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Song of the Chapter:

"Four in the Morning," by Gwen Stefani

But it hurts when I think
When I let it sink in
It's all over me
I'm lying here in the dark
I'm watching you sleep, it hurts a lot
And all I know is
You've got to give me everything
Nothing less cause
You know I give you all of me
I can't be complete, can you give me more?

I give you everything that I am
I'm handin' over everything that I've got
Cause I wanna have a really true love
Don't ever wanna have to go and give you up
Stay up till Four In The Morning and the tears are pouring
And I want to make it worth the fight
What have we been doing for all this time?
Baby if we're gonna do it, come on do it right

All I wanted was to know I'm safe
Don't want to lose the love I've found
Remember when you said that you would change
Don't let me down
It's not fair how you are

Chapter Fifteen:

TPOV

"Eddie, have you ever thought what would happen if that little human Bella and her pup never came along?" I whispered huskily into Edward's ear, pouncing onto his back. We were going on our normal hunting route out in Victoria. I just "happened" over Edward and after convincing him to leave his Mercedes back in Port Angeles insisted we feed.

"Tanya," he sighed coming to a halt and disengaging himself from my body. "Bella, I love her and Ethan, he's my son. So why don't you just back off. I have to meet with Carlisle," he mumbled, launching himself into the darkness before me. Oh, so he wants a chase.

I licked my lips in anticipation. A chase he wants, a chase he'll get.

I crouched down on my knees and ripped a picture of my Eddie in half. I grinned menacingly and tucked the right half into my blouse. Flipping out a pack of matches, I ripped the left half into shreds and lit it. Hopefully the Bella half of Edward would be gone soon, just as fast as it burned to ashes.

BPOV

I awoke groggy and stiff when the previous day's events swarmed over me. The pregnancy tests. The waiting. The empty bed. I opened my eyes, reluctantly to find myself alone, again.

The front door creaked loudly from downstairs. Suddenly, he was in the doorway. "I'm sorry," were the first words out of his pathetic mouth. I could feel my face darken to a scarlet shade.

"Edward," I whispered shaking my head, back and forth. "Edward!" I tried louder this time. I took the gift box off the bed and flung it at him. The singlet fell to the floor at his feet. "I hope you are fuckin' happy, Edward." I felt the tears sting at the corners of my eyes. "I'm almost two months pregnant."

Edward's lips spread into a grin. "That's great news, Bella." He started to move towards me with arms wide open. I shoved at his chest.

"Don't you touch me," I reprimanded, my hand remaining on the cloth of his shirt. I reveled in the coolness radiating off of him. I fought back mediocre tears, but instead of being strong and tough, I broke down. "I-I guess you've chosen to be w-wherever you were last night. I guess you've picked. Our child is apparently of no importance to you, but I don't care…If this is how it is."

"Bella, I said I was sorry," he reasoned, his solid hand curved around my jaw. I stared at him incredulously.

"As if sorry would ever be enough!" I struggled. "W-w-what happened to us, Edward? How'd we get here? I thought our world had finally taken a right turn. What about Ethan?" My hand flew over my mouth. "This is exactly what I was trying to protect my son from. All this…I would never have returned to you, trusted you again if I even thought you'd treat us this way. Last night was supposed to be incredibly special, something we could've reminisced over for the rest of the duration of our lives. We would've been making love into the night, awaiting another child. Your child."

"But who knows where you were! You could've been with Tanya for all I know!" There was something that changed in his face, as minute as it was there was definitely some guilt behind that façade he had up. "That's it, isn't it? Is that why you've been gone so much?" I spat, hurt more than anything. There was a piercing in my abdomen and in my heart.

"I'm going to need you, Edward. I'm going to need to trust you. I don't want to let you go; I want you to be there for the birth of your baby. But every time you aren't by my side, I'm going to be thinking you are with that-that…" I cried. "What I wonder, is how you can just walk away? You're not giving me enough." Another pang hit me in the stomach and I doubled over in pain, groaning.

"B-Bella?" he whispered, his hands grasping my arms. I made a quick dash for the bathroom, throwing myself onto the floors. I felt his hands, rubbing a soothing pattern on my back. I shoved at him, wanting nothing but to suffer alone, as masochistic as it seemed. I clutched at my stomach, crying in agony as the pain worsened.

EPOV

I backed to a wall and slid down, my fingers weaving in my hair, my elbows resting on my knees. There was no rational excuse for my actions, not that I was in dire need for one either. There was nothing I could say because in truth—I know it and she knows it—I am in the wrong. Bella absolutely had the right to not even want to take another glance at my pathetic self.

I gazed at the little romper lying across my lap. What have I been doing? I was no better than a dead-beat, poor excuse of a man; going out constantly to Tanya. I feel like I have brought impurity into this once peaceful, loving home. Bella was once again carrying my child and instead of correcting my disgraceful actions of the past, I am repeating them just the same.

"Mama?" a diminutive voice, laced with sleep beckoned from the other room. "Mama," he cried as no response came after a few moments. My own son doesn't even call for me anymore. I made a move for my baby, hoping the stranger of a man I had become could soothe him. I hoisted him up into my arms and buried my face in his shoulder.

