Always On My Mind

Part Six - Awake

Waking up in the middle of the night with her head on Calleigh's chest Natalia moved over to her pillow and tried to go back to sleep. When Calleigh moved the brunette opened her eyes again. Next to her Calleigh sat up and took her shirt off.

"Do you want something more comfortable to sleep in?" Natalia asked as the blonde leaned back and lifted her hips slightly to take her pants off. The shirt and pants were thrown on the chair next to the bed followed by undergarments.

"No." The blonde answered with a quiet and tired voice. Her eyes closed as she rolled over on her side facing Natalia. Although she went back to sleep quickly it wasn't as easy for the brunette. She was wide awake and aroused since Calleigh took her clothes off. Natalia knew she should let the blonde sleep, but it was hard to be reasonable when the woman she wanted was naked and within her reach.

The brunette took off her lounge pants then her tank top and tossed them on the floor. Moving closer to Calleigh she put her fingers on the blonde's lips then replaced them with her mouth for a soft and slow kiss. Several agonizing moments passed before she felt Calleigh's mouth move with hers. The kiss deepened when Calleigh opened her mouth. As their tongues brushed together Natalia moved her hand through Calleigh's long hair and lightly trailed her fingers down her back. Calleigh became fully awake and aware Natalia was undressed when she felt their breasts press together.

"Feeling better?" Calleigh whispered as Natalia's hand moved down her side.

"Yes." The brunette answered and slowly slid her hand up to Calleigh's breasts. The blonde moaned as Natalia traced one of her nipples with her fingers then lightly squeezed her breast.

"Are you sure?" Calleigh asked and tried to think clearly despite what Natalia was doing to her. Her lover recovering from a car accident made the blonde hesitant. "We don't have to do this if you don't feel like it." As Natalia's hand touched and caressed more of her body Calleigh added, "It's not the only reason I'm here. It's not the only thing I want."

As her hand roamed over her lover's body it was hard for Natalia to concentrate on what Calleigh was saying, let alone the meaning of her words. She kissed the blonde's neck and said, "What do you want?"

"I want everything with you." Calleigh whispered and brought her hands up to Natalia's face. She kissed her lips, savoring in the softness and sweetness. "I love you." The words came out easier than Calleigh thought they would. She followed them with another kiss then more words slipped out of her mouth, "I've loved you for so long. I can't hide it anymore." Feeling lost in the moment Calleigh was surprised when Natalia pulled away from her.

"You love me?" The brunette looked stunned as she sat up. "No you don't, Cal."

"Yes I do." Calleigh insisted and turned on the lamp next to the bed as she sat up. "I love you." She took Natalia's hand and added, "I started falling in love with you the first time we were together."

"No." Natalia pulled her hand away and shook her head. "I don't believe you."

"Why is it so hard to believe?" Calleigh asked. She was prepared for acceptance or rejection, but didn't expect this reaction from the brunette.

"You really don't understand?" Natalia asked and stood up. As she picked up her shirt and pants off the floor she said, "You wanted no strings attached and you've been ignoring me and treating me like shit for months."

"I'm sorry." Calleigh said and got off the bed. She put her clothes back on as she explained, "You're right. I didn't want anything serious. I never expected this to happen. I tried to hide my feelings by ignoring you and acting like I didn't care about you." After she was fully dressed she walked around the bed towards Natalia. "Please believe me. I love you."

"Stop saying that." Natalia snapped and crossed her arms. "Other than having sympathy because of the car accident the only time you acted like you cared about me is when we had sex." She took a step back away from Calleigh and added, "I was crying before the accident happened because of how you talked to me." Feeling the sting of tears building up the brunette took a deep breath and closed her eyes for a moment. "If you really loved me you wouldn't have treated me like that."

"Nat, I'm so sorry." Calleigh said desperately. "I love you."

"Shut up." Natalia yelled. Along with her temper she lost control of her tears. She walked across the room because she didn't want to be near the blonde. "Leave me alone, Calleigh. Get out of my house. I don't want to see you anymore." Natalia didn't expect their break up to be like this, but Calleigh's revelation about why she treated her badly hurt the brunette so much it made her angry.

"Okay." The blonde lowered her eyes and sighed. "I'll leave." She went to the door where she stopped and looked at Natalia. "I know I didn't treat you as good as I should have, but you were always on my mind." As she turned around and walked out Natalia sat on the chair next to the bed and leaned her face forward into her hands. Her temper calmed and she wanted to cry, but there were no more tears in her eyes. She felt completely empty.

The End