sorry it took so longto update, im having a bit of a writers block. I go back to school tommorow so i will try and write as much as i can before then.

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What? The heart? Once again I was the victim of a Robert Doru speech. If I recall correctly Robert said something about having to travel deep into the heart to battle against inner feelings… well I thought he meant like look down deep into yourself, he didn't actually mean travel to the heart, did he? I mean that would be impossible right? No not impossible absolutely f***ing screwed! What the heck was with this crazy place? At the moment I was in my chamber- it sounds like an old fairy tale. You know the ones where the prince saves the beautiful damsel in distress.. something about long hair and witches, but that didn't really fit with the story of my life, im more of a knight in shining armor- a chamber that replays all the memories in my life. I wasn't expecting much when I traveled to the spirit world but I definitely did not expect anything like this. Sorry but a chamber? What the fuck!

"Nikolai, even though it seems very obvious for you, some people do not share your intellectual abilities, care to explain?" finally im able to regain a little of my famous Rose Hathaway bravado, I was starting to miss myself.

"okay rose this is where it gets a little difficult" ha no shit! "I guess I didn't explain myself correctly in the first place. This 'chamber' isn't where you will find Dimitri's soul, it's a little bit of a obstacle that you will have to cross. You see when you die you soul is led to your chamber. The chamber literally plays with your mind and most importantly you emotions. At the moment we are in Stan's section these are all the memories that he has had with you. At that very moment nikolai disappeared, everything disappeared and was replaced by classroom walls. Oh shit not another one?

"Ah its rose, its such a delight to great us with your presence rose we were beginning to miss you. Care to explain why your 53 minutes late to class?" there were a few snickers from my classmates, others were on the edge of their seats waiting for the fight they new would come, I even saw Jesse flick out his camera phone. I hated Stan I really did; he was really never nice to me. And always getting on my nerves, he really brought everything he got from me on himself, he provoked Rose Hathaway and everybody knows not to provoke rose Hathaway unless the want to end up with a broken nose, Stan learnt the broken nose part pretty quickly in my classes with him. But this time as it was Stan's memory I was seeing it through his eyes and feeling his emotions, it wasn't like last time, the last memory of Stan and I was as if it was from an onlooker to the situation. But now I could feel everything that Stan was feeling and see me from his eyes. He thought I was….beautiful? He was waiting in anticipation, to see what reply I would serve him but he didn't get it. I couldn't figure it out, this is alto, you know the guy that hates me just as much as I hate him. But it wasn't like that, no, it was never like that. Stan loved me. He always loved me, from the beginning. And I loved him, I was sure that I loved him, I was only a bitch to him to hide my true feelings. I loved Stan with all my heart, I wanted him, I needed him. A silent tear fell down my cheek, oh Stan I miss you. WHAT THE! Oh no, this is wrong, No No NO! This wrong I love Dimitri, im here for Dimitri. My head was screaming to me that this was wrong but my heart was aching for Stan. I wanted him with every Fiber of my being, I needed him! NO, Dimitri, im coming. I started screaming I needed to get out, this was wrong, he couldn't love me. "NIKOLAI! NIKOLAI HELP ME!" I was so confused and-

It took me a moment to realize I was back, sweat was pouring down my face and I was shaking. Nikolai was holding me as I cried into his shoulder, why, why me? And why Stan of all people!

Nikolai was stroking my head and was frantically trying to get my attention, "rose, rose I need you to listen to me. You will be sucked into many peoples memories, Your emotions will be so strong and you will feel mixed up. With people that you truly hate you will feel undying affection for and people you forever love you will feel the worst hatred possible. You must focus rose, you must pull through. Remember who you are, remember what and who you love and belive in because in seconds that may be taken away from you. Rose if you do not fight off these feeling you will never be the same again, if you do not remember who you love and hate those feelings will stay mixed together and you will never get dimitri's soul back, you may never make it back again. But I know you Rose your one of the most strong willed people I know, I believe in you".

I was worried, no not worried, flat out panic attack. What if I hate Dimitri and forget my true feelings for him? They may never come back, I may never love Dimitri again. I wasn't ready no way was I ready but my 'chamber' didn't seem to regrester that as it sucked me into a whole new time and place, a figure stood before me and it took me a moment to recognize the features oh good Lissa before hatred tinged my vision with red.

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