"Please forgive me, Sunshine," I implored.

"Da!" he cried, throwing his tiny arms around my neck in response. His lips pecked my cheek sloppily. "I issss yooh," he whimpered, a hint of anguish in his intonation.

"I missed you too, baby," I answered and dipped my head to kiss his nose. I bounced him gently, enjoying the reunion with my son. If only his mother could take me back. If only…If only I wasn't so selfish.

"Dada, wurr go? Wurr?" Ethan mumbled, whilst rubbing his eyes with his fists. My hand smoothed out his wild child hair.

"Uhh, dada was out," I muttered.

His eyebrows furrowed. "No uvv momma?" he asked.

"No! No!" I exclaimed, alarming him. "I love your momma so very much, it's just that we've been going through a rough time with everything that's been going on, baby. But despite all, I will always love your momma. She's too perfect not to love."

"Etan?" he slurred, his bottom lips pouting.

I kissed his nose and chuckled. "I love you, too, Sunshine. You're daddy's baby, how could I not love you?" My fingers moved to his tummy and tickled him, laughing. "You and momma are the best things that have ever happened to me, as cliché as it sounds."

"Cuh-lee-sh?" he repeated, attempting to own the word as he had with his pretty broad vocabulary.

I laughed full out as he glared at me. "It's fine, Love. We'll need to own English before we move onto French!" Ethan pouted, crossing his arms across his bare chest.

"Wurr, momma?" he demanded. His head turned away, his eyes searching the room. "Mommaaa!"

"Shh, love. Momma's…sick," I half-lied. "She doesn't feel too good." Much too quickly my cell phone rang startling Ethan. My hand quickly dug around into my pockets and brought the phone to my head. I answered to Alice's furious tone.

"What the hell is your problem, Edward? Bella was going to surprise you last night, but you don't even bother to show up. You-you'd rather flirt with Tanya than find out if it is in fact true that you are going to become a father again?" she went off. "Honestly, I think that if you don't straighten up and get your shit together, you can just go off and screw Tanya, for all I care. Bella, your son and your baby would be better off without you, you Bastard."

"Alice, Tanya and I aren't even like that," I addressed firmly, all the while rubbing soothing circles into my son's back.

"Sure, Edward you defend Tanya rather than instill that you still love Bella, that you would never do this to Bella? What the hell does that say, you prick. You know what, I always thought that you would do the right thing, but lately I've lost my faith in you—"

"Ali, don't say that," I begged, my voice cracking.

"What has Tanya done to you? She's defiled you of your care and love for your family," she sobbed into the end of her line. "Edward, it's killing, Bella. I thought you loved her, I thought you want what's good for her?"

"I do love her; every single damn thing about her. I can't stop loving her."

"Then what are you doing, Edward? Your relationship is swirling down the drain and if you don't stick that stopper in, if you don't show her that you do care, once something happens to that baby, it's all over."

I couldn't help but read too much into her statement assuming the worst. "A-Alice, d-do you see something?"

"Shh," Alice quieted. I nodded as if she could've seen me and cradled the phone between my shoulder and my ear, making a move to change Ethan's soiled diaper. He stared up at me, his eyes glassy as I changed him.

"Ma?" I dipped my head lower to kiss his forehead, in hopes to calm him. I snatched a pacifier from the changing table as he began fussing at the intensity of the silence in the air. He took it willingly and reached out toward his blocks that lay scattered on the carpet on the opposite side of the room. I picked him up under the arms and fulfilled his request.

I heard ruffling on the other line. "Alice? Alice?" I called.

"Oh crap," she croaked. I could just hear the concern ringing in my sister's voice. "Bella," she whispered, awfully low. She was absolutely terrified. On that note, I stopped pacing and ran off to get a diaper bag and started stuffing it with Ethan's clothes and diapers. "Bella. Edward, get Bella to a hospital. She-she's bleeding, Edward." I scooped Ethan off the floor, setting off for Bella. "Please stay here, baby. I-I need to help momma." I ran into the doorway.

"BELLA!" I hollered, watching my tone, knocking on the door of our ensuite bathroom frantically. "BELLA, PLEASE!" There was not a single wave of sound that reached me. I became fed up and pried the door off the hinges and there Bella sat on the cold tile, blood staining her hands.

"Oh, Bella," I cried.

"I'm sorry, Edward…" she sobbed, a hand smothering her breath. Slowly, I crumbled to the floor, moving nearer to her. "Edward, please," she pleaded. "I love you and I love our family; I want us together." She gingerly opened her arms to me, allowing for me to pull her up against my chest. I choked back sobs against her neck, placing a soft, lingering kiss on her pulse. "I do need you, Edward. Despite everything, everything that's been thrown my way, I need you in my life." I rubbed her back soothingly, willing all this agony she was feeling within her heart to be removed. I would've taken all this heartbreak that I caused, without a single thought. I would endure anything and everything for my love.

"I need you, too, Bella. So much," I breathed. Cautiously, I swept her up and with Ethan, I made the ever long journey to the hospital. It was all a matter of life and death.

I could've sworn a tear escaped the corner of my eye. It wasn't venom, it was a true human tear.

"I can't just walk away."

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