Disclaimer: I do not own Death Note.

Warnings: Angst.

Pairings: Raito/L

Summary: At L's death, he spoke of love. Raito believes it was to mess with his head and a new game begins, but Raito can't win. What will he do to win the game of love when L is dead?

Notes: Hello readers. Here is a new story but I'm not sure about this. So, send reviews/comments to me to tell me what you think and if I should continue this story.

Chapter One:

He felt himself fall to the ground. He knew his time was closing in. He knew the moment they got the death note that he was going to die. Maybe he knew he was going to die when he took on the case. It was the hardest case he ever had. He could have pulled back and lived, but that wasn't him. L couldn't stop solving cases. It was his life. Twenty-five years was not long time to live but he did many things in his short life. He felt arms grab a hold of him before he hit the ground. The devil disguising as an angel. He felt his heart slow down. He felt pain like never before. He wasn't sure if the pain was from the heart attack or from dying by the hands of a friend. Yes, he could admit Raito was a friend. It could have been more if Raito wasn't Kira. He stared up at his murderer and wondered if he could speak. He wanted to say something.

Raito stared down at his rival and felt pain. He wasn't sure why he was feeling this way. He shouldn't feel anything for his enemy. It was him or L and he chose to live. He knew that L would do the same. He felt the emotions rising inside of him. He wanted it to end. It hurt deep within. He knew he had to put a knife through L's heart. He felt his lips turn up into a smirk. He was winning. No, he won.

L saw the smirk and knew the truth. He was hoping that he was wrong the entire time but once again he was right. His friend was Kira, his murderer. He felt his eyes become heavy. It was hard to breathe and keep his eyes open. He had to for a few more moments. There was something he had to say. "Raito-kun…" He breathed out. He needed a few more seconds. He chocked, "I… I… I love… love Raito-kun…" His eyes started to close while he remembered every detail of his life. It was flashing before his closed eyes. He felt he couldn't breathe anymore. He was succumbing to death.

The entire room froze or at least it felt that way to Raito. Everyone become very quiet when L spoke those words. He was sure they thought he would say something about the case but in the end he spoke of love. Raito stared down at the dead detective with a blank stare. Was it another game the detective was playing at? His emotions were getting the best of him. Regret, remorse, and guilt were clouding his mind. He screamed loudly and shook L. He wanted to know what L meant by those words. When did it happen? When did L fall in love with him if those words were the truth? He screamed again in agony, "Ryuuzaki! Get a hold of yourself! Ryuuzaki!"

Yagami stared at the scene unfolding. He and everyone in the room heard what L said. He was surprised and shocked. He couldn't believe those words were spoken. Was there more to his son's relationship with L? He didn't want to ask. He didn't want to know the answer. As he watched his son shake L's dead body, he pulled Raito away from L and spoke, "Raito, calm down."

Raito couldn't calm down. His rival, his enemy just told him that he loved him. How could he have missed it? Every girl and guy who had a crush on him, he knew about. Why couldn't he see it within L? Was this another game from the detective? He couldn't stand it. His emotions were going haywire. He was feeling guilt for ending L's life. Why should he? L would have killed him if he was caught. He shouldn't feel anything at all for the detective, but still the emotions were there. He screamed again and stood up. He looked around the room. He had to leave behind what the detective said and continued to do what was needed. He had to claim ownership of Rem's death note. He yelled, "Shinigami! Where are you!?" He stormed out of the room, looking for what remained of Rem and the death note. After five minutes of searching, he found it. The death note was lying in a pile of ashes waiting to be claimed. L words came back to haunt him but he still picked up the death note. He called out to the others as he pocketed the death note, hiding it from view. As everyone piled into the room, he spoke brokenly, still haunted by the detective's words, "The shinigami?"

Aizawa never heard Raito sound so broken in all the time he was around the teenager. He wondered what happened between L and Raito. Was their relationship a lot deeper than friendship? He glanced at the others in the room. Mogi and Matsuda gave a look of sorrow. It wasn't surprising. They lost two people of their team. He took a step forward and sighed, "They didn't deserve this."

"No, they didn't." Matsuda cried out. "L and Watari were good hearted people. All they did was believed differently than Kira."

Raito stared straight ahead, unable to hear what the others were going on about. All he heard were L's last words repeating. He couldn't understand how it happened. L and he, even when he had no memories were always fighting. How could L fall in love with him? He looked down at the dust on the floor and finally collapsed to his knees. He couldn't contain his feelings. They were raging a war inside him. He whispered, "L. He has all the answers. I have to find him." He knew he wouldn't get the answers but he still stood up and walked out of the room. He heard the others following him but they meant nothing to him. All he wanted was the truth. He wanted to understand those haunting words. He looked into the room seeing L not sitting in the chair. He stepped closer to see the detective lying on the floor. He didn't understand why L was lying on the floor. He couldn't think right with all these emotions raging inside of him. He walked to the detective and shook him. He yelled, "What did you mean!?"

