If there was one thing Demi hated more than silence it was awkwardness and here she was sat at the Disney studio with her other co-stars and her former best friend in a situation which included silence and awkwardness and yet she couldn't but help the giddy feeling in her stomach that came over her over and over again as she stared at ex-best friend, of course she had know she had, had feelings for Selena longer than she would like to admit but she hadn't realised that she had loved her until it was too late.

Of course their fall out had to have been more than one person's fault, how can you argue with yourself but although she didn't help their friendship it was Selena who let it fall apart and even now Demi had tried over and over again to catch her friend's attention so they could make up and she could finally find out if Selena ever did love her the way she loved her.

Of course there had to be a begin to this fight although Demi didn't like to call it a fight she liked to call it a huge misunderstanding. It had been a slow process and Demi could feel it slipping through her fingers not been able to stop the girl from finally falling from her grasp, maybe if she had had the strength to tell Selena she was in love with her it wouldn't have happened, maybe she would have turned round and said she love her back, maybe she would have ran up to her and kissed her and told her how long she had been waiting to hear her say that or maybe she would have tried harder to be with Demi and tell her how much she loved her but that was an awful lot of maybes.

Taylor Swift had hit the world by storm and of course she had made friends with the main three Disney girls, Demi, Selena and Miley at first Demi liked it, she found the older girl and inspiration and fun to be around but of course as always you pick out the person you like best out of your group of friends and Taylor did. In fact she went through a stage of been Miley's best friend to been Selena's, although Miley did seem to get a new best friend every four months, and that is where the misunderstanding starts.

Selena started hanging around with Taylor more and more and of course Demi didn't think much of it, Selena was allowed to get other friends as she wouldn't like it if Selena turned round as said she wasn't allowed anyone but her, even if we weren't both use to sharing each other. Eventually it got worse when Demi called she would be with Taylor, when Demi wanted to do something she was doing something with Taylor and Demi was starting to feel like she was losing her best friend so Demi stopped calling. She found other friends who probably weren't the best influence but Demi wasn't easily led so she wasn't too worried besides she still had Miley.

Demi she knew she would hurt Selena but she had hurt her more and if Selena wasn't trying the neither was she and so she walked away from her friendship even though it killed and if though now was she watches her the silence sitting in the studio she can't help but love her.

As she sat on one of the bean bags with the rest of the Disney crew, Selena Gomez, Miley Cyrus, Nick Jonas, Joe Jonas, Mitchel Musso and Emily Osment they waited for the management team to come out and Demi decided she hated them for bringing her and Selena together again because all the feelings she had pushed aside and tried to forget where bubbling up inside of her and she wanted to scream and cry at Selena, yet smile and take her back with opening arms. She wanted Selena to tell her everything was going to be okay and she wasn't going to leave her slide again that even if she didn't love her they would be best friends forever like they said when they were younger.

Demi pulled her legs up to her chest and wrapped her arms around her as Miley pulled her bean bag closer, she could tell Miley was sick of the silence too and Demi was almost pleased that Miley had chosen her to talk to but it wasn't Selena and suddenly she felt angry at Miley for coming over. Demi knew Selena wouldn't come over if Miley was there, which meant not even a slight chance of interaction and Demi was dying to hear her voice spoken directly to her, the deep husky type voice that sent shivers down her spine when she would whisper in her ear.

"Hey Dem," Miley said her eyes locked on Demi's trying to figure out if she was okay as she knew about the argument with Selena.

Miley knew she couldn't be what Selena was to Demi not even close but she was happy that Demi felt dependable on her with information and advice but there was a slight envy of the brunette girl that Demi felt so deeply about that she couldn't help but want to hit her for making Demi so upset.

"Hello," Demi answered politely it wouldn't be best for Selena to think the friendship between Demi and Miley was fake because it was the only thing she had to make Selena jealous and she knew it worked.

Selena had never liked Miley she had said she was too big for her boots, to cocky and definitely in love with her self and although she was right Miley had been there for her and she was great listener even if she knew that what she was been told wasn't the whole truth, she never preyed her for more information and Demi owed her, her sanity.

"How are you?" Miley asked and although Demi wanted to ring her neck for asking such a stupid question in front of Selena when she clearly wasn't going to be okay she forced a smile on her face.

"Yeah wonder what Disney wants." Demi said she didn't want an answer it was merely a thought that had escaped her lips as there was too much going on, she didn't feel bad for not asking how Miley was either in fact she had really noticed she hadn't.

