The Love That Will Never be
A fanfic by:
YuuriCullen
"Propinquus Velum"
AN: Advanced Happy Valentines, everyone! Thank you for the support and reviews that you have given this fic (AKA my baby) and for staying with this fic throughout the end. This is the second multi-chapter fic for me to be finished! Yay! I have been neglecting my work recently, and I switched to being a lazy bum...so please enjoy the final instalment on this series...and try not to cry...if you don't, then good for you! If you do, I shall have a box of Kleenex ready. Also, OOCness may ensue...I deeply apologize for that...
Please review! They are love!!
Disclaimer: Vampire Knight isn't mine. Matsuri Hino owns it.
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Epilogue:
Kaname Kuran gathered the metallic dust that was once Zero Kiryu. He gathered Zero's remains and put them in an empty box he had found in the room.
He slowly paced around; taking every detail into memory, for he would remember this place for all eternity.
This was where he first confessed, and actually felt embarrassed about it.
This was where he had his first kiss where someone met him halfway, balancing everything out.
This was where he first realized how important that silver-haired teen was to him.
This was where Death took him to visit Zero and do all these things.
This is where Death took Zero and left Kaname to perish.
The pureblood walked out the room that had meant so much in so little time.
"Goodbye, Zero...goodbye forever..."
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Kaname walked out of the Kiryu estate solemnly, feet and heart as heavy as lead, hands trembling while holding the small box.
The chauffeur held the door open and the pureblood went in, looking away to hide his grievance.
Kaname heard the engine purr and the driver drove away from the Kiryu estate.
A place full of painfully wonderful memories.
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Time seemed to slow as the trip back "home" went on and on. Kaname couldn't feel anything besides regret and sorrow.
He regretted leaving Zero alone in the academy. He regretted not talking properly to the hunter and for making him think he's just a mere pawn.
He regretted taking Yuki away from him, the hunter's only source of remaining humanity.
He had heartfelt sadness, as his first-ever bond was broken so easily.
His first kiss gone so suddenly.
His first love died so quickly.
His one true almost lover...
Gone forever...
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Kaname felt something tighten around his throat and a stinging sensation around his deep, wine-colored eyes.
He let a trembling hand go through his hair, sorting out the raw emotions he was feeling, fighting back dry tears.
He dare not look at the box that contained his remains.
It would only bring back bittersweet memories and would cause his composed mask to crumble apart.
He took in quiet, shaky breaths as his estate came into view, the car slowing to a halt.
Am I ready to come back?
Am I ready to face her...and break the news that he's...gone?
Am I ready to face the reality that he's never coming back?
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The chauffer opened the door and Kaname stepped out with the box. Kaname walked through his estate wordlessly, too absorbed in the precious box he was holding in his pale hands.
He opened the door and was greeted by tranquil scenery before his eyes; Yuki was sleeping serenely, curled up on the living room couch.
His heart was torn further apart by this; "How could I deliver such bitter news for sweet ears to hear?" the pureblood thought.
Yuki stirred, "B-brother? I-is that you?" she said sleepily, rubbing her eyes like a dazed child.
"Ah...it appears I have been caught in the act..." Kaname managed to form a gentle, loving smile; the ones he would always give her whenever something has happened.
Her expression changed to worry; she was such an open book to read. "B-brother...wh-what happened?" she said, delicate eyebrows furrowing deeper, rushing to her beloved's side.
Kaname's heart stopped. He was dreading this moment...
"It is nothing, Yuki...nothing to be worried about." He stroked her rosy cheek, hoping to get away with the answer he gave her.
Yuki just shook her head. "I'm sick of this...I'm sick of you trying to protect me from whatever evil there is out there, or whatever grim news comes our way. I'm sick of you keeping information from me...I'm not a child anymore, Kaname...please...tell me what's bothering you...I am to bear this path with you..." she protested, clutching on to Kaname's coat.
Kaname opened his mouth to say something, but thought better and kept his mouth shut while he deliberated.
I guess there is no way but to break the news to her...
"Yuki...do you still remember Zero-kun?" he asked, slowly breaking down the news; better to break it to her gently.
She nodded. "Yes...and I must admit I miss him quite a bit..." she smiled, nostalgia settling in as she remembered her prefect days with the irritable hunter.
Kaname handed the box to Yuki, speaking out the thoughts he despised so much.
"Yuki...Zero is—"
Yuki's petite form trembled as she opened the box, revealing metallic silver ashes that resembled her friend's messy hair.
"W-what...h-happened..." she whispered, unable to fight the tears that crowded her stinging eyes.
