hiding. I can't waste more time. Once again I set off to finish my new mission. To get Kawako back.

"I will show you Hoshigaki Kawako!"

KAWAKOS POV

It was the day after my breakdown. The atmosphere was so awkward. Even Madara kept silent. Karin couldn't even look me in the eye. I played with the noodles of the instant ramen cup in front of me. I wasn't really hungry I just didn't want to worry Sasuke more. He hasn't left my side since. But the silent conversations him and Madara seemed to be having worried me. I would glance at them as they passed messages through their eyes. It was actually beginning to piss me off so I threw my fork in the barely touched cup and walked off. Sasuke tried to follow but I shut the door in his face as I made my way to the window. I crawled out and ran off into the forest. I didn't need no babysitters. I was fine, it was one small, weak moment. I was fine. I wish Kisame was around, but he seemed to be gone on a mission, and Sasuke and them had to leave soon to back him up. I knew Kisame would be fine, he was unbeatable. Madara was making me stay back, he said it was not necessary for me to go, and it would be to crowded. I scowled at the world as I thought about having to stay back while everyone else got to go. Times like this I wish Deidara was still alive, I missed the sadist bomber, he was good company when I was worrying, but at least Hidan would be staying with me.

"You're slacking. Let's go you lazy bitch! You're an embarrassment to Jashin-sama!"

I was panting heavily, small cuts covered my whole body. The tip of Hidan's scythe dripped from my blood. He didn't activate his curse technique thing though. This was just to push my stamina. Who better to help with that then the man who could not die. I was on one knee, looking up at the silver haired man, who only had a few cuts over his body. I one eye clenched shut the other squinted, blood and sweat kept dripping into them. I wiped my face and charged at the man again. A kunai versus a scythe was very unfair. But not much was fair in this world. It's been two days and Kisame still wasn't back. Sasuke and Madara left about a day or so ago. I have been non stop training since they left. I was only able to chop Hidan's head off once. He didn't like the fact I tried to sew his head to his own ass. I slashed at him, ducking from his own attack toward me. I spun and kicked him in the rib, throwing shuriken, hitting him with 2 in the stomach. They didn't phase him as he laughed manically, running at me once again. I tried to jump back but failed, receiving a large slash across my stomach. I fell to the ground, gripping the bleeding wound.

"Fuck, shit, bitch, whore!"

The man walked over, swinging his weapon onto his shoulder looking down at me.

"You know, if you're going to be this weak, maybe trying to learn my technique wouldn't be a bad idea."

"Fuck you! Go get me my bandages before I pass out."

He rolled his eyes and chuckled as he walked to the edge of the field we were in. My fingers dug into the dirt that I laid on. The pain was horrible. Hidan threw the white cloth hitting me in the chest. I snarled, glaring at him. I sat up, beginning to wrap it around my would as fast as I could.

"It's a shame you didn't die instead of Kakuzu, he was much more useful."

"HAH! That cocksucker would have killed you the moment he found out you joined!"

I sighed, he was right, I really didn't get along with that guy. I think Sasuke left a vile of Karin's blood at home. I could use a bit of that. I cringed as I tried to stand up. Hidan just stood above me, laughing. He was a waste of fucking space.

"No, don't worry, I'll live. I've only lost half of my bodies blood capacity."

"Haha! Then maybe you shouldn't be so weak."

"Keep it up Hidan. I dare you."

"Ha! What could you ever do to me!"

I raised an eyebrow. I twirled the kunai in my hand and stabbed it backwards hitting my target. The man tried to say something but a strange sound just oozed out of his mouth as he fell to the ground. I looked back at him laughing, as much as it killed my stomach. I took a couple steps away before speaking just in case.

"I'm surprised I hit it. It of course being oh, so small!"

"Fuk ou!"

He couldn't speak, his hands covering the bleeding area where his man hood used to be. I began my long journey back to the house in the middle of a forest. Hoping I wouldn't faint from blood loss on the way there, or Hidan catching up to kill me.

I sat on the couch, my wounds slowly healing, do to the fact that I was disgusted with putting that bitches blood in my mouth, I drank very little, causing a very slow recovery. I flipped through channels, how Madara got television in this secluded area was beyond me, but I was in no place to question his ability to do random things. I sighed as I finished the last of my fruity beverage. I could feel people walking up to the house. 5 people to be exact. I jumped up, hissing in pain. I turned around to see the door open. Suigetsu and Jugo held up a badly beaten Sasuke. Karin and Madara walked in behind them. They all looked pretty bad. I ran up, grabbing a hold of Sasuke, ignoring my pain.