Yagami walked into the room with his men. They all looked shock as Raito was shaking L's copse. He couldn't believe his son was losing control. His son always had control over his emotions. He stepped forward, pulling his boy away from the dead body. He whispered afraid to speak any louder, "Raito, he is dead. He's dead."

Raito stared at the copse and whispered, "L couldn't be dead." He kept trying to piece everything together. He laughed out loud realizing he was losing his mind. He set up the detective's death. He made sure L would die. He wouldn't get any answers from L. L was gone. Everyone was looking at him like he was crazy, but he couldn't stop laughing. He stopped and looked a head while whispering, "That's right. He's gone. I can't ask him what he meant."

Yagami stared at his son in shock. Never before has he seen his son like this. He watched his son collapse onto the ground and scream. He didn't know what to do. He wanted to stop his son from feeling like this, but what could he do? His son was mourning for L. And what Raito said, it would seem like L never told him about his feelings before he died. He could figure it must have been something hard to take. He touched his son's shoulder and replied, "We need to call this in. You should go to one of the bedrooms and rest for a little while."

"Rest?" Raito asked emotionless. He stood up though and stared at L's copse, still wondering what the older man was going on about. Was his words the truth or were they false? He walked out the room. He needed to be alone and get everything straight. He had to use logic.

Matsuda stared after the teenager, frightened. He never heard Raito speak like that. Then again, he never heard anyone laugh when someone died. He turned back to the others. He felt horrible. Watari and L were gone. Who would lead them to capture Kira now?

In the bedroom, Raito flopped onto the mattress and stared up at the ceiling. He couldn't believe he picked the old bedroom where L and he spent. But this was the only room that L never had cameras in. He glanced toward the door and whispered, "Ryuk."

Ryuk chuckled loudly. Being with Misa was boring and he needed some fun. Raito was never boring. He floated up and replied, "The great detective L is finally gone. It will become boring now."

Raito looked away from Ryuk. Yes, it would be boring. It was boring before L came into the picture. L gave him the most fun ever. It was a battle of wits. L's words come back and he has to know what the detective meant. It had to be a trick. L was trying to mess with his head. He sat up and growled, "Damn you L." It wouldn't leave him alone. He needed to understand L. He stood up and walked out the bedroom, hearing Ryuk following behind. He had to be outside. He needed fresh air. As he went to the roof, he slammed the door open and looked out at the city. Nothing made sense. L's words were still pounding in his head, repeating over and over.

'I…I…I love…love Raito-kun…'

He didn't want them in his head. His hands curled into fists as he continued to stare out at the city. Raito growled lowly, "You damn bastard. You played another game that I can't win."

"What are you talking about?" Ryuk asked, and then howled in laughter, "Oh you mean what L said before he died. That was pretty funny. He proclaimed love to his murderer."

Raito glanced backwards at the shinigami. Who would fall in love with their own murderer? He had to keep using his logic mind. He had to keep his mind straight. L's words were lies. They were only said to mess with his head. But why does his chest hurt when the detective's words ring inside of his head? He shouldn't feel anything for L. L was in his way for a better world. L needed to die to make a perfect world. He glared out at the city and growled, "I should be thrilled that L is dead."

"You aren't?" Ryuk asked while staring at the human.

"I should be dancing at his grave."

"You won't?"

"His words were lies. They were only meant to mess with my head."

"Are you sure about that?"

"Of course, I am."

"You don't sound like it."

"He was lying!"

"I think he was telling the truth."

"It was another game!"

"Maybe."

"Damn him! He knew I could never win that game since he died! Damn you, L!"

Ryuk floated around the human and howled in laughter. He liked how Raito was acting. It was amusing him to great lengths. He turned around when he heard the door opening. He laughed amused, "It would seem dear daddy came to check on you."

Raito ignored the shinigami and continued to stare out at the city. He was trying to hear the same bells L was hearing earlier. He wanted to understand the older man. He wanted to win the new game. When he felt a hand on his shoulder, he spoke, "This is where I found him. He was in the pouring rain."

Yagami didn't know what to say. Raito was acting strange. He was positive his son was in shock. One moment, Raito would remember L was dead and the next second he thought the detective was alive. He sighed and felt the rain pouring down on them. He could tell his son was out here longer than a few minutes. He felt Raito's clothes were soaking. He mumbled, "Raito, let's get out of the rain."

