***
To my favorite teacher
who told me to never give up
To my 5th grade crush
who I thought I really loved
To the guys I missed
And the girls we kissed
Where are you now?
***
Andrew dropped me off at the house, it felt weird that my brothers moved out. I walked into my old room it was the same as how I left it but I noticed there was a box on my night stand. Weird. I walked up to it and looked to see if there was a a note from who it was from, all it said was Shane. I looked at the box it was a simple brown box I picked it up and it wasn't that heavy I pulled up the flaps and found tickets and backstage passes. Okay I give whats up? I found a note on the bottom of the box..
Hey Shane I had my assistant send this box to you, just in case some miracle happens and you decide to come back home. I know its already asking to much by wishing that. Hey a girl can only dream right? So yeah you probably already heard I am the new lead singer to C3, please don't be mad at Nate or Jay or me it wasn't planed. C3 was just about to fall apart more then it was and the record contract was up, we had to think fast they wanted to fire Nate and Jason even you because you were a no show. We had no choice to sign me as lead singer to save the band. As in the tickets and the backstage tickets we were sent a pair for you too just if our chances would be lucky and you happen toshow up. There are plane tickets and concert tickets, there is also the backstage passes so you can come see us. Were leaving to Albuquerque New Mexico after our Staples Center concert. Its a world tour so its a year long, we have Honor Society and Jordin Sparks and a new band called Wonder Girls opening up for us. It will be wonderful if there was a chance where you can join us. Ugh Nate and Jason say hi and that they miss you, if your wondering why we4 moved it is because it is closer to LA.All you have to ask Andrew to take you to the house, he is still our driver. Lets see this is really hard I have no clue why they made me write the letter I obviously have no clue what to say. Well I was also to tell you the schedule and the times stuff like that but I just copied a schedule and its with the tickets. So yeah thats all I have to say because looser and dumber tricked me. I am mad at them there so going to get it! So yeah bye best of wishes Mitchie Torres. Oh yeah and Jason he wanted me to write his name. So yeah bye.
Wow that it typical Mitchie only thinking of her self! Mad oh yeah Connect 3 is something that my brothers and I made up not her! She didn't have the right to take my spot. I was so going to show them Shane Gray does not get replaced. I was looking at the tickets the plane leave in a hour, If I leave now I can make it to the Air Port its not to far from where I live. I grabbed one of my duffel bags and through some clothes in there and grabbed my toothbrush. I ran out and grabbed my keys to my car id have Andrew pick it up later, I started the car and drove off luckily I still had gas in this baby Nate probably drove it or something.
***
To my ex-bestfriends
Don't know how we grew apart
To my favorite Band
And sing-alongs in my car
To the face I see in my memories
Where are you now?
***
When I woke up from my nap we were already in Albuquerque that was fast. I looked at Jason and he was asleep too. I decided to shake him.
"Jay wakey wakey sleepy head" I shook him some more till he slowly opened his eyes, bout time.
"Mitch why you waking me up I wanna sleep"
"Where here lets go" Nate said standing up from his seat he was stretching.
"Yeah lets go Jason" Caitlyn followed Nate out of the plane and I grabbed my things once Jason got out of the way.
"Why is all the paparazzi over there by that gate?" Jason asked pointing to gate 58 it was the plane from LAX.
"Who knows maybe they think were arriving in that plane?" Nate replied I just ignored them staring at the crowed.
"Well I don't want to stay here and get caught by crazy fans so I say we should leave now" Caitlyn suggested
"Yeah good idea" Nate and Jason said at the same time I swear when they do that it freaks me out.
"Mitch? Are you ready lets go" Jason said waving his hand in front of my face.
"Oh yeah sure lets go to the hotel." I finally said I was stuck on that crowd for some reason like something was pulling me in it. We got out the air port unnoticed thank god, we got into out tour bus which was weird how did it get here so fast?
"Hey Mitchie they have a Star Bucks lets go!" Jason said excitedly. That boy and his Star Bucks I swear he is going to get so hyper.
"You and your Star Buck Jas" I said giggling and we ran to the coffee stand.
***
Where are you now?
Cause I am thinking of you
you showed me how
How to live like I do
if it wasn't for you
I would never be who I am
***
The plane ride took three hours. I had first class so it wasn't that bad. I slept threw most of the ride it was relaxing. When the plane landed there was a crowed of paparazzi out side the landing docks. It was weird did they know I was going to be here?
"Shane Gray how do you feel about the new lead singer of C3? Wasn't she your ex?"
