"Goodbye Rose" he said simply while shaking my hand.
Gone. He was gone. STUPID TASHA.
Dimitri was gone. And with him half of me had gone too.
I could see the war that was raging in his dark eyes as he looked at me one last time before stepping onboard the plane.

Why, do you always do this to me?
Why, couldn't you just see through me?
How come, you act like this
like you just don't care at all

How could he just say goodbye like I was just another student?
Tears rolled down my cheek as I watched the plane take off.

Do you expect me to believe I was the only one to fall?
I can feel, I can feel you near me, even though you're far away
I can feel, I can feel you baby, why

With that I turned around and ran to my room
Tears that I had been holding on for so long came flowing out
Why Dimitri?
'Because we could never really be together' said that small voice in my head

It's not supposed to feel this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me, are you and me still together?
Tell me, do you think we could last forever?
Tell me, why

My thoughts went back to that day in the cabin
It was Tasha's cabin
Why did it seem like every time Dimitri and I were contented something had to go wrong?
After the attack, the world had seen how depressed I was until Dimitri was safe, and they knew that he and I were something more. Now Dimitri had denied ever being with me so that I could have a "good future".

Hey, listen to what we're not saying
Let's play, a different game than what we're playing
Try, to look at me and really see my heart

Dimitri. My Dimitri.
I will love you forever.
my heart is yours, then, now and forever.

Do you expect me to believe I'm gonna let us fall apart?
I can feel, I can feel you near me, even when you're far away
I can feel, I can feel you baby, why

I clutched at the comforter and curled up into a ball.
Sob after sob, I just lay like that.
memories came rushing through my mind
the way he looked at me when he found me at Adrian's room
the look on his face when i broke my ankle and passed out
the concern that was written all over him when he held me down from going back to kill Jesse
the passion within him when we spent the day in the cabin
the look of fear when he wanted me to run out of the cave when he went down
the voice of love when he awoke after we found him in the strigoi caves and he called my name

It's not supposed to feel this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me, are you and me still together?
Tell me, you think we could last forever?
Tell me, why

I could feel Lissa's pity through the bond
She was relating losing Christian over me losing Dimitri,
but she couldn't get it.
I lost my soul mate
my soul mate...

So go and think about whatever you need to think about
Go on and dream about whatever you need to dream about
And come back to me when you know just how you feel, you feel
I can feel, I can feel you near me, even though you're far away
I can feel, I can feel you baby, why

DIMITRI's POV

It took all the will power I had to put on a convincing mask to say goodbye to Roza.
My Roza.
With a simple handshake, I turned and left.

It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me

Don't go Dimitri!
For Roza, you have to go! Said a small voice in m head
I wanted to run back there and run my lips across her skin, play with her hair and do all that we had in the cabin and more
But now, I had to dedicate my life into protecting Tasha Ozera.
a childhood friend that I loved.
but I couldn't love anyone but Roza with my whole heart.

ROSE AND DIMITRI AT THE SAME TIME

It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me, are you and me still together?
Tell me, do you think we could last forever?
Tell me, why

I love you.
forever.
with both their hearts aching,
they both lay down and slipped into a restless sleep,
dreaming about their lives and what could have been.