"Sasuke! What happened? What did you guys do?"

"Kawako..."

Sasuke refused to look at me. I looked around at the others. Jugo was the only one who looked at me in the eyes. Nothing could be read on his face. Suigetsu was the first to speak up.

"Sasuke did all he could."

"He almost died trying..."

I looked over at Karin, she was much paler then usual. I could see blood stains all over her shirt. Even Suigetsu had bruises over him, he looked very dehydrated. I let Jugo hold Sasuke as I took a step back. I looked at Madara.

"Madara.. What small adventure... were you guys on? And where the hell is my brother?"

"We were attaining the Eight-Tails."

"Where is Kisame, he should have been the first one, shouting and ranting how that it was tiresome, but how great he beat the bastard... Where is he Madara?"

That's when I noticed the sword he held behind the guys. He brought it around, handing it over to me. My heart dropped. My organs all just fell out of me. I grabbed the sword as tears began falling out of my eyes. I fell to the ground sobbing, wrapping my arms around the large weapon. I dropped my head on it letting it all out. I screamed at the sword.

"No.. That's impossible. Kisame couldn't lose, he was unbeatable!"

I hunched over, crying, crying loudly, it's been so long since I actually cried.

"Why? I should have been there! I'm his little sister! I should have been there! I was never there... I SHOULD HAVE BEEN THERE!"

"Kawako, it was inevitable, none of us could have saved him. You would have just gotten yourself killed."

"Fuck you! I should have been there to try! He needed me!"

More tears leaked out wetting the sword beneath me. The sword began to shiver. I could feel it eating at my chakra. The dark chakra that leaked out of me. The thing was, the more it ate, the less I felt, the easier it became.

"This was not how it was supposed to be..." I began to ramble to myself as I hunched over the sword. "None of this is right! It's all just another dream. One long nightmare that I will be waking up at any moment... I'll wake up, back in Konoha. I'll wake up and go to the training field, and wait hours because Kakashi-sensei is late. I'll be waiting there laughing while Sakura yells at Naruto for picking a stupid fight with Sasuke. The two will glare at each other and I will put my money on Sasuke. Kakashi will show up just before the two boys beat each other up. It will be like every other day. the day's where people didn't run off getting killed." I looked up, my eyes red, tears streaming down. Everybody's faces looked so hurt, their eyes filled with sadness and sympathy. Sasuke's, Sasuke's were the worst. I could even see water filling the rims of his eyes. "Right? I'll wake up any moment. We will be back, happy, the way it's supposed to be! We will all be happy!"

I began to twitch. My blood was boiling.

"Kawako..."

I stared at Madara, my blood was so hot it hurt.

"AAAHHHH!"

The sword began to glow and morph into my body. My limps grew in size, my fingertips pointing into talons. The space in between my finger grew webs and my skin turned a darker blue. My eyes pulled back and my pupils slit. A large fin ripped the back of my clothes. Soon enough I was the shark monster my brother had once explained he would teach me to transform into with control. The only problem was my voice was quiet. The sword had complete control. And without Kisame around, I had no one to get me out. With my large arm, I swiped through the crowd of people, except Madara, my fist went right through him. I just growled and snarled, jumping over the masked man, smashing down the wall as I escaped into the forest. Running, where I didn't know I just ran. I could feel people chasing after me. Madara, and Jugo. Jugo was in his cursed seal stage. Even the injured Suigetsu chased after me. I couldn't stop, I just continued to run, tearing down anything that tried to get in my way. Power, amazing power pulsed through me. All the emotions I once felt were gone, all that was left was the feeling of power and the pulsing of the chakra behind me. After about a mile, I noticed something odd. Something screamed in the subconscious of my subconscious. The pursuers ceased, only one being of chakra could be felt pulsing around me. The thing was, he was to my right. I snarled, stopping my run, sending a burst of water through the forest. The water tore through the trees, leaving holes and causing a few trees to fall. I missed my target. I felt it get closer. Everything looked red to me. Just white outlines showed me what was around. The body jumped into my view and I roared, snapping my teeth at him. The half lidded eyes, the messy hair, the kanji written on his chest. He was different, but yet exactly the same. The problem was, who I was didn't care about who I saw, destruction was all the need I had. The thing I was just wanted to remove all obstacles, to kill him. I crouched down, getting ready to pounce and attack. I could hear a voice. It was muffled, I tried to listen carefully.