"Do you think Mitchie Torres was just using you to steal your spot on Connect 3?"
"Shane where were you for a year?" I just ignored all them questions and tried to make my way out side. When I finally got out side I saw the Connect 3 tour bus parked and I saw Caitlyn walk into the bus. The driver was loading a lot of luggage into the bottom. Along with the drum set and about ten guitar cases. Then I saw a group of girls walk into the bus they were all wearing shinny outfits. Next to get on the bus was a group of guys? Who are these people I haven't met them before? There probably the Honor guys and the super girls? Something like that I don't remember.
"Jason hurry up! Your slower than Nate!" I heard Caitlyn yell from the door
"Sorry we stopped for Star Bucks" Mitchie said handing Caitlyn a box with drinks and Jason was caring two more boxes with more drinks.
"Why so much?" Caitlyn asked
"Cause we wanted to be nice and get some for everyone duh" Jason said. Walking into the bus, just five minutes after that a girl walked into the bus she must be the last person they were waiting for. I thought of it and I started to walk up to the bus. I wonder how they would feel if I crashed there tour? I walked up to the guy who was putting the bags into the compartments and handed him my bag. When he looked at me he looked like he just saw a ghost.
"Sh-Shane? What how?" He stuttered
"Long story but I am back" I said putting my sun glasses over my eyes, I started to walk to the door but it was closed. I knocked on it so some one could open it up for me. I knocked three times and I waited still no answer, so I knocked harder this time. Finally some girl answered I think her name is Jordin Sparks not sure though.
"Hi may I help you?" She asked
"Yeah I am the surprise guest singer for the Connect 3 world tour" I said looking at her a little annoyed.
"It doesn't say we have a guest you are going to have to leave" she replied
"Do you know who I am?" I asked
"No thats what I am trying to figure out" She snapped. Oh that got me mad no one gives Shane Gray attitude!
"Just get out my way! Please every one knows the lead singer of C3" I said walking past her up the steps in the bus.
"Jordin who was at the door?" I heard Caitlyn ask from behind the curtain.
"Some rude guy!" She answered
"So yeah don't make me call the security guard on you" she said
"That wont help" I said sitting on the couch putting both my arms spread on top of the couch.
"Ill be back you guys I need one of my bags" I heard Nate say and walked out from behind the curtain. He stopped in his tracks when he saw me and I smiled.
"Hi little bro" I greeted and smiled again. I know I am being a jerk but I can't help it thats who I am right?
"Sh-Shane? What are you doing here?" he stuttered putting his fingers threw his hair.
"Oh you know just the normal stuff relaxing and getting to know your friend Jordin here" I replied
"No you were being rude and wouldn't leave" She snapped again. What is up with this girl seriously?
"Shane C3's lounge spot is behind those curtains this is for the rest of the bands, so please don't try to come back and rule every things. Its not the same you can't just leave for a year and come back and make things okay again. That's not how it works yeah we miss you but we moved on, you gave us no choice" Nate angrily said stomping out the bus.
***
To my first girlfriend
I thought for sure was the one
To my last girlfriend
sorry that I screwed it up
To the ones I loved
But didn't show it enough
Where are you now?
***
I think I have a sugar rush thanks to Jason, I feel very hyper. I couldn't stop giggling thank you Jason. I never drank more than one cup of Star Bucks in a day, Nate went to go get one of his bags probably the one with the X-Box we were going to have Halo matches I can't wait.
"Whats taking Nate so long?" Caitlyn asked
"I dunno all are bags are together separate from the rest he did label the ones with the X-Box he should be back" Jason mentioned
"Ill go I have to get my blanket any ways" I said putting on my sunglasses and walking out of the room. Everyone was sitting around talking. I walked passed everyone and went out side to find Nate grabbing a duffel bag.
"Hey can you get my blanket please" I asked
"Why do you need your blanket its so hot?" he asked
"Cuz the a/c is so cold duh Nate" I said teasing him
"looser its only a thirty minute ride to the stadium" he said throwing me my brown and aqua blanket, it was my favorite one.
"But still after we do the concert were back on the road to Denver so I want to be prepared then sorry"
"Oh yeah thats true" something was wrong he seems not him self.
"Nate whats wrong?" I asked following him into the bus
"He is whats wrong" e said looking at one of the guys.
"Oh wheat did he- wait Shane?" I asked looking back at the curly haired guy sitting with big Rob.
