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Warning: Explicit sexual contents!!! If you are offended by such materials please STOP reading right NOW!!!!!!......... YOU'VE BEEN WARNED!!!........

AN: This is an alternate sequel to "Kagome" after you've read the "Mine, all mine" alternate ending.

This story is dedicated to my wonderful beta: Nekomimimode!!!

And of course, thanks to my wonderful beta Nekomimimode for editing and helping me with this story. Don't forget to give her some props too!!

Title: ONLY YOU

Chapter 1: Please forgive me....

Kagome sat in their shared apartment, waiting for Hojo to return home. She knew without a doubt that he was out looking for her. Her guts churned from the guilt of knowing of how worried he must be. While she was off rekindling her love with Sesshomaru, Hojo was worried sick over her.

She felt horrible, like evil incarnate - the worst kind.

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Flashback…..

The night seemed to end too quickly for him. Over and over he'd made love to her – to his mate. Time and time again, their lips met, their hips joined and she cried out in blissful rapture.

After the third time, Kagome laid cuddled in her mate's arms. Face buried in the contour of his chest she sighed happily. After the two years of painful memories of him thrashing against her mind, she was finally his and he was hers. Now laying there with him, without a doubt in her mind she knew that he would never leave her.

Sesshomaru cuddled his mate in his arms. She was still much younger than him. There was much for her to still learn, especially now being mated to him. He allowed his mate to rest within his grasp, enjoying the scent of her and especially the smell of him now flowing through her body. They were connected as one, he could feel her and her thoughts from inside. Sesshomaru smirked, his lips curved smiling, knowing – feeling – the happiness stemming from her being.

Her hand began to stroke his back in an undulating motion. Kagome smiled to herself feeling his warmth against her, she furrowed herself closer to his chest. Her two fingers 'walked' its way from the back to front and she began to draw circles on his taut chest.

He captured her hand and kissed the palm. "Keep petting me like that and you'll unleash the beast in me – again."

Kagome tilted her head up to meet his gaze and smiled. "I thought I was soothing your beast," she said.

"Koi, your touch lights fires in me and unless you want to see me erupt like old faithful, you'll behave." Sesshomaru licked her palm from wrist to the tip of her middle finger.

"Mmmm…who's unleashing the beast now…..?" Kagome teased, her smile and half closed eyes had him going, and Sesshomaru leaned down to steal yet another kiss. Dear Kami, how he loves her!!!

Rolling his mate over, Sesshomaru hovered over her, dipping his head down to kiss her while using his knee to spread her legs.

"Mine," he murmured, his eyelids drooping sexily over his golden gaze.

Bending further over her, his lips met the lines of her jaw. He then slowly dragged his fangs downwards from there. Her skin burned wherever he passed, and her nipples tightened, while her pussy throbbed in anticipation. His lips brushed along the side of her neck all along her shoulders, resting at her edge before he nipped her playfully while his rock hard erection pressed against her thigh. The feeling of her underneath him, her flesh brushing and rubbing against him was sinfully wonderful. She stirred things in him things that he'd never known existed and Sesshomaru could only thank the Kamis for allowing him to rectify his mistakes. What would he have done to himself if he'd let her slip through his fingers?

Kagome began to wrap her legs around his hips, pulling him closer and away from his thoughts. His frame stiffened when she shifted her hips pulling the ridge of his arousal tight to her sex. She found herself craving him, wanting his meat stretching and pounding into her. He left little bite marks all over her body, and then soothed it over with his hot wet tongue; while she drove him wild with her pulsating cunt, gripping and releasing his shaft each time he was inside.

He wanted more of that, more of his young, ripe mate. "Kagome," he called her softly. His hands were now on her breasts, while fingers rolled her nipple. Licking behind her ears, he dragged his tongue all the way from the back towards the front.

"Yes," she murmured after a deep intake of breath.

"All mine," his eyes flared then.