"No."

"Raito, please. You will catch a cold."

"I have to understand him."

"Who?"

"Ryuuzaki. I have to understand him. He was listening to bells, but I don't hear them. I didn't then either."

"Raito, you can try to understand Ryuuzaki inside."

Ryuk floating in front of Raito, chuckled, "You know there is a way you could play the game with L." Raito looked at him with a raised eyebrow. He knew the boy was too smart than to talk in front of his father. It wouldn't matter. By the looks of it, Yagami thought his son was losing his mind. He grinned and continued to speak, "I can send you back in time. You can relive it and play this new game with L." Only reason he was telling this was because without L, Raito would become boring. Besides, watching a new game of love sounded fun to him.

When his son turned to look at him, Yagami asked the one question he was afraid of the answer, "Were you in a relationship with Ryuuzaki?" There was nothing against L. He just never thought he son swung that way with all those girls around him all the time.

Raito stared into his father's eyes and sneered, "No. There was no relationship between us." He couldn't believe his father had to ask. Okay, so he wasn't very interested in girls, but he wasn't very interested into guys either. If he had to guess, he would say he would be with L. Shaking his head, he couldn't believe he just thought that. He headed toward the door but his father stopped him. He sighed, "You were the one who told me to go inside."

"Raito, I realize that L never told you that he loved you before he died. Please, understand that no matter what I would never push you away. You are my son. If there were some form relationship between you two, I'm okay with it." Yagami spoke calmly. He wanted to make sure his son knew that him having a relationship with L wasn't a crime.

Glancing back, Raito pulled his arm away from his father and sighed, "There was no relationship between us. L shocked me with his words as the rest of the team." He headed back inside with his father following. As he walked down some stairs, he asked, "Did everything go okay with the call in?"

"Yes. They didn't ask questions at all." Yagami answered, sighing in relief his son was acting calmer than before.

Raito looked straight a head and spoke, "I'm heading to the bedroom to get dry clothes on. I'll meet you down in a few." His father nodded his head and walked away. He turned to look at the shinigami following him. He couldn't speak in the open. The room was the best bet. He had to find more information about going back in time. He would say it was impossible but then again others would say the same thing about the death note. When he entered his room, he began to strip. He was used to Ryuk always staying in the room with him. As he pulled up a dry pair of pants, he asked while looking for a dry shirt, "What is the price to go back in time? What time period would I go back to?"

Ryuk howled in laughter. He knew his dear human would ask these questions. As he bounced off the walls, he answered, "Don't know the price and I sure the hell don't know what period you will go back to."

"That doesn't help me, Ryuk. How would I know what to do? You could send me back at the time of L's death. And second, there is always a price. I know that and I would like to know what it is before I go ahead with it." Raito responded as he put on his shirt.

"Honestly, I don't know the price. The time period, I'm sure it will be before L's death. That is too soon for me to send you back." Ryuk answered while staring at Raito. He knew Raito would take the risk. Raito was never one to back down from a game. It would be amusing to watch a game of love. He never understood why humans fell in love. Love only brought pain.

"What do I have to do?" Raito asked as he sat on the bed. He had to know if there was anything he had to do for this to work. He looked at Ryuk as the shinigami began to laugh. He tilted his head and asked, "What?"

"You must have a death for it to work." Ryuk howled.

"You are making this all up to kill me!" Raito screamed.

"Nay, I wouldn't do that. I would simply write your name down in my death note. I'm serious about you have to be in a death situation. I have a great way for it to work."

"How?"

"Jump off the building. That would work and then I can send you back in time. You will live and play the new game with L."

"Very well." Raito stated as he walked out of the room. He walked down the hallway to stop by the task force. He stared at them and mumbled, "I'm going to the roof."

"Why?" Yagami asked, and then commented, "You just got out of the rain. Raito, you should stay inside."

Raito smiled and mumbled as he walked by the task force, "I have to meet L." He heard them come after him but he didn't care. He would play this new game with L and win. Then he would end L himself. When he got to the roof, he walked to the edge. He wasn't sure if he wanted to do this. Ryuk could be lying and wanted to see him kill himself. He looked at the shinigami and wondered what he should do. He stepped on the edge of the roof.

Yagami stormed out of the door and saw his son standing on the edge. Panic raced wildly in him. He heard his men walk out in the storm. He took a step forward and spoke, "Raito, step off of the edge."

