Preface

Since when was it that I start to think about her? I love Edward, I would die for him, but then she came into my life. She was the first to come and hugged me when we first met. Edward wasn't like that, he kept his distance and it took him a long time to close the distance between us. My love for Edward was still the same, the yearning, the longing, the desperation. However, I found it to be changing, and all of those yearning, longing and desperation had shifted towards his sister, Alice.

How long has it been like this I wonder? The time when I had gotten to know Alice a little more better? Or was it at the beginning of our first meeting? It had been so long, and I am married to the most wonderful husband that every girl could ever wish for, Edward Cullen. I have a wonderful daughter, a half breed from vampire and human, Renesmee Carlie Cullen. My name is Isabella Cullen, although I prefer Bella more than Isabella. Isabella is a mouthful, besides Bella sounds less complicated.

So this is how my love has drastically changed. Edward was the first boy I've fallen in love with. Alice was the first girl that I've fallen deeply in love with. I know that Alice doesn't know about this, or she is just oblivious about this. I don't want to come out of my shell and confront her about it. I don't want to destroy the life that I've longed for. I don't want to destroy the family that I have right now. Happiness is out of reach now, and the only happiness that I have right now is my daughter Renesmee, whom everyone nicknames Nessie.

Giving up my happiness for a life that I have longed for, this is just like me.