"Kawako? Kawako, what's happening?"

I growled, warning him off.

"I just have to wake up! This is wrong! I'm going to go wake up!"

"Kawako, stop this please! I didn't mean to hurt you!"

I jumped at him, swatting him into a nearby tree. Three lines of blood formed across his chest. His face cringed in pain. It seemed weird, I've never seen him in pain. Why was he in pain?

"I don't know what you're talking about! I just have to wake up!"

I opened my mouth and a jet stream of water shot out. The man ducked and ran toward me, kicking me in the side of the face. I stumbled over and he jumped back, keeping his distance. I howled once again. My mind still pushed far back into the darkness.

"I will wake you up! Now snap out of it!"

I laughed. Why was I laughing? I didn't know, I just went along with it. I jumped at him, my claw being stopped by a wooden puppet. It looked very familiar, dreads and a bandanna covering his face, the way it reminded me of some kind of scorpion with his pointed steel tail that dripped poison. I jumped back, snarling at the obstacle that stood in my way of killing this annoy pest.

"Get out of my way or I'll kill you myself! I need to wake up!"

The mans face was masked with hurt and anger. He twitched his fingers, the puppet opened his mouth sending a barrage of needles. I simply let out a jet of water as I jumped backwards deflecting them. I flipped up a large amount of earth, whipping it at the man. He easily just dodged it. He growled in annoyance.

"Snap out of it Kawako! This isn't you! You may be spiteful but this isn't you! Listen to me! You don't want to do this!"

I ran forward a little faster then he would have guessed I spun kicking him in the side of the head, he flew into the ground. As hurt and anger grew it seemed the monster grew stronger, I was going hysterical.

"You're just another addition to the pain I've felt! You left me! You killed yourself, leaving me alone, with all those memories! You left me alone! Do you know what that village did to me! DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA!"

The closer I got to control the more memories of the redhead flowed, sending me into a deeper frenzy I lost myself again, jumping at the man, swiping, slashing and gnashing at the man. He jumped around, using everything in his body to avoid my strikes. He was getting tired. I glared at the man. He was different, he was real. He was human.

"Kawako! Please! I'm begging you!"

"They are all lies! Every word you spoke was a lie! You never cared about anything! You couldn't care! You were just a puppet! Now I'm going kill you again!"

I went to give him a final blow, putting all the dark chakra I could summon into my talons.

"You're just a monster!"

I froze mid slash. My whole body froze except for my twitching lips as I growled at the man in front of me. I'm... just... a... monster. What was I doing? The red in my vision slowly began to fade. I could see the maroon hair, the pale brown eyes. The flush on his skin. The cuts on his body. I shook my head and finished my attack, sending him into a tree.

"You know nothing about me!"

"I know you shouldn't be here!" His voice, quiet and raspy. "I know you don't have the heart to deal with the killing and death!" He pushed himself up, barely able to keep his feet steady. "The horror this organization is filled with! I know you're still the same immature, annoying determined brat that I fell in love with!" He took a step toward me, almost falling, his eyes watery. "That I still am in love with! I never stopped, even after I died. Somehow, even while in death, I knew I loved you!"

I growled louder, my claws gripping at my head as I crunched into a ball. I screamed an ear piercing howl. Morphing and shrinking back into the small frame I was originally meant to be. The sword fell to the ground, the bandages all ripped and torn, hanging loosely from the sword. I fell to my knees, my hands still grasped tightly to my temples. My clothes were battered and torn, I looked up with tears in my eyes. The man that used to be a puppet stood in front of me, bleeding and panting.

"Sa-Sasori."

It still hurt to even say his name, even though he was right in front of me. He stumbled over, dropping to he knees, now eye level to me. His hands wrapped around mine, pulling them away from my head. They were, warm. So very warm. He set my hands on my lap and brought his to my face, cupping it gently. He stared into my eyes. Tears falling from his.

"I hated these feelings. Love, happiness, hurt and pain. I hated them so much I took them all out of me. The only thing I had left was my heart. Kawako, you are the best worst thing that has ever happened in my many years. After that time I won the battle, I knew that you'd always be mine. Not just cause I owned you, but because you owned me as well."

He bent down, pushing his lips to mine. Everything seemed right at that very moment. My arms flew around his neck, holding on for dear life. Never wanting to let go, cause I knew, once I did, he would be gone again!

"Sasori!"

The name I have so dearly craved to say once again.