Impossible Wish

Akihiko felt like punching the nearest object and break it to pieces when he heard Sumi's crude reminder. Just when things were beginning to go smoothly and Misaki was waiting to reach home and make love, the crude disruption of his dangerous promise to Sumi made his sweet moments sour.

Before Misaki could hear any of the discussions about the sensitive topic, Akihiko quickly closed the door of his car. Sumi's face clearly revealed that his mind was focused on his goal which if achieved would cause something that Akihiko was afraid to imagine.

'It's not necessary.'

Akihiko replied with poise but inside he felt his resilience was crumbling down when Sumi's expressions grew serious.

'Not for you, but it is for me.'

Akihiko gripped the roof of the car when Sumi took one step closer towards him. Akihiko had had been anything but was never scared of anything or anyone. Every time the thought of Misaki hearing something triggered him, his ability to think straight and properly vanished.

'You know I love Misaki only, so give up.'

Akihiko tried his best not to flinch when he noticed a glimpse of hurt and mislay in Sumi's eyes, being so close to Sumi Akihiko could feel that Sumi was not so inexperienced like Misaki. The young man had a dominating aura and unlike Misaki, he was clear about his intentions.

'If you love him so much, then a kiss wouldn't matter, don't you have any trust?'

Akihiko realized that it would take long to convince Sumi and it was risky to carry out the chat when his mind was engaged with Misaki being in the car all the time.

'Let's go somewhere else.'

Akihiko started walking towards the little empty area opposite to his car. The huge tree would do the perfect job of guarding them from Misaki's view. Sumi on the other hand took that little gesture of Akihiko as an open invitation and his hopes got higher. He followed Akihiko grinning like a happy cat.

Crossing the road, Akihiko stopped under the grey shade of the tree and turned around to face Sumi. Akihiko's query made Sumi cringe with irritation and anger.

'How can you kiss a person who despises you the most?'

'Because I love you.'

Something like a painful memory occupied Akihiko's mind on hearing Sumi's honest answer. There were so many times when he had had kissed Misaki when the boy was reluctant to return any of his romantic gestures, so many times he had had said that phrase and every time he was either kept unanswered or rejected. Akihiko felt pity on Sumi's antics, at least Misaki didn't have had anyone back then so Akihiko had had his chance to make Misaki his lover but Sumi was more unfortunate. Even when Akihiko had had loved Takahiro, he knew that Takahiro never loathed him; he always had looked at Akihiko as his best friend.

Akihiko realized that Sumi was just his reflection, only with a worse condition.

'Go ahead.'

Akihiko gave his approval but Sumi knew that it wasn't from love or even a little amity, as the older man's eyes were blank and emotional-less like the heartless thorns of a lovely rose. With a heavy heart, Sumi leaned in to capture those gravelly yet alluring lips of Akihiko. He was thrilled to get a kiss from the man whom he wanted so much but was unable to reach.

The moment Sumi touched Akihiko's lips, a shiver ran down his spine, his heart rammed louder and faster making his blood rush to his nether region. The subtle softness of those perfect and thin lips made his want grow wilder, and he tried to get more contact of Akihiko's skin. Sumi's fingers went bold and danced on Akihiko's cheeks; Sumi wanted to memorize every sensation of the kiss and then capture them permanently as he knew that the kiss was the first and the last one.

Sumi opened his mouth and darted out his tongue to get a taste of Akihiko's lips but the moment Akihiko felt the timid feel of wetness on his lips, he moved back. Before the two could come out from their world of momentary fake romance and unravel their conflicting thoughts, a voice gasped out Sumi's name.

'Sumi-kun…'

Akihiko and Sumi looked at the stunned spectator, starring at them with utter disbelief and misery. There was Kazuhiko standing like a frozen statue with Misaki's bag in his trembling hands. Kazuhiko was there to do the humble deed of returning Misaki's bag which the man had had totally forgotten about and had abandoned in his boss's studio. Kazuhiko had arrived at that exclusive hiding place of Akihiko by following the direct route that Sumi had taken to reach to Akihiko's car. Unfortunately Kazuhiko was taken aback when he had had heard the crude rebuff of Sumi for a tea break earlier and had had been looking at the direction in which Sumi was heading till the slight sight of Sumi's figure had completely disappeared.

'Is Misaki-chan aware of this?'

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Misaki was getting impatient and bored, sitting alone in the car and doing nothing. He was a grown up and there were so many works to be done, not to mention making love to Akihiko. He was hoping to expertise last night's experience and learn to take Akihiko without any advice when the older man was lying beneath him. And Akihiko was not helping Misaki at all by making him wait alone.