She knew she was been a bad friend and that hurt her a little she hadn't wanted to befriend someone else that would want to make sure she was okay, someone that cared that was why she had connected with her other stupid friends (if that's what you could call them), they didn't care nor wanted to be cared for and Demi found it easier to be around them. She could block herself of from having any other friends like Selena but that hadn't worked because Miley had cared when she had ran into the bathroom when they were in the same recording studio, she had asked what was up and Demi had told her. It had rushed from her mouth without been able to stop glad of a person to listen and ever since then Miley had been there for her.

"Yeah me too, I hope it's something good." Miley answered grinning back at her glad that she didn't get snapped at and Demi could see the relief in her eyes and she started to feel the gut retching feeling in her stomach and she looked away from her.

Demi had snapped more the once at Miley over the past few months even said some horrible things she could never take back and that's when she started to feel guilty, not because she didn't care but because she was awful to her so in some weird type of way she did care for Miley, it wasn't all an act but it wasn't the way Miley wanted it to be.

"Yeah," Demi muttered she wanted to continue she wanted to make Miley feel good and stop depressing her like just because she was every time she saw her but she couldn't think of anything else to say and she could tell Selena's eyes where resting on her intently.

Miley tensed and looked around the room and her eyes met Selena's and she couldn't help the look of hatred that crossed across her face because she was the one stopping Demi and her having a proper relationship, she was the one that had made the girl she cared about cry out at night and she couldn't help but dislike her.

Demi noticed how Nick had moved closer to Selena and images filled her head of pictures on Ocean Up of them sat closely together, her at his concerts and video of her crying at his song that was supposedly written for her and Demi could see the way Nick was looking at her that he liked her in fact he could possibly love her like she did and the surge of jealously she felt towards her friend was too much she had to get of the room, get away from everyone but she knew if she didn't make it look like she needed to go Miley would follow and today she didn't want to talk about it, today she wanted to act on it.

She wanted to walk over Selena and grab her hand gently and pull her up and look her in the eyes and tell her how much she had hurt her and how she still loves her and would do anything to be her friend again, and how she had been in love with her from the age of twelve. She wouldn't wait for a response she would kiss her and let her control it and hopefully she would kiss back, but Demi was a chicken or at least she liked to think Selena should say sorry or be the first one to make the move so she stands up and looks at Miley.

"I'm going to the toilet," She locks eyes with her again and she hopes Miley can see the pleading in her eyes not to follow because she knew she was going to break down and this time she didn't want to be held unless it was Selena's arms around her.

She walked slowly through the double doors of the studio and she didn't start running until she knew she was out of sight and the tears were already starting to fall down her face and as she exploded into the bathroom she knew she probably looked a mess with the amount of makeup she put on this morning to make it look like she was getting some sleep.

As she fell on to the sink attached to the wall she could feel her legs falling from underneath and she was wishing that she had cried the nights before and let the emotion she had been building up out because it wouldn't be as bad as it is now.

She raised a shaky hand and turned on the cold tap and flicked the cold water onto her face as the tears rolled down her face and her eye sight blared, she wasn't to sit down and hold herself together and keep the composed face she has learnt to show but she can't not this time, she knows she's lost her best friend, she knows that Selena has a boy friend or at least Nick is fighting for her, she knows she is going down a dark path with the people she is acquainted with and she is scared of coming back up.

Her family, she hasn't even thought about them, Madison looked up to her and she wasn't setting a good example and Dallas cared about her so much and she was letting her down but she couldn't think about that, that made things worse it was bad enough that she had lost her best friend and the chance of happiness she didn't want to think about losing her family.

This wasn't what she and Selena had wanted growing up, they had both loved to sing and act but they hadn't wanted their friendship to end and Demi could feel fresh tears building up in her eyes but she knew she had to sort herself out people were going to realize she was taking too long.

She looked up, wiped the fresh tears and her vision came back and she noticed the person behind her, her brown curls locks and chocolate brown eyes. When had the door opened she hadn't heard it, how long had she been gone for?

All she could do was stare at the brown eyes that stared back wide-eyed her hands gripping at the side of the sink.

***Okay so this was sort of an idea that came to me and I just had to write it up and I ended up finishing this chapter before I thought I would and decided I would post it. So I hope you like it. Thanks for reading. ***