Disclaimer: I do not and will never own Twilight or any of it's characters. Nor do i own And I love you so, the movie i based this story on.

Bella I love you …

I'm sorry…

"No…"

Please be happy…

"Please no…"

Goodbye…

"Don't leave me!"

I... I…love you so much

"Please don't leave! I love you so much!"

"JACOB!"

Bella woke up from the dream she always had. It was the always the same every time. She always woke up crying in the middle of the night because of that dream... No that nightmare. But… instead of waking up and finding things back to normal, Bella realizes that she was just reliving a memory. A memory of her husband's last words. A memory of how she lost her loving caring husband. A memory of how her husband will never be there to tell her "I Love You" again.

That's all she had left of their love. Memories. One particular memory came to her. One of the best days of her life. The day she was promised forever.

Flashback

It was night and Jacob was pulling Bella toward the beach. It was their 4 year anniversary of being together and Jacob brought her to the beach for a little vacation.

Bella was trying to run and keep up with Jacob's pace, but she couldn't and fell to the grass. Jacob, feeling bad, for running too fast, picked her up bridal style. Bella screeched and was laughing along with Jacob as he walked towards some place.

Jacob stopped in the middle of a candlelit heart. He put Bella down and picked up the pink carnation bouquet. He knew Bella loved to receive pink carnation flowers rather than red roses, and he wanted to make her extremely happy tonight.

Bella noticed that the candles were put in the shape of a heart. She also noticed that there were words written on the sand. As she went closer to read the words, Jacob got down on one knee in front of her.

Will you marry me?

Was what was written on the sand. Bella had tears in her eyes as she saw Jacob pull out a box out of his pocket. She tried holding in her sob as Jacob opened up the box and showed her the very beautiful diamond ring.

"You had made me the happiest man in the word Bella. Since the beginning in college when I met you, I knew that you were the one for me. I love the way you smile and a little dimple show. I love how you look at me with love in your eyes. I love how comfortable we are with each other. I love how you talk when you sleep. I love everything about you. I can list a million things I love about you, Bella. I want you to be with me forever. I promise to never leave you and will always love you forever. Bella, love, will you marry me?"

By the time Jacob finished, Bella was full on sobbing. Jacob stood up and wiped away her tears.

"Bella, what's wrong? Did I do anything wrong? Do you not want to get married to me?" Jacob asked worriedly.

"No…no..th-hats… that's not it. Jacob!" Bella said as she jumped to hug Jacob. Jacob, a little confused with what was happening.

"Bella, Hon, what's wrong. Why are you crying?" Jacob asked, really worried on what he could have possibly done wrong. He thought what he did was pretty romantic.

"Oh Jake, you didn't do anything wrong. I'm just really happy. Extremely happy." Bella told Jacob as she pulled out of his arms.

"So that's a yes right?" Jacob asked excitedly.

"It's a yes Jacob. Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes!" Jacob picked with Bella swinging her around. Happiness was etched in both of their faces. Jacob let Bella down and immediately kissed her. He felt so much happiness at this moment he didn't know what to do. Bella was glowing with happiness as she giggled from Jacob's kisses.

Jacob pulled the box out again and got the ring from it. He took Bella's hand and delicately put the ring on. He kissed her hand and slowly lowered it. Bella was just staring lovingly at Jacob as he did all of those things.

"I have never loved anyone as much as you Bella"

"I love you so much Jake. So much"

End Flashback

"Jake why? Why did you leave me? You promised me forever!" Bella was screaming into the room that she once shared with her beloved husband. She couldn't take this lonely room anymore. It was once shun brightness that only Jake could give.

Bella picked up the picture of her caring, beautiful husband. She hugged the photo and cried endless treas.

"Jake you promised me forever. I love you so much Jacob. Why?" Bella sobbed as she stroked his beautiful face.

"You promised me little kids Jake. Promised me that our love will go on through our children and grandchildren. You promised me a life loving you forever! But Jake your gone now! I can't do this myself Jake. I can't live my life without you."

Bella couldn't live without Jacob. She wanted to be with him. She needed to follow him. She needed him. In life or death, she didn't care. As long as she was with him she didn't care where she was.

