Authors Note: I haven't written fan fiction in a long long time but I recently saw an article on and it made me what to write a fanfic to it for Fullmetal Panic.

( the link wont work, ask me for it and I'll send it.)

I would recommend not looking at the link until after the 2nd chapter. It kind of kills the surprise in the plot (Although you get a hint at the end of this first short chapter.) If you like it please tell me because if I don't get a lot of good feedback I won't continue writing it. This situation is not exactly the same as this story but it is what it is based off of in a way.

Anyway, Enjoy and Review!

Prologue:

She watched as the rain hit the window pane in the waiting room. She tried so hard in the silence to rationalize what was happening. But most of all, she just tried to remember to breathe. Someone would come to her soon and tell her it was okay to go see him. That he was okay. She would walk in his hospital room and see his tired yet determined steel eyes look up at her.

Then, maybe, she would be able to breath freely again.

Or maybe not.

Chapter One: The Phone Call

The phone shrilled in Kaname's ears at approximately 3:44 AM. Mumbling she reached for it and seriously considered throwing it across the room. She didn't like being woken up. Then she noticed who was calling her at such an early hour. It was Melissa Mao. She had promised to call when the flight got in.

"Melissa?" she mumbled still half asleep, "What's wrong? Are you guys back yet?"

"Yes …we're back…but Kana-" Mao began to say.

"Oh! That's great!" Kaname said, her voice now filled with much more enthusiasm as she realized what that meant. Sousuke is home. "Could you please tel-"

"Wait! Listen to me will you!?!" Mao snapped suddenly. Kaname fell silent. She didn't like the tone in Mao's voice. Something was wrong. Melissa took a deep breath and almost whispered "It's…its Sousuke…Kaname....it wasn't supposed to happen the way it did. I'm sorry. He's-"

The phone fell from Kaname's hand.

She heard Melissa saying her name over and over. Obviously wondering why she wasn't responding. Slowly, Kaname put the phone back up to her ear and choked out "…he's what? Just...just tell me… is he okay?"

"….he got in the middle of the explosion. He…he's not conscious. Kaname, I'm so sorry. It's my fault. I shouldn't have let him…" Mao faded into nothing.

When Kaname finally spoke, her voice was stronger and more stable sounding then she expected. "Where are you? Are you at a hospital? I'll come to you and we can talk about it there. It's going to be okay, Melissa. I'm coming."

"Yes, of course." Mao then went into a monotone route to the hospital herself, Sousuke and Kurz were currently located. "I'll be waiting for you at the front desk...Kurz is…with the doctors at the moment."

"Okay. I'll see you shortly then." Kaname shut her phone and sat in silence for a few moments. She didn't feel any tears; just panic slowly being replaced with a numbness that made her able to mechanically climb out of her bed. After quickly changing into some jeans, a t-shirt and her pink sneakers she made her way to the bus station and took bus after bus that would take her to where Sousuke was.

Kaname had so many questions to ask as she stepped through the door and into the main lobby. However, all those vanished when she looked at Mao. Heavy circles and red puffy skin surrounded her eyes with lines of worry and fear on her brow; she looked nothing like the strong confident woman Kaname had always known.

Mao spoke very weakly. As if she was about to cry and fall asleep at the same time, "I'm sorry we didn't contact you sooner. We only just got him flown in a few hours ago. The doctors are getting him stabilized. Kurz is back there with him, but only because he lied and said he was family and everyone was in such a hurry to get him rushed in, they didn't argue. That bastard, he doesn't look a thing like Sousuke….its not fair that he got to...I'm the one who…I…" she didn't finish because she started to sob, it was the saddest thing Kaname had ever witnessed. It almost looked unnatural to see tears come from such an independent individual.

"Yeah. I know." Kaname said understandingly as she pulled Melissa into a hug. She felt her relax a little in her arms and they stayed that way for a few moments. Then silently sat down and waited.

The quiet stillness of the room was unbearable. Kaname watched the rain pound on the glass; she hadn't realized it was raining. She looked down at herself and realized she was slightly damp.

So many thoughts flew through her mind but mainly her mind was filled with thoughts of Sousuke. Not what was happening now, oh no, she couldn't handle thinking about that anymore. She would surely start crying if she thought about that and she didn't want to upset Mao. She had finally heard the poor sergeant major's sobs fade away into the same silence she was experiencing.

The moments that ticked by while they waited seemed like centuries in her mind breath in, breath out, breathe in, and breathe out, breath in-

"Excuse me."

This snapped Kaname out of her breathing focus as she heard the nurse enter the room. "Mr. Sagara is stabilized. His injuries are surprisingly minor but he…didn't wake up. He's in coma. Oh, I'm sorry, I didn't see you earlier… Are you family?" Kaname realized the nurse was asking her this question. She wanted to see Sousuke. She needed to see him. They had to let her see him. Now. Right now. "Practically, I'm his….his….girlfriend." The lie worked and the nurse looked at her with the utmost sympathy.

"I'm sorry dear. I really am…. you may both go see him if you wish. Please, follow me."

The nurse led them down the corridors to a small room in the ER. Mao entered first, leaning down to put a hand on Kurz shoulder. He was sitting hunched over by the side of the bed looking intently at his friend, as if he could wake him up by staring.

Kaname looked down at Sousuke. He was wrapped around his chest and on his left arm. But otherwise the burns looked, as the nurse said, surprisingly minor for being in an explosion. His face was perfectly calm and unmoving. Something she had not seen before. Even when he slept his eyes twitched under his eyelids, as if he was still protecting her in his sleep. When she thought about this, it was unstoppable. She didn't even feel the tears until they ran down her chin and neck like a waterfall, soaking the collar of her ratty t-shirt.

"Kaname…." Kurz looked up from his friend to greet her. "Thank you for coming." He stood up to give her a hug and held out a box of tissues. It was purely sincere, no perverted intentions whatsoever, which also didn't feel natural at all. Why was everyone acting so weird? Its not like he's dead…he's...fine. He'll be fine. She reassured herself.

"How is he?" she whispered, taking the box from him and pulling one from it. She noticed the box felt light, like many had already been pulled from it before she had arrived.

"Stable and his wounds weren't fatal. If we can just get him to wake up already things will be in good shape..." Kurz's tried to sound light but his voice faltered so he stopped. He couldn't hide it; Kaname knew he was worried. His playful smirk was replaced with a grimace and his eyes looked weary. He moved aside to let her sit close to her protector. "He'll wake up…I know he will..." she said and looked at Kurz. " You know he hates the thought of Wrath being the only one around to watch over me. He thinks it's not enough…so….He'll wake up. You know how dedicated he is…" she laughed then, a hollow laugh as she wiped her tears off her face and neck.

"Of course he will." Kurz reassured her halfheartedly. "Well, come on Sis. I'll get you some coffee and a smoke. You look like you need it." Mao didn't argue. She realized what Kurz was doing. She stood slowly and walked over to the door and they left Kaname with her bodyguard.

Wiping off her face was pointless because after the two left a fresh batch of tears began to flow. She placed her hand over his. "You need to wake up you know." she rubbed his hand with hers and letting her tears fall freely. No sobbing. Just silent tears as she spoke to him just like she would any other day. "Hey…Wake up okay? I don't trust anyone else to look over me. You know that. Please, if you can hear me then listen to me and…wake up."

Sousuke didn't move.

Kaname laid her head on the bedside and silently let the tears continue to fall until she drifted into a restless sleep.

Kaname…I'm trying…

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