Sighing Misaki decided to check if there were any calls from anyone and then he remembered that his bag was still dwelling at Kazuhiko's place. Coming out of the car he headed towards the tree behind which his lover was having a private chat with his only friend, whom Misaki was suspicious of. Misaki knew how badly Sumi wanted to do things to Akihiko which Misaki had had done. The mere thought of Sumi near to Akihiko made Misaki walk faster.

Someone familiar standing beside the tree caught Misaki's vision and examining closer, Misaki realized it was Kazuhiko with his beloved luggage. Misaki's face lit up and he almost ran towards the man.

'Hey Kazu-san.'

The three men went stiff and looked at Misaki crossing the road with a happy face, waving his hand. Slowly Misaki's pace slowed down and he stopped with a pale face and tensed heart when he saw Sumi so close to Akihiko. Misaki gaped with a failing feeling at Sumi's slim fingers on Akihiko face. Misaki looked how Kazuhiko was gazing at him like he was the unhappiest and most ill-fated person alive on the earth. Misaki noticed how dazed Sumi's eyes were and how close he was to Akihiko.

Misaki perceived how Akihiko was looking at him with guilt in his eyes, mutely asking for forgiveness.

Misaki couldn't help but wonder why Akihiko left him and went with Sumi in such a secluded place. Akihiko never wasted any time when he was supposed to have his time with Misaki; he didn't care about anything when Misaki was waiting for him. Misaki recalled all previous the incidents and pondered why Akihiko was with Sumi when he came to Kazuhiko's place. Why Sumi was with Akihiko all the time? Why Sumi was so close to him, touching Akihiko?

Misaki was lost in his thoughts without realizing that he was standing in the middle of the road for the past few minutes and a car was heading towards him with full speed.

'MISAKI WATCH OUT'

Akihiko screamed and jumped towards Misaki, Misaki took some time to come his senses and by the time he began to move, it was too late. The car hit Misaki on his legs, making Misaki fall on the ground. The sudden trauma and pain made Misaki unconscious before Misaki looked silently at Akihiko, calling him and moving towards him. Misaki closed his eyes with a regret that he wasn't able to know about Akihiko's intentions. The physical and mental pain made a single drop of tear slide down Misaki's cheek before Misaki was immersed in darkness, away from every sensation.

Akihiko couldn't believe that everything that was happening to him was true. He saw the car crashing with Misaki, unable to control its speed, he screamed to stop what was going to happen but couldn't. Everything happened so suddenly that Akihiko couldn't feel his heart beating till he touched Misaki lying on the road, hurt and injured. Taking Misaki in his arms he jerked the man to make Misaki say something, anything. But instead he saw Misaki looking at his face like a lost and broken angel, searching for an answer. Akihiko felt like hugging Misaki and give his own strength to the weak body when he saw a tear rolling down Misaki's cheek. Akihiko regretted his every decision when Misaki closed his eyes and didn't respond anymore. Something wet and warm touched Akihiko's palm which was cushioning Misaki's head and Akihiko stopped his breathing when he saw his hand coated with blood, the blood which belonged to Misaki.

Akihiko was scared; he didn't know what to do. He never felt so miserable and helpless like that. Akihiko believed that he was a logical person which an excellent presence of mind, but all his beliefs and intelligence flew out of the window when he saw Misaki in his arms with his eyes closed and the blood on his hands.

What could he do to undo everything? What could he do to replace Misaki's state? What could he do to make everything the way there were some moments ago?

Akihiko sat there gripping Misaki tightly. He was sure that if he would let go of Misaki, Misaki would leave him and never return. He wanted to be with Misaki, live with Misaki and die with Misaki.

'Usami-sensei, USAMI-SENSEI!!!'

Kazuhiko and Sumi called Akihiko again and again and finally Akihiko looked at them with tears in his eyes. Akihiko's eyes were helpless and lost, like they were begging for Misaki's safety. Everything, the hurt, the desire and the betrayal were forgotten and the only thing that they all wanted was to see Misaki opening his eyes again.

'Come on we have to take Misaki to a hospital.'

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I got many PMs where many of you were telling me to update my other stories, but I am sorry to say I will be real slow as I am suffering from something terrible and is very weak now and along with that I have to carry out my daily routines even when I am supposed to take a complete bed-rest. SO please bear with me a little. And my arm is okay, thank you for all the prayers.

But I will update as soon as I get a little better. Life is getting harder on me…..