~ Hikaru's POV ~

It's the middle of April, and I was standing outside of the Ouran Elementary School, watching the little kids play on the playground. Boys playing ball, girls on swings, even girls chasing boys trying to give them cooties. All of their play was interrupted when the school bell rang.

"Come on children! Time to come inside now!" I heard the teacher call.

As the children ran after their teacher and followed her inside, I stepped onto the much familiar playground.

"This is where we used to play," I muttered to myself.

As I walked through the playground and looked at all the things from my childhood, rainclouds started rolling in along with the booming sound of thunder.

Playground school bell rings, again

Rainclouds come to play, again

I looked up at the cloudy sky and let the falling rain splash on my face. This scenery looked so familiar to me; it was like I went back in time to that exact moment.

Haruhi was sitting on one of the nearby benches in the playground, reading a book as usual. I was on the other side of the playground, playing ball all by myself.

"Hey, Haruhi," I said, walking up to her.

She looked up from her book. "Hm? What is it Hikaru?"

"Did you wanna play ball with me? You're always reading all the time so…I thought you would want to do something different…"

She stared at me with her big mocha eyes and smiled. "Sure! I'll play with you."

I smiled and grabbed her hand. "Let's go."

We walked back to the other side of the playground and throwing the ball back and forth to each other. Then, I accidentally overthrew the ball and it went over Haruhi's head, out into the open street.

"I'll get it," Haruhi said, going after the ball.

As I stayed where I was, watching Haruhi go after the ball, I heard a humming sound off in the distance.

"What the…"

When it got closer and closer, I finally understood what it was and my eyes widened.

"Haruhi! Look out!"

She turned toward me and looked at me in confusion. "Wha-"

But before she could move, the car had already hit her, and everything around me was at a standstill. It couldn't have been happening. It wasn't right. It had to be a dream, it had to be…

Has no one told you she's not breathing?

It never happened Hikaru

My mind was brought back to reality when I heard his voice.

"Kaoru…"

Kaoru was my little twin brother, or rather my was-to-be little twin brother, who had died while in our mother's womb. Ever since then, he's been inside my head talking to me.

Hello

I'm your mind

Giving you someone to talk to

Hello…

The memory you have of her isn't even a memory. It was just a dream Hikaru.

"But it didn't feel like a dream. It felt too real," I said.

That's because you want to believe it was real.

"No….I-I wanted it to be a dream!"

Then just think of it as a dream, 'cause that's what it was.

Everything that Kaoru was saying to me seemed like it wasn't true but…maybe it was a dream. Maybe, he's telling the truth. Maybe…I'm asleep right now.

I smiled and nodded to myself. "Yeah, it was all a dream. This is all a dream. I'm not here right now. I'm safely inside my home, sleeping the day away."

That's right Hikaru, you're asleep. You're dreaming.

"Right," I said, putting a smile on my face and acting like I don't care about what's happening around me. I knew I'd wake up from this dream. I knew I'd wake up eventually, just not at the moment.

If I smile and don't believe

Soon I know I'll wake

From this dream

About thirty minutes have passed, and I figured it was time for me to go home. I turned around, facing the exit of the school playground, and started walking back to my mansion in the pouring rain.

After walking about two blocks, I saw Tamaki-sempai from the corner of my eye, waving in my direction.

"Hikaru! Hey Hikaru!"

I turned in the direction sempai was and saw him running toward me with an umbrella over his head.

"Hikaru, what are you doing out here in the rain? You'll catch a cold!"

"Nothing, I was just walking around."

Tamaki-sempai looked back in the direction I came from and then back at me. "You were at the Ouran elementary again."

"Yeah, so?"

He sighed and looked at me with saddened eyes. "You need to forget about her Hikaru, she's gone. What happened back then was long ago. You can't bring her back from the past."

I stared down at the ground for a while, and then, started laughing. "I get it now; you're trying to tell me she's dead so I'll believe you, right?"

Sempai looked at me in question. "What are you talking about?"

"All of this," I gestured to my surroundings, "None of this is real. Haruhi's not dead."

"Hikaru, you're not making any sense. What do you mean she's not dead?"

"This is all a dream! Nothing around me is real! I'll just wake up and everything will be back to normal!"

Tamaki-sempai shook his head. "No Hikaru, this is real. Haruhi died long ago! You know that! You were there!"

"No…you're wrong…you're wrong!"

