Takako Chigusa

Out Here on My Own (from the 1980 movie 'Fame') – Irene Cara

Sometimes I wonder where I've been
Who I am
Do I fit in.
I pretended I couldn't hear them, but I always could. I could always hear the girls talking about how …different I was.
I constantly wondered why they bothered about me and who I am. I mean, I'm human but I don't really fit in, I never really did.
Make believin' is hard alone,
Out here on my own
But you were always there for me, Hiroki. You never talked about me behind my back. You helped me forget my different reputation. I guess it's because we were both kind of alone in our own way.

We're always provin' who we are
Always reachin' for the risin' star
Instead of trying to oppose my reputation I would defend it. I didn't mind not caring and being tough, it just proves that I can do something and whatever it is I'm not afraid to do it. I can prove myself to the world.
To guide me far
And shine me home
But not in this game. I could try and win the game and get back at all of the bitches who saw my differences as a curse instead of a blessing. I could prove that I am worth everything I get. I could go home the winner, I could go far in life.
Even if he hadn't tried to rape me, I would have killed that fuck-wit Niida so that I can prove that I am worth it.
I really have considered playing this stupid game.
Out here on my own
But that would mean that I would have to kill you, which I couldn't bear to live with.

When I'm down and feelin' blue
I close my eyes so I can be with you
Oh, baby, be strong for me
Because you are my rock. It may seem weak of me to admit something so sissy, but it's the truth so I'm going to say it. If you weren't there to make me feel accepted into some sort of world then I don't know what I would do.

Baby, belong to me
Help me through
Help me need you
I need you here with me, to get through this game. Help me through this Hiroki.

Until the morning sun appears
Making light of all my fears
I dry the tears
I've never shown
Out here on my own
After I ran out of the school I collapsed under the safety of a tree and started to cry. Again it would kill me to admit this in public but I actually cry often.
Always at night, always by myself. I don't know why I do, but it just happens.

When I'm down and feelin' blue
I close my eyes so I can be with you
The bullet in my back is agonising. It's far more painful than anything else I've ever felt in my life, so I close my eyes so I can be with you.
Oh, baby, be strong for me
Baby, belong to me
Help me through
Help me need you

Sometimes I wonder where I've been
Who I am
Do I fit in
I could always hear the girls talking about how …different I was. I don't really fit in, I never really did.
You were always there for me, Hiroki. You never talked about me behind my back. You helped me forget my different reputation.
I may not win
But I can't be thrown
Out here on my own
On my own
I can feel my life slipping away from me and you're not here. I'm forcing myself to hold on to life so that I can see you again, because I know you're out there looking for me. If I could just hold on to life a little longer I could see you once more.
I may not win the game I can't die on my own, I need you.
I'm out here on my own, calling for you.
I can't die here on my own.

And then I see you. You found me. You hold me in your arms and support my weight. Did you ever grow tired of supporting me? There was never a chance for us together and I accept that, I'm just proud to have been your rock and glad to have a rock as strong as you.