Smiling, she letting him know that she completely surrendered to him. His satisfied expression turned quickly into that of possession, capturing her mouth in a tight heated kiss. Her soul reached out toward his and grabbed on tight, wanting and needing everything from him. A moment later, he impaled her, pumping in and out of her tight pussy slowly. When she moaned, her muscles relaxed giving him easier access to her tight canal and he began to pick up the pace.

"All yours," Kagome responded, eyes rolling back into her skull from the sensation of being so fully filled.

The DaiYokai continued to ground against her, a low growl of pleasure rumbling from him as he sensed her losing all control. Her nails were now raking along his back, drawing blood from his skin.

He felt the slight pain from the torn flesh, but he didn't care.

Kagome shut her eyes, focusing on the sensation her mate was sparking along her channel. Her pelvic muscles contracted, and she started to shove her hips forward to meet Sesshomaru's thrusts. She was teetering on the brink of release but her mate wouldn't allow it. He slowed his pace, withdrawing his cock from her so that only the tip touched. Then he pressed his mushroom head back in. Kagome groaned and moaned, while Sesshomaru continued his torture making sure he would not touch her clit in any way.

"Sesshomaru!!" She cried, but he wasn't listening to her.

He poked at her a few more times with the head of his cock until he, himself, couldn't take it anymore. Sesshomaru shifted his hips, pulling back, and in one smooth movement he drove himself back into her. Kagome screamed his name when he hunched his entire length inside of her. His cock was bigger from the excitement, stretching the tender walls of her sex. He pumped harder, faster, making her lace her arms around his shoulders, bracing herself for his assault. He tightened his hold on her, gripping her shoulders, and pushing her down.

She thrust her hips up.

He speared his hips forward, humping his cock in and out of her. Her climax slashed through her, and she began to spasm around his shaft, eliciting a growl out of him. As his thrust turned jerky, and less controlled.

Just before he came, his dick swelled further, and Kagome cried out in both pain and pleasure. The thrill of his cock being able to get bigger than it already was spread through her being. Without further control of her body, she continued to come and a second wave of orgasm rocked through her meek person.

"Kagome," he called out to his mate, dragging his cock along her heated walls.

"OOooooohhhhhh, Sesshomaru," she cried, biting her lip. Watching his mate's orgasm continue to roll, Sesshomaru ground his pelvis against her mound.

"I," Sesshomaru speared fast and furious into her channel while his palms grip her face, forcing her to look into his eyes.

The tip of their noses touch.

"Love," he said almost like a whisper as he began to cum inside of her.

BAM!!

His hips slammed against her body.

"You!" His hot cum blasted from him, he then paused jerking inside her.

He leaned down to kiss his mate, locking her mouth forcefully shoving her tongue around with his. Dominating her mouth and body, he growled in pleasure before he shot another blast of semen. It seemed that he too couldn't stop coming as his cock pulsated, and throbbed, squirting jets after jets of creamy filling into her form.

When his body slowed, Sesshomaru braced himself close to her chest; the soft silver hair on his chest tickled her nipples as he panted. "I love you," the DaiYokai whispered once again, the three words that set his soul free.

Sesshomaru wanted to continue fucking and stroking his semi-hard cock inside of her. He could spend the rest of his long life doing nothing but fuck his mate, but the pain in her little form was more than obvious. Not only through their mating mark, but the way her legs twitched each time he moved.

He raised his head and rested it on top of hers, staring into her eyes. "Always," he whispered. "This Sesshomaru will always put you first, mate." With that, he withdrew from her and rolled to her side, gathering her into a warm embrace.

She moaned in blissful satisfaction. And when he licked the back of her lower arm she giggled before letting out a tired yawn. Without warning, her eyelids were heavy and she drifted off to sleep.

The thought of Hojo didn't even cross her mind all night until she woke up the next day – in Sesshomaru's bed.

In his penthouse.

In his arms.

She knew she had to return home right away because she couldn't let Hojo hunt for her while she enjoyed herself with her mate. It was already early afternoon.

