Disclaimer: I do not own twilight or any of it's characters.

This is the honeymoon from Edward's point of view. I hope it turns out okay. Please read my other story Uncertain beginnings as well. It is the story Of Nahuel and Hulien.

* warning this story has extreme sexual content! Please do not read if it might offend you!*

This is my second fan fiction. Enjoy it!

I could tell that Bella was getting frustrated at not knowing where we were headed, but I was not about to spoil the surprise. After all this was our honeymoon, and I wanted her to remember every moment of it, especially since these might be her last special memories from her human life. As we had traveled she had asked about our destination periodically. "Houston?" she had asked when we reached the gate in Seattle. "Just a stop along the way," I had smiled at her to let her know that it would be worth the wait. Poor Bella she was so tired, I was not sure how much longer she could keep herself from falling asleep.

Our wedding had been a glorious day, but it had been a long day, and thanks to that mongrel Jacob, it had been an emotionally draining one for her. I had hoped to make her happy by letting her know that he had shown up, I knew how it hurt her that her best friend would not be a part of her special day. When I had read his mind, I had sensed sadness, but I had also sensed acceptance. Had I had any inkling that he was going to behave the way that he did, I never would have let him anywhere near my Bella.

My Bella, how good it felt to say that, and to know that she was indeed my Bella, mine forever. My wife, my soul mate, the reason I had lived through a dreary existence for nearly a century, so she could complete me. She was mine. I loved saying that to myself, Isabella Marie Cullen, my wife. Bella was loosing the battle for wakefulness, so I gently towed her through the terminals. When we stopped at the international flight desk to check in for our next flight she came to long enough to question me again. "Rio de Janeiro?' "Another stop," I said with a smile.

I helped settle her in the comfy first class seats, I wrapped my arm protectively around her, and she stopped fighting sleep, and gave in to her dreams. I wondered if they were about me. I loved watching her sleep, the way her breath moved in and out making her chest rise. Her face was the picture of calm serenity. More the thousandth time I wished that I could read her mind, to know where her dreams were taking her. I was content to sit here for eternity. I loved her more then living, I had no idea what I had done to deserve such a precious angel, but I must have done something right to deserve her.

I had been lost in my thoughts my face against Bella's hair, inhaling the aromatic scent of freesias and strawberries that flooded from her. Bella stirred in my arms, and her movement drew my attention to the fact that we were starting our descent toward the airport. The setting sun cast a marvelous display of lights through the planes windows. We exited the plane and made our way through the busy airport. I flagged down a taxi and loaded our luggage then held the door for Bella, she looked confused, but said nothing as I told the driver instructions in Portuguese. I glanced at her and she seemed lost in thought, and I was lost in her presence.

When the taxi stopped at the docks I unloaded our luggage and led the way down past a long line of white yachts the were moored in the water, the rhythmic sounds of the waves slapping against the dock seemed to keep time with the thumping of Bella's heart. We stopped in front of the boat, I watched Bella to gauge her thoughts about the next part of our trip. She eyed the boat in silence. It was a bit smaller then the other boats, but no less luxurious. It was a sleek craft built for speed, I hoped that it would get us to our destination all the more swiftly, as I knew that once Bella saw where we were going that her reaction would be worth all of the torment I was currently putting her through.

I jumped in, depositing our bags on deck, then turning to help my love into the boat, wanting to be sure that she arrived unhurt. I prepared the boat quickly, running through the necessary steps to prepare for departure, noticing that Bella was silent as she watched me with those large chocolate brown eyes that stared into my soul, making me move even faster. We headed out into the open ocean, due east according to the compass on the boats display. We continued forward leaving the hustle and bustle of the city behind us. Bella continued her silent study of our surroundings, the breeze whipping her hair about her face in a way that made my breath catch in my throat. I was lost in my thoughts then. I knew what lay ahead. I had tried to plan this so carefully, to make things easier. I had considered ever factor that I could think of. My cold skin, her human needs, and yet still I was worried. I shook my head refusing to think about that until there was no way around it anymore. Instead I focused on the speed of the boat, and how much I loved feeling the boat skim over the waves.

"Are we going much farther?" Bella asked suddenly "About another half hour" I responded, I noticed that her hands were clutching at the seat on which she sat, and I smiled at her, purposely trying to use the smile that she said dazzled her. It was not much later that I caught my first glance of where we were headed, I waited until I knew that Bella's human eyes could see it in the distance, and when I was sure that she wouldn't miss it I pointed ahead into the darkness. "Bella, look there." I said. She leaned forward looking into the night, I worried that she might fall overboard if she leaned to far, but she did not. I could tell from the look of concentration on her face that she was scanning the horizon to see what I was gesturing at. She squinted as if trying to make out something from the darkness, but then her eyes widen and focused, and I knew that she saw it. I shifted course then to bring us more in line with where we would be docking, "Where are we?" she said softly. I smiled at her then , my grin spreading from ear to ear. "This is Isle Esme."