Bella, still holding Jacob's picture, got out of the room. Out of their room. Mind set she headed to the kitchen, where her salvation lies. She quietly snuck to the kitchen, making sure that Mrs. Black and Venus didn't wake up. She didn't want any of Jake's family to get in the way of what she was about to do.

She picked up the sharpest knife that she could find and went to the bathroom, still holding onto the picture of Jacob. As she waited for the tub to fill with water, she looked at the sparking eyes of her husband.

"You promised me forever Jacob, and I'm going to fulfill that promise." Bella said as she picked up the knife. She put the picture of Jacob down right next to her.

"I'll join you Jacob. I can't live without you."

As Bella went to slice her wrists she heard that familiar voice.

Don't do it Bella. I love so please don't do it.

"But Jake I need you with me!"

You still have a whole life ahead of you Bella. I don't want you to ruin your life. I love you so much and I can't let you do this to yourself Bella. I can't.

"Jake. Jacob. Why did you leave me? I need you!" Bella screamed into the air as she heard the last remnants of Jacob's voice leave her. She suddenly collapsed to the floor clutching Jacob's photo to her chest. She was sobbing to herself, trying to ease the pain she feels inside. She feels like she has been swallowed by an endless sadness.

"Bella? Bella! Open the door! What are you doing there? Are you ok?" The voice of Venus, her sister-in-law, breaks through the thick fog of sadness clouding her mind.

Venus kept knocking on the door, trying to get Bella to open up. She was really worried about her, and when Bella didn't open the door, she went into the kitchen to find the key to the bathroom.

"Where is it? Where is it? Come on now! Where is that stupid key?" Venus was getting frustrated that she couldn't find the key to that bathroom.

"Venus? What are you doing in the middle of the night?" Mrs. Black sleepily asks.

"Mom I'm sorry for waking you up but I'm worried about Bella! I heard her sobbing in the bathroom and she won't open the door!" Bella said worriedly to her mom as she still searched for the key.

"I found it!" Venus said as she ran to the bathroom. She was trying badly to fit the key, but her shaking hands were making her miss it. Mrs. Black came to where Venus was, looking very worried at what was happening.

"Bella don't do anything drastic. I'm coming ok?" Venus finally got the key in the whole and pushed the door open.

"Oh My God Bella!" She screamed as she found her holding a knife and leaning into the tub filled with water. She ran and got the knife away from her. Mrs. Black, came in looking horrified.

"What do you think you're doing Bella? Do you think Jacob will be happy with what you're doing!?" Mrs. Black yelled at her. Venus didn't think it was right to scream at Bella when she is like this.

"Mom, I don't think you should be yelling at Bella with her state like this. Go in the living room or something and I'll handle this." Mrs. Black followed her daughter's instructions and went to the living room.

"Bella are you alright?" Venus asks, picking Bella up from the bathroom floor.

"Venus, I can't take this anymore. I need Jacob." Bella looks up at Venus miserably.

Venus just stares at her hopelessly. I mean she also lost a brother, but it's been so hard on Bella. Everything in this house reminds her of her dead husband. She also loved her brother, but they were never really that close. Seeing as Bella spent her last 6 years with him, loving him, it must have ripped her apart. Venus just didn't know what to say to her.

"Everything in this house reminds me of him Venus. I can't take being in this house anymore. It gives me too many memories. Memories that remind me I lost the only man I could ever care about. "

Venus laid Bella down in the bed, and tucked her in. I guess Bella was extremely exhausted and she just fell back asleep whispering the name of her dead husband in her sleep.

Venus turned off the lights in the room and went to talk to her mom.

"How is she Venus?"

"Mom, I think Bella needs to move to another house. This is hers and Jacob's house, and it gives her so many memories that make her miserable."

"I think your right. She can't keep trying to kill herself. We need to talk to her about this. We need to call her parents about this."

"I think that's the best idea mom. We need to call her parents tomorrow and tell them what we think. But we need to go to bed first. Come on mom let's go." They went upstairs and went to sleep, thinking about what to do tomorrow.

Edward will come soon I promise. But please review first and tell me what you guys think ok?