As weird as that sounded, she knew she was in the wrong. She should be able to do whatever she wanted, pleased with her mate, at any given time and moment. But the guilt of what she was doing to Hojo chained her down like a heavy anchors on a ship. The man she'd shared her life with for the past two years was looking for her, worrying about her sake and safety so how can she sit around enjoying her bliss of the mating?

When Kagome lifted her head to look up, he wasn't next to her. The Dai had been long awake and was looking at her; with a swift move, his arms cradled around her being.

"This Sesshomaru will take you back to your apartment, mate." He said.

He'd sensed her thoughts and worries through his mark. Though he could not know everything that she was thinking of, he knew the general idea that she was worried about the human.

Her human.

If it was under any other circumstances, he would have been furious. But in the mist of the situation, he could not fault her. If only he had come to his senses sooner, if only he had been brave against his own mother. None of this would have happened and his mate would not have had to suffer now, and for the past two years. He should have taken her as his mate the first time his beast wanted to. Yet here she was, embedded in his arms, while thoughts of another man invaded her mind.

He could only sympathize as much as he knew how. However it was hard considering the fact that she was concern and worried over his love rival!

Sesshomaru was grateful that she'd come back to him, and that she'd loves him still. He could not be angry with her for feeling the things she felt. It pained him, to know the anguish his mate was going through. He wanted her happy, and especially happy with him, but all he'd done so far, was caused her great pain. He vowed to rectify that.

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A jingle of keys outside the door startled Kagome from her thoughts. As the door knob turned Kagome glanced over at the man standing at the doorway.

"Hojo…." She called softly when he came in, disheveled and bleary.

"Kago..? KAGOME!!" He shook his head making sure she was real. "Oh my Kami Koi, are you alright? Where have you been? I was so worried about you!!" Relief swept over his face to see his 'fiancé' alive and well.

"I….I'm okay…" she managed.

"Let me look at you.." Hojo said tears brimming in his eyes while his hands fumbled her body checking for scratches and bruises.

"Hojo…" Kagome called softly, but he didn't hear her while he continued to search her body. "Hojo…" Kagome cried out again, tears began to form around her eyes while she watched her 'fiancé' flustered over her; as if his denial would change the reality. "HOJO!" She cried finally.

He stopped and stared at her watching the tears forcing its way out of her eyes. They were so close, connected in a way where words weren't necessary in their communication. "Kag.." he whispered, gathering her into his arms. "Everything's going to be alright, baby." He soothed and she cried on his shoulder.

He's carrying on like nothing's wrong….How can I tell him? Kagome thought, crying while Hojo held her close rubbing her back to calm her. Pushing back from his grasp, Kagome stared into his face.

"Hojo, we….I….we need to talk…" Kagome finally managed.

"No, no we don't. You need sleep, we have to get some rest." Hojo deflected.

Will you still sleep….ever sleep again… once I tell you how I've shattered your heart Hojo?.... "Hojo," Kagome whispered his name between sniffles. How she hated this, she found it almost impossible to speak. "I have to tell you…talk to you now…"

She watched as he shook his head from side to side. "No….no we don't need to talk. Everything is alright." Hojo caressed her face with his palm, "I love you, Kagome," he added.

"Hojo, I…." Hojo leaned in to kiss her because he didn't want to hear what she had to say.

He pressed on, gently forcing his tongue into her mouth. When she stayed numb toward the action of his tongue thrusting in the confines of her mouth, he realized that she wasn't going to return his kiss. After about a minute of trying and not getting any response from her, he pulled back.

"Ho.." He pressed his thumb on her lips.

"Don't speak." He pleaded. "Don't do it Kagome." He gathered her into his arms again. I know what you're thinking Kagome. I don't want you to do it, I don't want to lose you.

All she could do was cry, sob frantically on his shoulder. "Kagome, I don't care what happened. I don't want to know. You're ok, you're alright that's all that matters to me. I don't want to live without you baby. I just can't…" he was crying too while he held on to her tightly. Afraid that if he loosened his grip that she'd disappear from his sight. "I don't care what you did, I don't care what happened. As long as you're here with me, and we're together, that's all that matters to me. We can try…Always Kagome, always, you're mine."

