Gotta go my own way

I was at the Cullen house giving Edward my anniversary gift. It was an automatic photo album. I was heading up the stairs when I heard if I'm not mistaken moaning. It was coming from Edward's room. What the hell?! I opened the door to see Alice half naked and Edward only in boxers on our bed. I tears coming in fast.

"Bella it's not what it looks like." Alice pleaded.

"I know what it looks like. My now ex best friend and my now ex boyfriend were about to get it on in our bed! Alice how could you?!" I yelled.

"Bella please hear us out." Edward reasoned.

"No there is nothing to reason. Happy fucking anniversary. Edward I never want to see you again and Alice you are not my best friend anymore." I said throwing the album on the bed. I slid down the wall by Jasper's room crying.

"Bella what's wrong?" he asked.

"Look in Edward's room." I said. He walked in.

"What the hell is going on in here?!" I heard him yell. I heard Alice's protest and plead. I had enough and climbed the stairs and sat on the porch. I felt arms around me.

"Are you ok Bella?" Jasper asked. He was too sweet for his own good.

"No" I managed to get out before tears came.

"We have to leave. Now." He said taking my hand.

"Where are we going?" I asked.

"We are going to live in Colorado." He said. I giggled.

"Why are you giggling?" he asked laughing as well.

"It's like we are teenagers trying to escape our parents. And I like the mountains. It's so romantic."I said.

"I like the mountains too. It's like you said fun and romantic." He said. That made my heart speed up.

"So how long are we going to be there?" I asked.

"Well as long as we want of course." He said.

"Cool takes me home to get my stuff." I said. He took me home while he went to hunt. He said he would for a while to keep up. I packed my stuff and told Charlie that I was going on a small trip. He agreed and told me to be careful. I sat on the porch and listened to my iPod while waiting on Jasper.

The next song made me feel a little better. It was shake it off by Mariah Carey. It let me know to forget him and to move on with Jasper. Here is how I imagined it im my own words.

Shake it off (Bella's version)

[Chorus]
I gotta shake it off
Cause the loving aint the same
And you keep on playing games
Like you know I'm here to stay
I gotta shake it off
Just like the Calgon commercial life
I really gotta get up outta here
And go somewhere
I gotta shake it off
I already found somebody who

Appreciates all the love I give
Boy I gotta shake it off
Gotta do what's best for me
Baby and that means I gotta
shake it off

By the time you get this message
It's gonna be too late
So don't bother paging me
'Cause I'll be on my way
See, I grabbed all my diamonds and clothes
Just ask your family they know
You're gonna miss me baby
Hate to say I told you so

Well at first I didn't know
But now it's clear to me
You would cheat with your sister
And lie compulsively
So I packed up my Louis Vuitton
Left with your brother and took off
You'll never ever find a girl
Who loves you more than me

[Chorus]
I gotta shake it off
Cause the loving aint the same
And you keep on playing games
Like you know I'm here to stay
I gotta shake it off
Just like the Calgon commercial life
I really gotta get up outta here
And go somewhere
I gotta shake it off
Gotta make that move
I already found somebody who
Appreciates all the love I give
Boy I gotta shake it off
Gotta do what's best for me
Baby and that means I gotta
shake it off

[Bridge]
I gotta shake, shake, shake, shake, shake it
Off... X2

I found out about game
Of your dirty little deeds
With this one and that one
By the pool, on the beach, in the streets
Heard y'all was
Hold up my phone's breaking' up
I'ma hang up and call the machine right back
I gotta get this off of my mind
You wasn't worth my time
So I'm leaving you behind
Cause I need a real love in my life (Jasper I might add)
Save this recording because
I'm never coming back home
Baby I'm gone
Don't cha know

[Chorus]
I gotta shake it off
Cause the loving aint the same
And you keep on playing games
Like you know I'm here to stay
I gotta shake it off
Just like the Calgon commercial life
I really gotta get up outta here
And go somewhere
I gotta shake it off
I already found
Find somebody who
Appreciated all the love I give
Boy I gotta shake it off
Gotta do what's best for me
Baby and that means I gotta
shake it off

[Bridge]

[Chorus]

[Bridge]

Yeah that song and this one too. It's 'Gotta go my own way'. It was in High School Musical. I tell you to move on and forget and you might see them again. Jasper came back the same time that Edward& Alice came. We all started to argue till I said enough. We had something to get off our chests.