"Yeah him" Nate sneered, walking back into our room. I just stayed there and looked at Shane, he was laughing and I noticed something about him. He wasn't the same Shane I knew, I shrugged it off I was mad at him still. Terri's words were on repeat the whole time on the plane ride here I walked back into the room. I saw Nate telling everyone who decided to crash out tour.
"I can't believe he is out there and not even saying hi?" Jason said I saw the hurt in hi eyes.
"Jason it's okay he isn't the same Shane" I said coldly
"What you mean Mi?" He asked
"You can see it in his eyes, there dark like before when he was a jerk. He is up to something" I replied sitting next to Jason. Nate was connecting the X-Box to the plasma tv.
"You saw it to?" Nate asked me and I nodded.
"Yeah he isn't the same I could just tell" I said putting my head on Jason's shoulder and wrapping my blanket on me.
"He snapped at me earlier and I told him off" Nate whispered turning on th X-Box on.
"Nate its not your fault" I told him. He sighed and looked down.
"I know, but I think he wants to take your spot away" He whispered. Now it was my turn to sigh. I shook my head.
"Well he isn't getting it that easy" I said
"You guys enough talk about the diva and lets play already!" Jason mentioned
"Yeah I don't want to hear or see him" Caitlyn said. That shocked me they were best friends. Just like I was best friends with Jason.
"Okay lets play" Nate said handing us our remotes and picking out our characters. I always picked the alien guy he looked cool Jason picked the same as me like always and Nate and Caitlyn picked the human guy.
"is the Internet connected to play live?" Jason asked
"Yeah its loading right now." Nate said and with that we were connected. We were playing on teams me and Jason against Caitlyn and Nate. This was are thing when we had free time, it was so much fun.
"I am so going to kill you Nate!" Jason yelled and I started to laugh when Jason snippered Nate right in the head.
"Ha 12 kills for us and 10 kills for you" I said laughing some more. Just when I said that Nate threw a sticky bomb at me and I blew up. Just my luck.
"Now its 11 kills be afraid Mitchie be very afraid" Nate said it went on like that for the whole time we were in the bus. Finally it was a tie 45 to 45, the next kill wins.
"Were hear!" I heard some girl yell just the distraction I needed I quickly shot Caitlyn with the laser gun and she died we won!
"Ha were the Champions!" Jason yelled and we started to do our victory dance we made up.
"Thats not fair I was distracted" Caitlyn said pouting
"Its okay Caity I still love you girl!" I said hugging my best friend. We both started laughing and all four of us waled out of our room. To my surprise everyone was already out of the bus and walking nto the building. Well at least I wouldn't see Shane for another five minutes.
***
Where are you now?
Cause I am thinking of you
You showed me how
How to live like I do
If it wasn't for you
I would never be who I am
***
I was stuck in the front room with the new bands, just my luck. I talked to our body guard and told him the situation I was in. to my surprise he was very sympathetic about it. Finally we got to the venue and one of the girls got really happy.
"Were hear!" did she really have top yell? Ugh girls are so annoying sometimes. We walked out of the bus and I waited out side for like five minutes but still no show of my brothers and Mitchie and Caitlyn. What were they doing? I heard them laughing a lot the whole time we were coming here. Finally I heard four people laugh and walk out of the bus Caitlyn was holding Nate's hand and Jason was giving Mitchie a piggy back ride? They were close for only friends, ugh Shane don't think like that.
"Hey you guys we need to talk" I said making all of the stop at the sound of my voice.
"I already told you what had to be said" Nate said coldly and continued to walk to the building
"Jason?" I asked of course my naive brother would stay and talk to me.
"I have nothing to say, neither does Mi" he replied and let Mitchie to the ground to walk on her own. They went to the building and I was left alone out side, to think of what I done wrong. Okay yeah I was being a jerk again but that was normal, if its because I was gone for a year it wasn't my fault. I decided to walk in and watch them do sound check. Normally I would go and dress up in a costume and make everyone laugh but everyone hated me for some reason. Its just another reason why I should be lead singer again.
"Mitchie you and Nate start in five" the stage manager said
"Okay come on Nate" Mitchie said and I saw Jason tune up his guitar and Caitlyn was in the sound booth. Jason started to play the open notes to a song I never heard before it was kinda catchy.
"Tonight I walked into the bedroom, you were visibly upset" Nate sang and I saw Mitchie play a guitar.
"Okay that was great. Save your voice well continue in 10" the lady yelled again.
