Well, people, let's have an agreement first.

One. Let's pretend we don't know science and genetics (all right, I know this is too much. Ayase's gene seemed like recessive—blond and blue eyes… its recessive against brown hair-eye of Kanou's.)

Two. Since I am a sucker in making names, I make the name Tsukiya (moon-ya—the phase 'ya' I take from Ayase's name: Yukiya which mean snow-ya. Well, there you go). Hahahaha. Sorry. I know this is not funny. And I have chosen a name from Kanou's name for the boy. Please bear with me.

And I didn't know what happen to Miya either, so yeah… I wouldn't elaborate on her this time.

Well, pretty much we are set.

Enjoy.

"Mom, can you give me this ring?"

"No, Tsukiya. This is the treasure dad gives to me, so I can't give you this."

Ayase smiled to the 5 years old blonde infant beside him. The girl, with golden locks and full, naturally blushing cheek was smiling and looking at the shining object. It was a plain band; inside written initial of S & Y. Tsukiya stared hard at the object. The object and its pair never separate from his mother or his father's fingers, unless they were washing dishes. It took her attention some time last week since her mother always kisses it unconsciously. Her mother will kiss it when he was folding the clothes. Her mother will kiss it when her father called from office. Her mother will kiss it whenever he smiles.

"Mom, what are you doing?"

"We are making bento for tomorrow. Isn't it your birthday?"

The small girl smiled happily. She looked hungrily at the bento boxes scattered around the table, filled with delicious yet beautiful food. And she turned back her head.

"Mom, why did we must go to the graveyard every time I have birthday? Aki-chan from my class said that her birthday was celebrated in pretty hotel with a lot of balloons and clowns. Why can't I have them in the graveyard too?"

Ayase was frozen for a second. And then he smiled while washing off his hand from soaps, placed the ring back into his wedding finger and lifted Tsukiya from the kitchen table. He knows sooner or later his daughter will ask the question. The question about why they always go to graveyard instead of celebrating her birthday inside a posh restaurant. Ayase has tried his best to not remind himself of this, and Kanou understood better than to push Ayase to explain. Ayase was bidding his time to tell his daughter. It was strange enough that his daughter has a man as mother. It was still unreal even for Ayase, like a dream. If only Tsukiya is not there, Ayase would have just thought of the whole situation as a dream and buried the memories inside his deepest mind. He, a male, is actually a hermaphrodite and gave birth. He now treated with hormone therapy and returned back to a male side of gender, but deep down, he could feel sometimes he wants to be a woman, just to make Tsukiya and Kanou looked normal. It is abnormal to have a male wife and a male mother, isn't it?

Kanou-san was so supportive. He respected Ayase's decision to be back as a guy. He knows that Kanou always wish that Ayase will somehow turn into a woman, mainly for easier sex activity, so Kanou won't be called a homo whenever they are together and Kanou did tell him that actually he wished more children. But the grief was unbearable. When Ayase learnt that he had a dead son, he cried into devastating state, almost broke down and was sent to a mental hospital for a month. Ayase blocked away the reality from his mind, not reacting to any stimulation presented by the doctors and professionals. Ayase remembered how in the end Kanou begged him to come back to his common sense, shouting his name and hugged him tightly, reminding Ayase that he still have another daughter, the survived one of the twin, to attend to. Upon realizing that, Ayase eventually came back from his catatonic state, crying and sobbing while apologizing to Kanou.

Yes, he will never want to have another child. The pain of the thought of losing it will be almost unbearable. He still wants to be available to receive Kanou's love at the same time of his rejection of getting pregnant; and thus the decision was made. He was treated with male hormones and at the moment, it has been going smoothly.

Ayase sighed.

"Mom, you ok? You look sick." Tsukiya touched his mother's face. "Do you need your medicine again?" She has learned that her mother is actually not really as strong as her father.

"No, dear. Not. This is not sickness. Listen carefully, mom have another thing to tell you."

"Yes?"

Ayase smiled. His daughter is truly bright. Despite of the premature birth, nothing seemed affected. Although she was suffering from weak lungs as a baby, now she has grown into a very healthy girl. She has a bright mind, good strong nature (although sometimes it is frighteningly similar to Kanou's mind), with hobby collecting money (she gets this every time she helped Kanou and she has surprisingly become very good in remembering business numbers and terms, despite only 5 years old) and flower (she likes to give those flowers to her mother, who will happily put it on the vase). Ayase knows that Tsukiya will grow into a fine beautiful young lady; she is already something like a queen inside her kindergarten class. Ayase only smiled awkwardly every time the teachers congratulate him about Tsukiya's perfect results in class/ tell Ayase about how actually she has every students in the class under her command/ warned Ayase due to *censored* words she kept repeating in class (thanks to Kanou).

"We couldn't have party in graveyard. It's supposed to be silent and peaceful there."

"Then, can we celebrate it somewhere else?"

"No, Tsukiya. We need to be there. Actually… there lies your brother."

"Brother?"

"yes, Tsukiya. Your brother is there, sleeping peacefully."

"Then we should wake him up! I want to play together! What's his name, mother?"

Ayase swallowed. "… His name is Tsumoku. He couldn't join us, Tsukiya… he is de…" Ayase couldn't continue the sentence, but the small girl outspoke him faster.

"dead?" Tsukiya frowned. "why? I haven't even seen him yet!"