It pained her more than anything to have the man who loved her so much, cared about her so much hurt like this. She would much rather have him be angry with her, and even slap her perhaps. She deserved that, but instead, he was embracing her and being good to her – like he always had. Without a word about where she had been, or what she'd done, he'd already forgiven her. In the two years they shared together he'd always known when she was sad or discouraged, and was always there to comfort her. He always knew when she was happy, and excited, and was there to share her joy.

All in all, he knew her too well, inside and out. And there was nothing that Kagome could say to ease his pain. Assuage the hurt that she'd caused him. She knew the feeling too well, she'd been through that in the last two years when her heart ached over Sesshomaru.

I have to do this…I'm so sorry Hojo…..

"Hojo…pl…please…" She sniffled. "I…I…can't"

"Hush…hush darling…don't do it. Please I beg you, I don't want to hear it." He couldn't believe what she was doing to them – to their relationship, their future. He couldn't believe that she'd made him the happiest man last week when she'd accepted his proposal, and now….now she was tearing his heart into shreds – slowly.

Why don't you want to try Kagome? Why don't you want us to be together? Hojo's mind questioned while he squeezed her even tighter. This is a nightmare…It must be…

Still, she had always been everything to him, and he couldn't afford to – didn't want to lose her - ever. No matter what she did or went last night; or who she did it with. It didn't matter to him that he'd been up all night worrying about her, even going to the police to file a missing person report; only to have them tell him that she needed to be missing for at least 48 hours for them to take a report. Defeated he had wandered the streets all night, after he'd gone to all the places that he thought she would be, and wasn't there. It never crossed his mind in a million years though, that she had been with another man….Never…

Now?

Now he didn't care, Hojo just wanted a life with her. He knew she loved him, and it must have been a mistake of the moment, an impulse that made her do what she did. He cringed at the thought of her touching another man. His guts gnawed at the image of another man, touching, caressing her. Loving her the way he loves her. But he could forgive her for all of it - he knew that. Hojo had loved her too much to let her go no matter what mistakes she made. She'd meant too much to him for such a minor mistake to take her away from him.

Kagome wrapped her arms around him, trying to figure out how to tell him about Sesshomaru. It wasn't just the fact that she'd slept with another, but rather that she was now mated to him. A part of her didn't want to leave him. Truth was, she loves him still and it was difficult to say farewell. The wound she was going to inflict on him was going to be immense.

The silence stretched between them like a living thing.

How could Hojo still be so good to her? She knew that he knew she's slept with another man, for sure he knew, otherwise why would he tell her not to say anything? But she was ending – had ended- their relationship. Kagome couldn't continue to pretend to be someone she wasn't. Yes, she'd loved and cared about Hojo, and probably will always care for him, but, her heart belonged to Sesshomaru; and now her body belonged to him as well. Kagome hated herself for the way she handled the situation. Her will was so weak, and her heart was so easily swayed by Sesshomaru.

Hojo knew this was the part where it would end. He had thought that their love had always been strong, that she would always be by his side. But even within his denial, her tears told a story that he feared to confirm.

Stay. Stay with me Kagome, we can pretend nothing ever happened. Please hold on to the love we have….Hojo pleaded silently to her.

How she hated this part, the part where she had to tell the man she loved – and cared for – good bye. But she couldn't take it anymore the pain and guilt that was surging through her body. Kagome couldn't take the tears from Hojo; there was nothing she could do for him, and now there was nothing left but good-bye.

I am so sorry Hojo….I have to do it….it's better now, than later….we can't keep lingering on what's not real….Kagome admitted, painfully for them both.

So with painful deliberation, Kagome pushed herself from Hojo. She placed the diamond ring in his hand, which he had no strength to hold on to. It fell to the floor with a clink. She leaned in and kissed his lips one last time while he stood frozen like a statue.

