I'm not dead. My account has been ignored for a while since I gave up on a lot of fics I started. This is going be one I'm determined to finish.

Disclaimer: I do not own TFA or anything related...wish I did though.

Forbidden Desires

He wasn't sure what it was. But he knew he wanted him. The Decepticon leader had done a good job so far hiding from everyone else what had been bothering him. One too many times he'd find his mind wandering to thoughts of the seeker. He always got a strange feeling in his spark whenever it happened. There was something about Starscream that got to him. Sure, he found Starscream to be a nuisance above all else, but looking past that, there was just something about him…something that made Megatron want him.

Starscream had broken away from the Decepticons to find the allspark fragments for himself and use it to finally destroy Megatron and take his place as leader. Megatron found all of Starscream's previous attempts amusing and was always curious as to what he'd try next. He had to hand it to him….he certainly was creative in his plans.

Starscream had always been second in command, but that just wasn't enough for him. He wanted to be leader….for 4 million stellar cycles Starscream had tried time and time again to get rid of Megatron. If one plan didn't work, he'd try another. You'd think by now he'd run out of ideas. But nope….they just keep coming.

Although, it's been a while since Starscream's last attempt. Megatron thought he would have tried something else by now. Maybe he really did run out of ideas…

No one was in the base at the moment, and Megatron had found he could track Starscream by the energy his allspark fragment gave off. He decided to go find Starscream…a stupid idea maybe, sure, but then again when Megatron makes a decision it's usually final.

Meanwhile, Starscream was deep in thought, trying to formulate a new plan while he stood just inside the entrance of a cave he had made his hiding place. He had tried just about everything he could think of, but Megatron still lives. What was it that made all his plans fail? Was it dumb luck in Megatron's case, or was there always something he missed?

Still in thought, he turned and walked deeper in the cave. He was pulled from his thoughts when he heard something land at the entrance. He turned, aiming his null rays at the intruder and his optics widened to find it was Megatron. Why was he here? No, better question, how did he find him?

Shaking the thoughts out of his head Starscream immediately fired at Megatron. Only to find that none of the shots actually hit and he was now against the wall of the cave, being held by his throat.

"Is that how you welcome all your visitors, Starscream?"

Starscream raised his null rays in another attempt to fire at Megatron only to have them ripped off before even one shot could be fired. Starscream could only growl at Megatron, he wasn't afraid of being taken offline, since he technically already was. The only thing keeping him functional was the allspark fragment.

"Care to try anything else, Starscream? You know I could easily take you offline."

Starscream glared at him,

"You can't kill what's already dead."

Megatron smirked, he had a point. But he knew the only thing he would have to do is remove the allspark fragment and the only thing Starscream would be good for after that is spare parts….probably not even that.

At this point, Megatron was starting to wonder why Starscream isn't putting up more of a fight. Is he giving up? No….he's way to stubborn to go down without a fight. So what was it? Starscream wasn't even making an attempt to escape Megatron's grip around his neck. It was odd, to say the least.

Just looking at Starscream was making that feeling in his spark return. His grip unintentionally tightened and that made Starscream wince. He couldn't take it anymore. He wanted Starscream, and he wanted him now.

Without saying a word Megatron quickly pulled Starscream into a kiss.

Starscream's optics widened and his body instantly stiffened. Was Megatron…kissing him? What was going on, did he have a screw loose? Starscream wasn't sure what to do…he didn't even know what to think. His thoughts started racing and he did the only thing he could think of.

In an act of panic Starscream's hands balled into fists and he punched Megatron about as hard as he could, which surprisingly, was enough to make him release the grip on his neck and cause him to stumble back a few steps.

For a few moments they stared at each other in silence before Starscream started shouting at Megatron.

"What was that all about! You threaten to kill me and then…that!"

Megatron growled, more from the fact that the kiss was cut short than the fact that Starscream had punched him. Starscream was still yelling and it was getting irritating. The felling in his spark was gone now and his previous annoyance of the seeker had resurfaced.

After about five minutes of constant yelling with a curse here and there, Starscream was panting, still fuming. Megatron had been waiting for Starscream to finally stop.

"Finished?"

Starscream growled,

"Far from it…."

There wasn't anything Starscream could do right now since he didn't have his null rays, Megatron simply smirked as he pointed his cannon at Starscream and fired.

The shot wasn't enough to kill him but he wouldn't regain consciousness for quite a while. And with that Megatron went back to the base…taking Starscream with him.

Well, here's the first chapter, probably not very long but I think it's pretty good so far.

I'm open to any suggestions for future chapters if any one has any ideas. So feel free to leave any suggestions you might have.