Ayase looked at his daughter. "do you understand what dead means?"

"Yes. Father told me that. The dead couldn't come back. But they will still live here." She pointed at her chest, "so as long as we remember, they will still be beside us. But I never remember brother's face, mother. So I need to see."

Ayase smiled painfully. "Sorry, Tsukiya. We don't have his picture. But… we don't need to see as long as we care, right? So just put in mind, you have a deceased twin brother. I hope you can always cherish him with you."

"Yes. So… is that why we need to celebrate the birthday there? So brother wouldn't get lonely?"

"yes." Ayase nodded. "yes." Sorry. He whispered to himself. Because of my incompetent you lost your brother. Sorry for having to spend your birthdays in the graveyard. Sorry, Tsukiya. Sorry.

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"I am home." Kanou opened the door.

"Father~! Welcome~!" Tsukiya immediately glomped to her father's tall figure. Her father smiled and put her on top his shoulder.

"Welcome home." Ayase smiled. Kanou bowed to receive the usual welcome back kiss from his spouse, and then proceed to play with Tsukiya.

As Ayase was busy preparing the meal, Kanou whispered to his daughter.

"Have you been good today?"

"Yes, dad." Tsukiya smirked. "So… can I have my promised 2 bucks?"

"Yeah. But after you help me with more documents."

"Hee? A new deal?"

"I got an easy one today." Kanou smirked. "I get it just for you. You will be happy with this deal. And today I will teach you how to read stock market share."

"Great~!" Tsukiya smiled. "I couldn't wait!" She loves money as much as she loves her parents. Maybe Kanou's blood is dominating her in many ways. But she has solely Ayase's looks. Kanou knows that his daughter will be a pretty bomb shell when she grows up, but with his cunning mind. Perfect woman. Kanou swore he will never surrender her to any guy out there—they are not worthy of her.

"What are you two whispering about?" Ayase smiled while serving the rice. Both the father and daughter were so close and Ayase was rather suspicious that Kanou was actually teaching bad stuff to his daughter. "I wouldn't want to force you to tell me, but if this will make Tsukiya talked another bad word in class, I would like you to stop, Kanou-san."

"No, Ayase. Calm down." Kanou chuckled. "We are not discussing something bad, aren't we, Tsukiya?"

Tsukiya nodded eagerly. They are really 'thick as thieves', 'like father like daughter' proverbs.

Ayase smiled. "So… tomorrow we will go to the usual place."

Kanou smiled softly, touching Ayase's hand. "Yes. I have my work postpone until 2 tomorrow. So we can enjoy ourselves there. Hey, you are 6 tomorrow!"

Tsukiya smiled proudly and nodded.

Ayase smiled thankfully and then sat down. "By the way, Someya san and Kudo san is going to get married next week. Tsukiya, would you want to be a flower girl?"

"yes!!!!"

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"Tsukiya, its bed time. Kanou-san; please put her in bed." Ayase shouted from the living room. Both father and daughter came to realization that they had been spending 2 hours reading and analysing stock market.

"All right. Kid, now it's bed time." Kanou patted his daughter's hair. "You need sleep."

"But I still want to look after those market stock remote..." Tsukiya whined. But she knows it's useless against her father, so she sighed. "All right, I'll read it tomorrow at school."

"Hey, didn't we promise you will pretend you don't know how to read at school? I don't want some teacher got stroke after listening to you reading those market share documents."

"Yeah, dad. I understand. I am not that dumb to get caught, don't you know?" she smirked. "I am going to sleep now. And… you owe me another 5 bucks for tonight dad."

Kanou smirked. "5 bucks? I thought I have given you last fortnight?"

"Yea. But this is already the third day… I think you will want another silent night with mom, do you?" Tsukiya smiled cunningly. "So, 5 bucks or I won't sleep 'silently' tonight, dad."

Kanou sighed. "Fine. You'll get it tomorrow."

"A man will never lick his own saliva, nee?" Tsukiya smiled. "Dad, read bedtime story to me, please~?" she asked in a girly tone that made Kanou sighed coz he knows he would never wins against Tsukiya's begging face (Tsukiya really looked like smaller version of Ayase in his eyes).

"Which one?"

"Anything. They are boring enough to put me into sleep in 3 pages. If you tell me to read documents, I can never sleep."

"Fine." Kanou kissed his daughter cheek and pulled her up. "Let's go to bed."

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"Kanou..san… please… not tonight… Ah~!" Ayase begged his husband to stop. "Tsukiya might hear…"

"She wouldn't." Kanou answered. He had already damn given her 5 bucks for this.

"Kanou…san…"

"Yukiya, didn't I tell you to call my name?"

Ayase blushed. "But…"

"No but. There is no better pleasure than have you call my name when we climaxed."

Kanou kissed Ayase's neck gently. "Come on."

Ayase sighed. They have been married for almost 6 years now. Their lifestyle has changed since Tsukiya came. But the perverted Kanou never ceased to attack him, in every 3 days interval. Ayase knows Kanou was trying to reduce Ayase's trauma of getting pregnant and losing his baby by slowly increasing the reduced 'fun time'.

"…fine." Ayase kissed Kanou's lips softly. "…Somuku."

Kanou could feel his libido increased to a higher level and they spend the night sleepless on the bed.

Something was never meant to change.

FIN.

yes~! I FINISH IT!!!

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