Ok guys, my first story it just came to me today so I'm not sure where it's going. Hope you like it and I would love reviews!!

Finding Light in Darkness

Chapter 1

"Lisa Hallet" boomed across from the speaker accompanied by a huge round of applause and whistles. I looked up as my girlfriend of 2 years got up from her seat next to me and swiftly made her way to the stage. At this point I was clapping madly and also whistling. I could see from where I was seating that there was a red blush spreading out through her face and she walked up to the principle. But I guess that's what you get when you are a great academic student at Torchwood high and especially Year 12 awards ceremony at the begging of the last year at high school. I don't think I have ever seen the gym so full of families taking pictures of the last time their children will be getting awards.

My mind snapped back to reality when I heard my name being called up.

"Ianto Jones, award for leading the male choir into the finals and taking home first place," Now it was my turn to blush. I sang in the male choir at school. Sure my friends all knew but it was still pretty embarrassing. The crowd yet again broken into a ear cracking round of applause seeing as I was well known around the school not just through the choir but I was also the Year Twelve leader so I was pretty well liked.

I could see Lisa smiling at me as I made my way up to the stage. I shock Mr. Daniels hand and stood next to Lisa. At first I was smiling being happy that I was here. Year Twelve with the girl I was sure I would be in love with until I died and was going to marry when I was older. I was popular at school with a great variety or friends from a Japanese girl called Toshiko Sato who was a computer geek but so nice and compassionate and then there was Owen Harper who was a badass skater with a heart of gold if you dug deep and of course Gwen Copper and her boyfriend since Year 7 Rhys Williams. Gwen was like a mother hen always fussing over us though last year I suspected she had a flung with Owen but I didn't really want to ask. So it was mainly me, Lisa, Tosh, Owen, Gwen and Rhys but we had other friends that we went off with sometimes but we were the main 6.

My eyes drifted across the gym until I came across and grim looking face standing at the back. Oh no, he came! What is he doing here! Was all that raced through my mind as I looked into the dark grey eyes of my father. My smile dropped and I know he saw it as he smiled smugly before turning around and walking out of the doors at the back of the gym.

We were finally able to go back to our seats after the millionth photo was taken by the school photographer and happy families minus mine. I couldn't believe that my dad had come. He hated me so I have no idea why he would bother showing up. Rhiannon had phoned saying she wouldn't be able to make it because she was currently in London with her husband because he had a business trip. My mother died when I was young so I live with my dad in a flat on the edge of Cardiff but lately I haven't been bothered going back there and I have been staying with Owen because he lives with his cousin who is never in. Maybe Dad had come to shout at me and go on a rant about not getting the groceries and not taking out the trash and then the beatings would come. I never told anyone because I just learned that it was how my father was and he was never going to change and locking him up wouldn't do anything for him and I only have a year left until I go to university so I don't want to be put somewhere else with freedom so close.

I thought that I would be able to keep staying with Owen for the rest of this year but his cousin lost his job and didn't want be being there because I was another mouth to feed, I had told him that I was buying my own food but he seemed to out of it on drugs to listen to I just took my stuff and put it in my car and drove to Lisa's who let me stay with open arms. I love Lisa's parents they are so kind and caring and love having me around so they happily served me a big plate of dinner last night with smiles and love.

So here I am now sitting in this gym with my beautiful girlfriend and great friends only a year away from freedom and he has to show up. He may off left but I've got my bet on him sitting in his car waiting outside. As much as I hated Mr. Daniels old annoying voice I didn't want him to stop thanking everyone for coming and congratulating the students and looking forward to the last year and wishing us a good weekend seeing as it was Friday and the first day of Year Twelve started on Monday.

But sure enough Mr. Daniel stopped talking and people started to move out of the gym with their families. I saw Lisa's mum and dad making their way over to us with the smiles of proud parents directed at Lisa. Her mum hugged her and then also embraced me congratulating me on my choir reward. I was blushing at the mention of the choir but all in all happy that I was being congratulated by someone. Lisa's Dad smiled and shook my hand before himself and his wife were fussing over Lisa. She sure was lucky because her parents loved her. I thought back to the time were I was loved. My last good memory before everything went wrong.

"Ianto! Can you bring the blanket out of the car and put it up on this hill please?" asked my mother with her kind eyes hiding her cancer making its way around her body. She had done chemo but it hadn't gone. I smiled at her before running back down to the car to grab the blanket out of the car. Dad was there getting the drinks out of the back. He looked at me before saying in a low voice

"Your mother has been through a lot over the last few weeks and she needs this day with no stress, do you hear. Don't mess this up," and with that he was walking up to the hill were mum and Rhiannon were handing out drinks and talking while I fetched the blanket. I was slight upset hearing Dad say that but it wasn't unusual. He wanted me to play a sport and become some sort of champion but it was clear that I wasn't sporty and I was intelligent and a good singer so he had discarded me as a son and more like someone who happen to live in the same house .

I got the blanket out of the boot and walked up to sit next to Rhiannon and as far away as dad as possible. Rhiannon was sharing one of her many stories from school about year 7 and what high school was like and all the friends she had made. Nobody asked me how school was so I just silently ate while appreciating time with Mum seeing as I had barley seen her happy in such a long time.

But slowly and surely the day went downhill as it started to rain. Bloody Cardiff weather and we all hurried back to the car. When we got to the car Dad was shouting around asking who had the keys. My heart sank as I felt around in my pockets for the keys that Mum had given to me to open the boot and found my pockets empty. Dads blazing eyes landing on my panicking face as I looked into the boot and saw the car keys lying inside with the doors locked.

"You stupid boy! You can't do anything right! Now your mother is getting wet and cold all because of your incompetence!" He roared right in my face as my lip treated to tremble. Mums small fragile voice sounded from behind me as I felt her cold hand on my shoulder.

"It's ok, I'm sure we can get the car unlocked somehow," she almost whispered immediately calming dad down. Dad then went over to the front of the car and snapped the metal aerial that I brought for mum for her birthday last year that said "Worlds Best Mum On Board" and used it to unlock the car. Once we were inside it was silent all the way home. That night I went to bed with the sound of Mum shouting that I was only 10 and it was an accident were as Dad was shouting about how useless I was.

I guess I couldn't really call it a time when I was loved. Well I was from Mum because she stood up for me. The next day mum became really ill and Dad blamed it on me for her being in the rain and I blamed it on him for shouting at her and that's when the beatings started. Mum never knew. A couple weeks later Mum died. The only person in the world that accepted me and loved me other than Rhiannon.

I thought I would never make it through but then I met Lisa and everything got better. Lisa understood me and we clicked together. We were best friends through primary school and then when we went to Torchwood high we started dating and haven't stopped since. She was my light in the darkness.

OK that was the first chapter and the second one is comming up soon reviews would be great!!