Author's note: Thank you soooo much for the feedback, I really appreciate it and am glad that you guys like it Sorry by the way about the lack of updating, I planned on updating way more then I've actually done so I'll be working on that X) &sorry about the formatting before, I hope it's better for this one ^_^

Chapter 3:

Drake paced around the corner of the room near Josh's bed making sure to stay a good distance away from Josh. He was afraid of what Josh might do since what had happened, happened. But he didn't even know himself what had happened and tried to play it over again in his head. Josh on the other hand was still sitting on the floor, a little ways away from where they had fallen.

Drake stopped pacing for a moment and opened his mouth looking at Josh but when Josh raised his eyes to Drake's, Drake continued pacing again, looking at anything and everything in their room but Josh. Drake's face contorted into something that could only be described as utter confusion as he opened his mouth and said

"You don't know."

Josh nodded but realizing Drake was avoiding his gaze said aloud

"Yeah."

His voice cracked and he didn't want to think about why, maybe because he knew why he'd done, what he'd done. Maybe because no matter how hard he tried to not think about it, the answer was hovering above every rational thought in his mind. Maybe because if he admitted it out loud, it would make things much more real than they could ever be in his dreams. Maybe because he was afraid. Either way Josh remained silent.

Drake repeated what had happened in his head over and over again trying to figure out what he was missing. He remembered Josh's vacant look, yelling at him, Josh standing up all of a sudden and practically scaring the crap out of him with this bizarre look in his eyes.

He remembered Josh coming closer to him and then…..he fell. They fell together.

He stopped pacing.

No, there had to be something else before that, something he'd forgotten. He ran through what happened in his head once more: vacant look, yelling, scary look, Josh standing up, Josh coming closer.

Drake's eyes widened as everything in his head seemed to click together at once and then he blinked and his thought process was scrambled again. Drake remembered Josh had been so close, it was closer then he'd ever been to Drake excluding the many times they goofed around with each other. Drake had said something he couldn't quite remember, something that questioned Josh's sanity but everything was a blur.

Drake didn't understand why it was so hard to figure out what had happened, it was as if something in his mind had blocked out most of it already. He ran through it in his head again.

Vacant look, yelling, scary look, Josh standing up, Josh coming closer, falling.

No, something before falling…

He remembered Josh's eyes.

They were filled with something he couldn't place at the time, something animalistic, something he now felt growing inside of him as he remembered just how far apart they had been from each other.

What had Josh planned on doing…he had been so close, Drake had felt his anger fade away the closer Josh had come towards him.

His thoughts returned to the beginning once more afraid to go any further. He wanted to forget everything now. He wanted the confusion and the fear that now enveloped him to go away. He wanted to feel normal again.

Drake looked over at Josh then, watching him run his hands through his dark hair as his head faced the ground, staring at the floor or his knees, Drake couldn't tell.

Drake's thoughts slowed.

He remembered falling…their bodies had been so close together. So close he could feel Josh's enclosed chest rise and fall against his own.

It had felt good,

He shouldn't have felt anything.

But the warmth had become too much to ignore.

He remembered how quiet everything had gotten, how quiet he had been, he'd never remembered feeling so….Drake's thoughts spiraled, became sporadic again as he avoided remembering the feeling.

But someone had moved.

He had moved.

His mother had come in and interrupted…no, she was worried about them, she'd heard the yelling.

She hadn't interrupted.

There had been nothing to interrupt Drake thought, suddenly angry.

Josh had been so close before they fell, as if he had wanted to do something.

Wanted to do something to Drake, but what?

Maybe he had been trying to hit Drake,

but his hands weren't where they should've been if Josh was going to hurt him.

They would've been up in the air or something; they wouldn't have been at Josh's sides.

Drake had remembered time slowing down as Josh moved closer, but something had happened.

Something he couldn't seem to remember because he wanted so strongly to forget.

And for a moment Drake stopped breathing.

He tried to force the thought that now echoed in his mind down but it just kept coming back up again.

Drake had remembered how close Josh had come…and he had wanted Josh to come closer.

He had wanted Josh to k…

~No freakin way. No. No. nonononononono~

Drake thought suddenly forcing the word he didn't want to even say in his mind, as far away from his thoughts as possible.

That wouldn't make any sense, that would be wrong, that would mean that…No, he was just out of it today. He was tired and that was all.

He'd slept most of last night and this morning… but that didn't mean he still couldn't be tired.

He should sleep now or do something to keep his mind off of..No he should just leave, clear his head, go somewhere away from Josh and that feeling he couldn't stop pulsating inside of him.

He could practically taste the feeling as it spread through his body.

Drake bit his lip and stared at Josh, still sitting on the floor.

He wanted…There was so much he wanted.

He didn't understand where it had come from, or if it had just been there before..dormant.

The want deep inside him distracted him for a moment but he quickly dismissed it and shook his head.

~This doesn't make any sense~

Drake thought dragging his fingers through his hair, he had to leave.

He had to leave now.

Drake walked over to their bedroom door, his hands barely on the door knob before Josh said quietly

"You going to see Becca?"

Drake had forgotten about their date already.

How could he have forgotten.

She was hot, She was funny…She was…hot.

Drake could taste the lie on his mouth before he replied,

"Yeah…See you later."

Drake opened the door and walked outside of their room before Josh could respond.

He had no idea where he was really going, but he was surely getting the hell out of this house.

Josh watched Drake leave hurriedly and wanted to say something else, maybe ask him to stay.

But that would be weird, after everything.

His logic was where it should've been earlier and he said nothing,

And once the door was closed Josh got up, walked over to his bed and fell onto it, burying his face into the comfort of his covers and his pillow.