As we pulled in to the short dock, I watched her face fill with wonder as she took in the picturesque landscape in front of her. "Isle Esme?" she repeated quietly. " A gift from Carlisle-Esme offered to let us borrow it." I placed the suitcases on the dock, then turned back for the most important thing of all , Bella. I reached for her, unable to hold in the smile that spread across my face, and I pulled her into my arms. "Aren't you supposed to wait for the threshold?" she asked. My grin widen further, if that was even possible, as I responded "I'm nothing if not thorough." I grabbed our steamer trunks by their handles with one hand, and carried Bella in the other. Having her curled up close to me, thinking of the possibilities that lay ahead tonight made it difficult to think straight, parts of my body tingled, making it very hard to focus.

I headed through the darkness, feeling her heartbeat against my skin, imagining the way it would speed up as I kissed her. I stared at her face wanting to kiss her lips imagining them swelling with desire as she panted, weak and breathless from my kisses.. I set the trunks down to open the doors, I looked at her refusing to move until she met my eyes with hers, as if granting me permission to continue to the next step in our life together.

I carried her over the threshold, my chest expanding proudly knowing that she was mine, my wife, how I loved that word. I walked through the house with her, neither of us spoke a word aloud. I was wishing that just once I would be granted a glimpse into what she was thinking, but her mind was closed to me as always. I stayed silent as Bella took in each room, watching her eyes sweep over the furniture, and the walls, admiring what Esme had done to this place. I stopped at the last room, my mind racing knowing what this room contained, and imagining what might take place there, then I turned on the light.

I set her on her feet, noticing that her eyes were focused on the large bed that was the focal point of the room, I was so nervous that I stammered "I'll…. go get the luggage." and I left to give her a moment to be with her thoughts. When I returned Bella was standing beside the bed stroking the filmy white netting that surrounded the bed. I could not resist approaching her, my nervousness temporarily subdued. I stroked my fingers across the nape of her neck as I noticed a drop of perspiration forming there. "It's a little hot here," I said apologetically, wanting her to understand what was on my mind. "I thought…that would be best."

I heard her whisper a response though I was not sure she meant me to hear. "Thorough, " and I had to laugh, she seemed as nervous as I was. "I tried to think of everything that would make this… easier," I told her, wanting her to know the truth. Bella was silent, so I continued slowly "I was wondering if…first…maybe you would like to take a midnight swim with me?" I had to take a deep breath, my nerves were getting out of control, I was crazy for agreeing to try this……. I tried to steady myself. "The water will be very warm. This is the kind of beach you approve of." I hoped that she would approve of anyhow. She responded 'sounds nice." Her voice breaking making me worry about how she was feeling. I thought that maybe if I sounded more assure of myself then she would feel calmer too.

"I am sure you'd like a human minute or two….It was a long journey." Bella nodded in response to my suggestion. I leaned in to kiss her, but instead I brushed my lips against her throat, knowing that the coolness of my lips would get her attention quickly. "Don't take too long, Mrs. Cullen." then I ran my lips down her neck to the smooth tip of her shoulder. "I'll wait for you in the water." I told her then I moved away towards the French doors that led out to the beach. I undid the buttons to my shirt as I walked, and let my shirt slid to the floor.

As I made my way to the beach I was overwhelmed with the different thoughts that were racing through my mind. Was this it? I was so worried, I wanted Bella so much that my whole body shook, it had been so hard to keep control when she kissed my deeply, when she wound her fingers into my hair and she held herself against me. I groaned, torn between misery and the desire to give in, and to take what I truly wanted. I stopped at a tree near the edge of the beach, and I removed the rest of my clothes, noticing the way the moonlight moved over my skin. I looked away over the water then, trying to drown out the fear I felt of failing Bella when I knew that she wanted me as much as I wanted her. I ran into the water and dove beneath the waves. I swam round and round underwater being caressed by the currents, imagining that it was Bella touching me, my body hardened in response to that thought. This was a pleasure that I had never had in my human life or in my existence as a vampire, and I could not imagine just how wonderful this would be, even tainted wit the fear of hurting the thing that I treasured the most.

