What's Come to Be

Chapter 10

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But the sun beckons you not to dance too much in its light

Yet petty fools twirl and sway with its light

Toying with fire and basking in it for longer than necessary

And then in the moonlight you cry

Tears of regret

But weren't you all warned?

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"That is so stupid!" he shouted angrily before walking back heatedly. His uncle had expected a somewhat similar reaction, he deserved it, but even now he felt he was overdoing it. "All you wanted is me to find a woman and marry her! What if I said I have?"

"Apparently, you can't do that anymore," Kyouraku tried to reason with the younger man, but his answer only sent him into another whirl of fury.

"Anymore? Since when?" he shouted back at his uncle before taking a seat and burying his head in his hands, desperately trying to find an answer in this flurry of disaster.

"Since we risk losing our status," Kyouraku simply replied as he quietly watched his nephew sink into a messy haze of thoughts.

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It had happened all to sudden.

Love wasn't like this.

She had been a fool to have believed it to be so.

But his words were so gentle,

They seemed so true.

Seemed.

I will not weep. I will not weep. I cannot weep. No, I won't weep. but despite her vain wishes the child let deep tears fall into her deep scarlet dress. I have been a given life. I have survived because of him. How much more selfish can I be to wish him for myself? she tried to reason with herself, but the poor fool could not when her heart throbbed beneath her.

She reached a gloved hand to her mouth and as best as she could tried to suffocate the cries that dug inside her, seeking release. Love hurt.

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One does not seek love after lost love.

One does not chase such a folly for one will certainly lose.

One love does not beckon another love.

One loss beckons many losses.

I've lost.

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She'd keep her composure. She would retain what little dignity had been bequeathed to her. She had never expected such a turn of events, she counted herself lucky to even be in the presence of such good people, why she had sought love in a man from a family who had been more than gracious to her, she did not know. She had been at fault. She'd accept the truth quietly and obediently. She wouldn't be selfish to these kind people who had given her chance at a second life.

Dinner had been called and despite her previous state she had managed to compose herself both interiorly and exteriorly. No trace of anguish left in her pretty tired face.

"Why you haven't touched your food," Unohana pointed out sympathetically. "Is it not to your liking?"

"Oh no!" Ayanna quickly explained. Despite all the warnings she had told herself she found herself drifting and drifting away from where she sat. Ukitake turned his attention to her and gazed at her rather sadly. "Its good, I'm just a bit tired I guess."

"Well even more so, eat. Here, bring in the rest of the dishes." Unohana ordered the male servant who had previously stood against a wall. He bowed in accordance and walked out to retrieve the rest of the meal. "If you eat you'll regain your strength."

At this Ayanna smiled wholeheartedly and began eating the soup to due to her current state tasted like nothing at all.

Distracting the whole family Kyouraku walked in rather loudly greeting everyone in his showy way. "How is everyone?" he chimed, completely unaware of how fashionably late he was yet again.

Everyone's attention suddenly diverted to him and for that Ayanna was glad. For the fourth time that dinner she stole a glance at the vacant seat to the side of Ukitake. Starrk would be absent for the evening. Could it be it had already begun? She gulped down the rest of the soup without a word.

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But the sun beckons you not to dance too much in its light

Yet petty fools twirl and sway with its light

Toying with fire and basking in it for longer than necessary

And then in the moonlight you cry

Tears of regret

But weren't you all warned?

Note:

Its been ages hasn't it? Well I'm back! So good to be back, it does feel good to be writing again. Silly me I didn't know I stopped so far ahead in this story and looking back I have so many documents on this fic! I will do my best to weave the story well and hopefully, crossing my fingers, I don't get bombarded with other work and I'll get back to updating!

Fun fact:

I came back to writing this fic. after I started growing my very own sunflowers and I was like O_O I know sunflowers! and i completely thought of this fic. and boom! I'm back haha :P