He looked at his father, a kind man but foolish in his beliefs. Justice should be served by him. L had to mess up his plans again. L had to play a new game of love. He couldn't stand it. Raito looked down at the busy city below and sighed. He would do anything to win the new game. He wasn't about to let L win ever. He glanced to Ryuk and laughed. He couldn't believe that he was setting up his own death to be sent back in time to relive it. He should let it alone but L made sure he couldn't. Shaking his head, he laughed, "I told you that I was going to meet L."

Matsuda cried out, "Raito, don't do this! We can help you!"

"No, you can't. L played a new game and I have to win! I refuse to lose to any of his games!" Raito ranted. He knew none of them understood what he meant. He wasn't sure if he knew what he was talking about.

Yagami stepped forward again and screamed, "Raito, please don't do this! I'll help you out! Please, Raito!"

Raito stared at his father, a man who was never home. He grew up with being strong for his family. He shook his head and raised his head to the skies, feeling the rain beat against his skin. He took a step backwards and mumbled, "L, I'm coming for you."

Aizawa called out, "Raito! Raito! Step forward!"

Yagami jumped forward only to grab a hold of his son's hand when the young man fell backwards. He lay on the ground, holding his beloved son by his hand. He called down, "Do not worry! I'll pull you up!"

Raito glared at his father. How dare anyone interfere with his plans? He hit his father's hand, making the older release his hold on him. He felt himself fall. Was this how L felt? He wondered what death was like. He would know soon.

Yagami looked over the edge, screaming for his son, "RAITO!"

Matsuda fell to his knees, hiding his face. He couldn't believe what happened. Watari, L, and now Raito were gone. He looked at the chief to see deep sorrow and blame in those eyes.

Yagami pounded on the roof, screaming, "RAITO! RAITO! RAITO!"

Ryuk watched the scene and howled in laughter. Raito really jumped and now he will make sure the young man gets his second chance to play the new game. He mumbled a spell that he remembered from his time in the shinigami world. Everything became white and he smirked. It was working.

Raito felt himself continuing falling and he cursed the shinigami. He was going to die and he couldn't stop it. Suddenly, the entire sky lit up in white, blinding him. When he opened his eyes again, he saw his old self laying on the cot in the cell. His form was pulled forward and he merged into his old self. Suddenly, pain coursed throughout his body and he screamed.

In the monitoring room, L jumped startled as he heard one of his suspects scream loudly. He jumped out of his seat and ran toward the door. He glanced back at the others to see their looks of concern. He had to ensure Raito was all right. Never in his life did he hear someone scream that loudly. As he went through the many doors to get to the cell, he opened the cell door and quickly jumped on Raito. He held the body down to prevent any injure to Raito.

Raito shook and screamed. He never felt like this before. When the pain disappeared, Raito felt his wrists and ankles were locked up. He shook again but out of fear. He stared at a strange man with black messy hair and dark eyes. He squirmed, yelling loudly even though his voice was cracking, "LET ME GO! LET ME GO! WHO ARE YOU!? KIDNAPPER!? LEAVE ME ALONE! LET ME GO!"

L held Raito tighter than before, trying to prevent the young man from injuring himself. He knew something was wrong. His friend was screaming until his voice was cracking. He heard the door and looked back to see his caretaker come into the room with a needle in his hand. When the needle was injected in Raito, he watched as the teenager went limp. He didn't understand Raito's words at all. They made no sense at all. Raito gave himself up and knew who he was. But the way Raito was acting it was like Raito didn't even know who he was.

Upstairs, the task force stared at the monitor shocked. Aizawa sat down and ran his hand through his thick hair. He couldn't believe someone could scream that loudly. It shocked him to no end. Raito wasn't making sense at all. Then again, neither was Misa. He wondered what happened to them. He would have to wait.

Matsuda asked in a soft voice, "What just happened?"

"I have no idea." Mogi answered.

An hour later, Watari stared at the unmoving teenager and sighed, "He needs a doctor."

"That would be dangerous." L remarked. He couldn't reveal his identity to anyone else. He couldn't afford the risk.

Raito laid still and listened to the people holding him. He awoke the moment an elderly man's voice rang out. He didn't want them to notice him awake. Who knew what they would do to him? He was confused about the doctor though. Were these people here to help him?

"Bring in Kats." Watari mentioned.

L turned to look at his caretaker. He couldn't believe Watari would suggest that. He stood up and replied, "It is dangerous. I will not…"

Watari cut his ward off, "He needs a doctor and she already knows your identity. She is the best to do this job. I will call her."

Raito sat up in bed. He needed to know what was going on. He flinched as two set of eyes landed on him. He went to speak but shut his mouth. He didn't know what to say. He was still handcuffed. Were they his kidnappers or were they here to help him?

"I see Raito-kun is awake." L spoke monotone.

"Is that my name?" Raito asked confused.