***
And I'll never see those days again
And things will never be that way again
But that's just how it goes
People change, But I know
I won't forget you
***
I was playing my new purple and black guitar we were practicing World War III. Nate wrote it last week it's going to be on the new album, its a mixture of his and Jason's music mixed with mine. Its kinda weird how Shane pops out of no where how did he even know where to find us? Then he was acting really jerky again, mm beef jerky sounds good right now I wonder if they will get me some. I should ask.
"Okay that was great. Save your voice well continue in 10" Destanie told us.
"Hey can I get some beef jerky?" I asked Nate and he just gave me the what do I look like look, it was kinda funny.
"No I can't get you that Mi what do I look like 7/11?" he joked around
"Yes, yes you do." Jason said
"Wait what?" Nate asked
"Don't even ask" I said and we all started laughing. It was our little insider we had going on only us four knew what it meant.
"Mi, your manager is calling you" Caitlyn said through the intercom. What? I hope its not any bad news, I walked up to Caitlyn with a worried look on my face. She handed me the phone and I was really scared to answer.
"H-hello?" I asked
"Mitchie Darling how is the tour going?"
"Its going great I love it" I said
"That is good to hear, listen doll when you come back home I want to try something out with you and the boys or maybe just you I want you to go to an audition to be in the newest movie, what do you say to that?" What! A movie this is like so amazing.
"Oh my god are you serious Ralphy? That is so definitely a yes!" I was so happy.
"Well yeah who is your number one agent/manager? Me of course okay so I'll make a date when you come back, I gotta go now. Chow Hun."
"Bye Ralphy" I said and he hung up the phone. I was so excited so I started to scream.
"AHHHHH!"
"Mitchie whats wrong?" Shane asked running towards me, um okay that was a shocker.
"Oh nothing wheres Jason and Nate I have good news for them" I said jumping up and down.
"What about me?"
"Ugh...Shane I dunno?" I said bitting my lip.
"What ever then, them paparazzi we right you just used me to get my spot in lead singer! Well enjoy it while it lasts Mitchie because its not your for long! That whole year being away from you was the best decision I made in my life!" He yelled. I was so shocked where did that come from.
"S-Shane?"
"No Shane me Mitchie, your a two timing backstabbing no for good worthless piece of trash. I hate you always have always will!" okay this hurt me a lot and tears started to fall from my eyes. So I just ran to my dressing room.
***
To the ones who cared And who were there from the start To the love that left and took a piece of my heart To the few who'd swear I'd never go anywhere Where are you now? ***
I saw Mitchie run in the opposite direction crying I turned around and saw Nate, Jason and Caitlyn arms folded across there chest and shaking there heads.
"What? She had whats coming to her" I said coldly.
"What that she turned down her own record label to save Connect 3? How everyday she would wake up in the middle of the night crying? You weren't there Shane Jason had to stay up most nights trying to calm her down. Nate had to take over weekends while I took over the days watching her. Whats wrong with you Shane?" Caitlyn had sternly told me.
"I don't care its her fault I had everything taken from me"
"I cant believe you Shane. What happened to the Shane we knew?" Jason said still shaking his head
"Apparently it died along with my flat iron" I snapped who the hell did they think they were telling the Shane Gray what to do? I make my own rules and I'll be nice to who I want to be nice to. No one is going to tell me what to do.
***
Where are you now?
Cause I am thinking of you
You showed me how
How to live like I do
If it wasn't for you
I would never be who I am
***
I can't believe him, I hate him so much right now how could he? Did he even have a heart at all I am so tired of getting hurt. I wish he never came back. I just cried on the corner floor of the room, it felt like my heart was getting ripped out my chest. I heard a someone knock on the door.
"Go away!" I yelled tears falling down my eyes.
"Mitchie please let me in its Jason" oh man how can I refuse Jason.
"Okay come in Jay" I said pulling my legs up to my chest.
"Oh god Mitchie, I am so sorry" wait that wasn't Jason's voice. I looked up and saw Nate holding Shane's arm making him say sorry to me.
"Get out Shane!" I said with as much hate in that state meant as I can.
"Mitch Just listen"
"No Shane I can't I am done listing why you even apologizing in the first place?" I asked looking back down at my feet.
"Because Nate said if I don't he will call security on me are you happy?"
"Shane I am far from happy leave out of my sight, leave me alone. Don't call me, or write me I want no contact with you what so ever." I said whipping my tears away. Where was the Shane I loved the one who was sweet and caring? Where was he now?
***
If it wasn't for you
I would never be who I am
If it weren't for you
I'd be nothing
Where are you now?
***