He grabbed my shoulders and shook me in frustration. "Snap out of it already Hikaru! When are you going to realize that this is reality? You. Were. There! And so was I! What happened was an accident! You need to come back to reality!"

"No!" I screamed, as I pushed away from Tamaki-sempai and ran away from him.

"Hikaru! Wait!"

Don't try to fix me

I'm not broken

I kept running and dared not to look back as I kept hearing Tamaki-sempai scream my name. He didn't know what he was talking about! He wasn't there wasn't there when it happened! He can't prove it!

Thinking that I've lost him, my feet came to a complete stop and I looked around.

There was a church a couple feet away with a graveyard right outside of it.

Go inside Hikaru.

I nodded and ran inside the church like Kaoru instructed me to.

The inside was all dark and gloomy and seemed like no one has been in here forever. I shivered slightly as the cold breeze brushed against my wet skin.

"What do I do now? I can't go back out there; otherwise Tamaki-sempai will find me."

Don't worry Hikaru, I know what to do.

At that very moment, a bright light shown before my eyes and I could see Kaoru's figure.

My eyes widened in shock. "K-Kaoru?"

He put a finger to his lips. "You stay here Hikaru, I'll deal with Tamaki-sempai for you."

Still frozen in shock, I managed to reach toward him and try to grasp his hand.

Unfortunately, my hand phased through his.

"I'm not here Hikaru; I'm just a ghost. You may be able to see me, but you can't touch me."

My hand tightened into a fist and dropped back down to my side. "It's been upsetting without you here."

He shook his head. "No need to worry Hikaru, I'll always be with you," he pointed to his head, "In here."

My eyes turned to tears as he turned his back to me and headed toward the exit.

"W-Wait! Where are you going?"

"To Tamaki-sempai. I'm going to live your life while you live in your fantasy world."

Before I could process anything Kaoru said to me, he vanished right through the door, and I was left all alone.

What did he mean by living my life so I could live in my fantasy world? It didn't make any sense!

Hello

I'm the lie, living for you so you can hide

Don't cry

I started pacing around, wondering whether or not Kaoru was going to come back. But after about an hour passed, I decided he was gone and wasn't coming back.

Being bored as heck, I decided to go outside and look around the church.

The rain was still pouring down and it looked like it wasn't going to stop any time soon. I walked passed the church sign and it looked too familiar to me.

"This was the church Haruhi was buried at…"

Knowing that, I looked over at the graveyard and started roaming around.

There were about ten headstones in a row, and I started going up and down each row, trying to find Haruhi's grave. Of course, her grave was one of the last in the row.

"Haruhi…" I sank to my knees in front of her grave and wrapped my arms around myself. "Even though this is all a dream, I wish you were here to talk to me…I'm so confused."

Thinking that she could hear me, I waited a couple minutes for a response. Sadly, there wasn't one.

I sighed, stood up, and looked up at the sky. "Alright, time to wake up now. I've had enough of this. I want to wake up and talk to Haruhi now."

But nothing happened; I was still standing in front of Haruhi's grave in the pouring rain.

"C'mon Hikaru, wake up!" I said, slapping myself against the cheeks.

Still nothing happened.

Lightning struck before my eyes and a big crackle of thunder hit my ears. Was…was I really awake? Am I not…dreaming at all?

I stared at Haruhi's grave once more, and tears began to fill my eyes.

"No! This isn't happening! She's not dead…she's not dead!" I screamed.

I kept trying to slap myself out of the deep slumber I kept making myself believe I was in, but everything I did wasn't working.

"You're dreaming Hikaru…wake up…wake up!"

But it still didn't work.

Letting the tears run down my face, I fell back onto my knees and sobbed.

"Haruhi…"

Suddenly I know I'm not sleeping

Hello

I'm still here

All that's left of yesterday

The rain continued to pour down on me like a never ending river of misery.

Wrapping my arms around me, I awaited my mind to take me away from reality and carry me back to my fantasy world.

Argh! I am so sorry for not updating this in so long! It's almost been a year! I'm sorry! School's really been getting in the way, and I wasn't sure of what song to do for this chapter! I started with one, decided against it, did another, and I just couldn't decide! I'm sorry! I'll try to update this one a lot quicker! But, I hope you guys liked it. It took me forever to try to write, especially since I haven't been motivated in a while. Please review! Your reviews inspire me! Thanks, love you all!