My friend (forever is never forever) and I co-wrote this fic during the hiatus, then I went to Australia and it wasn't posted. It's just a little look into Owen and Cristina after Holidaze.

Owen's POV

If he had known she felt that way about him, he would have reconsidered calling her out here to be Cristina's cardio god.

Ever since she told him she had feelings for him, he looked at her. He looked at her in order to figure out how he felt about her. He looked at her as a way of searching within himself.

He is in love with Cristina, that fact is undeniable. Yes, he was in a war with Teddy and that binds people together in a special way. He can admit that at one time he was in love with Teddy. He was engaged but her was in love with Teddy.

But Teddy never hinted in the least that she reciprocated his feelings. So he let them fizzle out and he was her friend, her buddy instead.

Then he met Cristina. He was drawn to her the first moment he saw her. She's tough but still sensitive when she wants to be. She's intense – they both are. She's everything he needs and she gets him.

He can't even begin to describe how lucky he feels that Cristina is still with him. He felt horrible when he choked her. Worse than horrible. She didn't feel safe with him. But he went to therapy, he talked to Dr. Wyatt. He became the better man he wanted to be. For himself. For her.

They are intense. He's never felt this way about anyone before. When he kissed her in the exam room – a complete stranger – he felt that intensity towards her. It only grew and it erupted when he kissed her outside of Joe's. One may have thought it would fade – that the intensity was just lust. It didn't. That's how they are. They are intense.

He has been in love with Cristina since…there wasn't an exact moment; the feeling was just there one day. And then he wouldn't allow himself to say the words. He didn't want to hurt her anymore. He couldn't live with himself if he hurt her any more. He used different words instead – "hey there now" and "take care now". But those words meant "I love you".

When he told her he wanted to still be here, be with her, in 40 years he meant it. He never thought about that with Beth or Teddy. If he tries to imagine his life in 40 years from now, he sees Cristina.

He had loved Teddy at one point, there is a small part of him that still loves her, but he is in love with Cristina.

He's not with her because he feels he owes her something. He wanted her. He wants her, he needs her, he loves her. She is his life now and he can't breathe without her.