Kaname's expression darkened and the room became filled with heavy air as he explained how Zero had killed himself.
"Z-Zero...you idiot..." she said to the box; just like she used to when the hunter was alive, making snarky remarks about her admiration for Kaname.
"We could've just shared Kaname and our blood, if you ever thought of that..." she sniffled, hoping her little remark would lighten things up once more.
"Yuki..." Kaname's eyes widened in bewilderment.
How could she react like this? Like...Zero was still...alive? Like...she has moved on...so quickly?
Yuki saw the look in her beloved's eyes. She reached out and stroked his cheek for comfort.
"I was only...trying to lighten things up, brother...it must have been hard for you...to carry all that sadness on your own." She said, entwining her nimble fingers with his.
Kaname shook his head, stomach twinging with guilt. "Aren't you repulsed, Yuki?"
It was Yuki's turn to shake her head. "Love is what it is...didn't you tell me that ages ago?"
Kaname smiled, a burden of his heart was slightly lifted. He didn't have to worry about Yuki criticizing the bond he had with the hunter, nor the feelings they had shared. He felt selfish, but it was right...because it's only just this once that he ever thought about of only himself and his feelings.
Yuki put the lid on the box, putting a sweet kiss on it after. Her heart was broken; she knew her best friend won't ever come back...
But she was also happy; happy that Zero got his wish before he passed on...a wish for his love to be returned.
How she understood Kaname and Zero was far from her own belief and comprehension, but she did. Even if she wanted to just keep Kaname all to herself, she can't help but to think that she has been too selfish all of those years. She didn't bother for Zero to elaborate on his thoughts. She didn't want to press him too much, thinking he must have his own privacy...but that led to situations being worse than they seem.
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Kaname stayed beside Yuki, not uttering a single word, staring at the box longingly.
The tender silence was broken by shuffling feet as Yuki stood up and beckoned her beloved to their chamber.
"Love, you need sleep...it helps you to rest your uneasy heart..." Yuki said, stroking Kaname's raven locks lovingly.
Kaname shook his head, feeling like a stubborn child.
Yuki smiled and placed a gentle kiss on his forehead. "Stay with Zero if you wish...but it pains me to see you like this...you must let go of the pain to the best of your ability...and as soon as you can..." she added, looking into his eyes and sensing the intense pain from the broken bond.
Kaname sighed. "I will try."
Yuki nodded solemnly, retiring for the night.
Kaname was left alone to dwell upon his loss; he could afford to be selfish to do this just for the night.
He let his eyelids droop and true darkness overcome him, lying close to the remains of his beloved.
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Yuki awoke the next night, sensing an unusual stillness around the manor.
She swung her dainty feet to the floor and put on slippers.
She went downstairs to check on her dear brother, hoping he was feeling better.
But what she found astonished her beyond belief...
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She found a dematerializing, empty shell of her beloved next to the box, a serene smile on his moonlit face, metallic grey particles surrounding the room.
Older brother...I never knew you can be as selfish as this...leaving me alone...only with Aido as company...Yuki smiled to herself.
But I guess you have been so considerate that you deserve this...I hope you'll be happy with Zero up there...or wherever you are going to...She thought, tears flooding her eyes, putting the ashes together in the box that Zero's remains are in.
She felt a cold breeze pass her by, making her look at the window to see if it was open...but it wasn't...
Her eyes widened as she saw a reflection of the two bonded vampires smiling at her, mouthing a "thank you", full glee emanating from their eyes.
She turned around, but they weren't there...
She turned back to the window, and their reflections were gone...
She smiled.
Zero, thank you for taking my brother out of his misery...
The both of you, thank you for stopping by just to say goodbye...
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The funeral rites were short and sweet, and the speeches weren't too wordy. The weather was bright, the mood full of irony.
Most of the people mourn for the loss of two great vampires.
But they shouldn't be.
They should be happy for them...if they knew what really went on.
Because now, those two vampires are finally together; not having to worry about society's judgements, social status or any other issue that will come their way on earth.
They are on their own paradise, making up for the time they have lost on earth, holding the other in their arms, cherishing all the time they have.
Never letting go, telling the other how much they love them so.
Fin
AN: FINALY! THIS BABY'S DONE XD
Sorry for the long wait and lack of ending...was it too rushed? I'm sorry I didn't explain Kaname and Yuki's bond in the story, but I know that the first bond is always the strongest...and since Zero was the first...yeah, the rest you can figure out...
That was a lame explanation...
Sorry!
And please do leave reviews...I will also update "Crimson Moon" pretty soon...motivation is coming through...
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