The glimmer in her eyes that he'd always see as the sun, the light in his life - had set, their relationship no longer existed; he no longer had a place in her heart. He hated her because he'd loved her too much.

As the door shut behind him, she'd taken his heart with her.

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Sesshomaru watched through the window from a nearby rooftop. He watched as his mate cried over and over on the human's shoulder. He watched as the man cried along. He watched as his mate leaned into to kiss his lips, and with one last glance at Hojo, she took a few steps back away from him. Crying uncontrollably and then walked out the door. His last glimpse through the window was of Hojo, collapsing onto the floor, burying his face between his hands and cried.

"Kagome… Don't …Leave….Me…" Hojo pleaded….

Sesshomaru leaped off the roof top and walked toward the end of the stairs to retrieve his mate, who was frantically wiping her tears away with the back of her hands. She turned to look at him, eyes red, nose red, sniffling.

Sesshomaru stared at his young mate, the pain and guilt written clearly on her face. He felt the resentment toward him through their mating mark. The blame she'd placed on him for her hurt, for Hojo's anguish. She'd said her final good-bye to the human, without saying anything because it had hurt too much. It was too painful for the both of them. And she was right…it was all and entirely his fault.

Even so, Sesshomaru would rather die a miserable death before letting her belong to another man knowing that she had always loved him; which she more than confirmed last night.

She was eerily quiet on the way home, except for the few sniffles. Kagome kept her gaze out the passenger window. Through their mating mark, Sesshomaru could feel the pain and guilt in his mate's heart.

How he hated when she cried, he could never be comfortable with the salty scent of her tears…

When they finally reached his penthouse, Sesshomaru guided his mate in, getting odd looks from the security. He watched his mate walk with leaded feet toward the bathroom. If he didn't know any better, she looked and acted like a zombie.

"We should feed you.." he tried to coax her. Kagome shook her head. Sesshomaru stroked his mate's back softly. "Kagome, not eating isn't going to make things better."

With his statement Kagome whipped her head around and glared at him. "And what would make it better, Sesshomaru?" she hissed. The tears began to flow like a broken dam. His silence pained her. Kagome didn't try to contain her tears anymore, she cried. Letting the sounds of her pain make its way to his ears, rumbling through his sensitive drums like thunder.

She couldn't take this kind of pain, the same pain she has suffered through for the last 2 years without the man she loved. Now Hojo had to suffer forever without the woman he loved, and she couldn't take the guilt of being the cause of that pain.

The DaiYokai wasn't sure what to do, what he could do. He knew that only through time, will his mate move on. But it pained him knowing that the guilt will never leave her. There were still things they need to talk about, the overdue conversation that should have happened years ago.

Why did it have to be like this? Kagome questioned herself not knowing her mate could feel all that was flowing through her body and mind. She was open like an open book to him.

"Mate…"

The sounds of her sobbing drowned out his voice. Kagome could only cry and cry she did. Then she jolted up from the couch, determination blazing in her eyes.

"No, mate, you cannot." Sesshomaru said before she could stand on her feet.

"Yes, I can. I can't hurt him like this. It's not fair to him! I'm going back to Hojo, Sesshomaru." Her words were worst than a death sentence to him.

"Kagome…"Sesshomaru sighed. Even if you could, without my mating mark… "What of us?"

"What about us? Or is it about you?" Kagome shrieked, upset that he was being selfish like he'd always been.

"No, always us" he answered grabbing her hand.

"No, YOU!!" She pulled her hand away. "If you hadn't dropped me like a piece of shit, this wouldn't have happened." Kagome was far more than angry. She was completely indignant that things had turn out this way, that she'd somehow become him, his evil incarnation.

"Yes, this Sesshomaru realized that. I apologize."

"Apologize? I just broke the heart of a man who knows and loves me. The ONLY one who has been there for me through thick and thin and all you have to say is 'I apologize'?"