I returned to the surface, and gazed at the stars lost deep in thoughts about what could happen if I wasn't careful with Bella when I heard her feet softly moving over the sand. I heard her movements near my clothes, and the sound of fabric moving, I was afraid to turn around, to be swept away with desire. She entered the water and made her way to my side, stopping once she reached me, then she laid her hand over mine against the water, I could feel the flesh of her body against me, and I was shocked to realize that she was a naked as I, I could feel the round firmness of her breasts against my arm, and I was nearly crippled with the urge to pull her to my chest and to feel the heat of her body against mine, to feel her moan in ecstasy as I knew I would once I entered her soft body for the first time. I shivered in both fear and delight at the thought. "Beautiful" she said I looked at her and saw her admiring the moon that reflected down upon us. As I took in the way the moonlight made her dark hair frame her face, as it rolled over her shoulders against her back, and into the water I could not help thinking that any type of beauty in the world, when it came to her, would pale in comparison.

"It's all right, but I wouldn't use the word beautiful, not with you standing here in comparison." I told her. She smiled at me, and gently placed her hand on my chest, where my heart had been, her touch made me shudder, her fingers felt so calm, and sure. My breath started to seize in my throat from the surmounting desire that I felt within. "I promised we would try," I almost choked on the words, fearing that she would decide that we should wait, "If…if I do something wrong, if I hurt you, you must tell me at once!" She nodded, never moving her eyes away from mine, then she moved even closer, and leaned her head against my chest. "Don't be afraid," she whispered, ":We belong together." I was struck to the core of my being at how truthful her words were, we were made for each other, nothing could keep us apart. I wrapped my arms around her, pulling her to my chest and I pulled her deeper into the water.

Bella felt so right in my arms, so soft, and yet so warm and supple. Her legs wrapped them selves around my hips, pulling my closer to her, I felt my own hips move in response to her ministrations, my need making me hard, and throbbing against her. Bella moaned against me pulling herself to my chest with all of her might, molding her breasts against my hard chest, the coolness causing her nipples to harden, and swell. I pulled her up then, wanted to see for myself how she was effected by me, the sight of her arousal made me pull her to me hard, my manhood pushing against the soft folds of her center. I took her nipple in my mouth and teased it causing her to gasp in pleasure.

I pulled her against me, wanting more, and yet wanting her to be comfortable. I held her to me, kissing her breathless as I carried her to the house, the French doors to the bedroom were still ajar, and I made my way through them quickly, depositing her on the bed. I laid her back her eyes were unfocused, and her hair spilling wildly about. Her body lay before in all it's glory, and I rained kisses over her from her head to her toes as I admired all f the beauty that was my Bella. She moved against my lips as they trailed down her body, panting and whispering my name. My need for her was almost maddening. I pulled her towards me, and she spread her hips willingly. A new surge of emotions raced through me as I scented a new smell coming from her, the smell of arousal. I pushed myself against her, plunging the whole length of my hardness into her, she cried out. The sound only drove me on further. I plunged into her over and over, feeling her tightness against me. She threw her head back and moaned for me to hold her tighter. I leaned down to her, pulling her into my body, she withered against me saying my name over and over.

I pushed so deep that I heard her whimper, and as I withdrew the smell of her fresh blood hit me. I knew that she was a virgin like me, and I understood what that entailed, but I had not been prepared for the smell of her blood. It engulfed me the same way that her warmth had engulfed my throbbing penis. The monster almost had control, it was torn my two intense desires, the need for her, and the need for her blood. I leaned in to her throat tracing my tongue down her neck to the place where her blood ran thick and hot. I was fighting for control when Bella screamed with please and buckled her hips against me. I held her body to me, my hands wrapped around her arms, pulling her tight as she screamed yes over and over followed by my name. I turned and forced the monster away, instead letting the other desire run free, thrusting faster and faster as I felt the tightness from her own orgasm, help drive me close to my own. As Ripples of pleasure over took my whole body, I pulled her on top of me, and she moved against me with all of the power she could. I bit hard into a pillow that was by my face when she leaned her heaving bosom over me, sweat pouring down between her breasts, streaming to her navel. She continued to rock against me as I moaned, holding her hips to me, squeezing her thighs. I turned my head not wanting to look at her throat as she threw her head back moaning in pleasure, and bit another pillow, she continued moving and the pressure building within me exploded forth inside her hot moist body, making m tingle from head to toe in pleasure.

We stayed there for a few moments, I could feel the pulse of her racing heart against my body from between her open legs. I looked up at her, and saw her looking at me, her eyes full of emotion. We looked at one another, and I reached up to pull her gently down beside me. "I love you Edward." She said against my chest. "As I love you ." I told her as I kissed the top of her hair. I felt her breathing slow against me and I realized that she had fallen asleep, and I knew now that Carlisle was right. It must be possible for vampire to have a soul. For surely at this moment, with all of the love that filled my long dead heart, I knew that I was in heaven.