"What would you have this Sesshomaru do, Kagome?" It really was too much for him to deal.

He'd never had to lower himself to this level, but he loves her. He'd love her too much and the guilt she was laying on him was more than he could handle. It wasn't as if the blame he'd put on himself and the responsibility he was willing to admit wasn't enough, his mate was pilling on more and more guilt on his being like an avalanche.

"Take me back to him Sesshomaru, he can't live without me. Don't you know, he knows whenever I'm alone and lonesome. He cries for me when I'm sad, and he's always there to support me when I need someone to cheer me on…..while you….You…..Left…. Me." Her words became a mere whisper, but dropped like mountains, stopping the beating of his heart and knocking the air out of his lungs.

Sesshomaru couldn't find the words to say, the things to do to fix things with his mate. He stood like a statue while his mate continued with her angry words of distress, pointing out the obvious that he was a complete asshole for the last two years.

"I…" Sesshomaru's voice caught in his throat.

"You, on the other hand, dropped me like I was nothing, then suddenly I'm something to you!"

"I can explain.."

"What can you say that would take away the two years of my pain of losing you?"

The look in her eyes was something Sesshomaru could never forget, forever imbedded into his memory. It was a vision of an injured wounded creature suffering slowly in its anguish. "What can you say to erase the hurt in Hojo's heart?"

Again, he found his body frozen while his vocal chords were mute.

"Because…" she cried, "because Sesshomaru, I know exactly how that feels! To wake up each day and all you want to do is die, so that perhaps the pain would go away….."

He gathered her in his arms and was relieved when she allowed him to. "This Sesshomaru had not been without pain either."

She pushed herself away from him with both palms. "And how is that? You and your Yokai girlfriend…." He silenced her with his finger.

"Never mind, Ayame, she and I are nothing but a show for both our families. Kagome, I had to let you go because my mother had been hunting you. She would have killed you if she found you. This Sesshomaru decided that his heart was not worth your life. I wanted to see you happy, and when I went to your college to make you mine, I saw that you were with a young man. You were happy, carefree. Most importantly," Sesshomaru gaze into his lover's eyes. "You were safe."

"That…That's why you left me?" He nodded. "You idiot!" Kagome began to pound at his chest with both fists, the dam of tears bursting again. "I'd rather die a miserable death than to live without you, don't you know?" She threw her head against his chest while her arms encircled him in a tight embrace.

"Does this mean you'll forgive this Sesshomaru?" he asked kissing the top of her head.

She nodded into his chest. "But Hojo…"

Hojo was casualty in a battle for the heart, but he did not say that. At the moment, Sesshomaru wrecked his brain to find the right words to comfort his mate.

"This Sesshomaru hates it as much as you do, mate. But there is no more times for lies, and you are mine. You belong to me, staying with the human would only further damage his heart in the long run." His keen perception was too logical and it made her question whether or not he could love her the way she wanted, needed.

"This Sesshomaru does not know the meaning of love – until the moment he saw you wrapped within the human's arms." He held her hand entwining his fingers with hers. "Then the flash of the ring on your finger…finally opened my eyes. And like a blind man, being able to see for the first time this Sesshomaru finally realized….finally knew…… knew he had loved you, Kagome. That I had always loved you, so before I could lose you forever, I had to see for myself, if you no longer loved me. And Koi when you surrendered yourself, and cried in my arms…I knew. You've never stopped loving me as I've never stopped loving you…..and nothing…no one can change that."

Kagome's shoulders trembled and her body quaked. The man she loved, the man with so few words, had poured his heart and soul to her. How could she ask for more? How could she ever deny them of the love that is so unquestionable.

Sesshomaru wrapped his arms around her waist pulling her in closer ….. tighter. And curling his finger he lifted her chin so that her eyes would lead him straight to her soul. Through the hiccupping of her crying, deep inside her soul he saw that she understood what they stood for.

Forever they will be one.

Within her soul he'd forever remain, Sesshomaru's heart raced as his head lowered and their lips joined.

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