Bella& Jasper

We gotta say what's on our minds
Something about us
doesn't seem right these days
life keeps getting in the way
Whenever we try, somehow the plan
is always rearranged
It's so hard to say
But we gotta do what's best for us
You'll be ok..
We've got to move on and be who we are
we just don't belong here
I hope you understand
we might find our place in this
world someday
But at least for now we

gotta go our own away
Don't wanna leave it all behind
But we get my hopes up
and we watch them fall every time
Another color turns to grey
and it's just too hard to watch it all
slowly fade away
We're leaving today 'cause we've
gotta do what's best for us
you'll be ok..
We've got to move on and be who we are
we just don't belong here
I hope you understand
we might find our place in this
world someday
But at least for now
we gotta go our own way

Edward & Alice
what about us?
What about everything we've been through?
Bella & Jasper
What about trust?
Edward
you know we never wanted to hurt you
Bella & Jasper

And what about us?
Edward & Alice
what are we supposed to do?
Bella & Jasper
we gotta leave but we'll miss you
Edward & Alice
we'll miss you
Bella & Jasper
so
we've got to move on and be who we are
Edward & Alice
Why do you have to go?
Bella & Jasper
we just don't belong here
I hope you understand
Edward & Alice
We are trying to understand
Bella & Jasper
We might find our place in this
world someday
but at least for now
Edward & Alice
we want you to stay
Bella & Jasper (Bella taking soprano)

We wanna go my own way
we've got to move on and be who we are
Edward & Alice
what about us?

Bella & Jasper
we just don't belong here
we hope you understand
Edward & Alice
we are trying to understand
Bella & Jasper
We might find our place in this
world someday
but at least for now
we gotta go our own away
we gotta go our own away
we gotta go our own away

I looked out the window of Jasper's car to see their faces. Sad, heartbroken, and wishing to have forgiveness. Well you should have not slept with my now ex best friend. I had tears falling. I didn't even know I was crying.

"Bella what's wrong?" he asked. I thought for a minute. I shouldn't be sitting around crying. I am with Jasper and I need to stop being so sad all the time. He had me and he lost me. Sorry I belong (not own) with Jasper Hale Whitlock. And I am damn happy about it. He must have noticed my sudden happiness.

"Why are you suddenly so happy?" he asked clearly amused.

"I don't know. Just am I'm guessing?" I said smiling. I had a secret crush on him but I never told anyone because I was with Edward. I pulled out my journal (Diary sounds like a 9 year old.) and went to the date I wrote. Also praying he wouldn't read it. It was when they went hunting and I was with Jasper for 2 weeks.

March 18, 2009

"Dear Journal, The family once again went on a hunting trip for 2 weeks. I was left with Jasper this time since he hunted twice this week. We just sat around and did nothing. He told me stuff about the civil war and some stuff about his human life. I am wearing one of his shirts. I don't know why. Anyway it smells so damn good!*blush* It smells like him ok? He smells good. He gave it to me. Anyway *still blushing*

I really like Jasper. He is so sweet. I used to have fantasies about him (used to is the key words) but I had to stop because Edward was in my room those nights. I would daydream about him. His sexy smile, his dazzling topaz eyes, his sexy golden locks, and his defined muscles. Damn it's now hot in here. *fanning self* to make a long story short I am sort of in love with him. I mean I love Edward my world revolts around him, but it's when I hang with Jasper I have this feeling of 'who is Edward' *giggles* Oh crap He is coming write later."

I blushed deeper each second. Luckily he is driving. I was just about to put it back in my bag when a cold hand got my wrist.

"What are you reading?" he asked.

"Nothing" I said quickly.

"Bella what are you reading?" he asked again.

"My journal." I said. We were in the driveway of the house when he took it from me.

"No Jasper! Wait!" I yelled but I was too late. He was reading my darkest secret and now it will be in his memory. God Kill me now. The look on his face showed shock, confusion, love and if I am not mistaken lust?

"This is how you think of me?" he asked softly.

"Yes. It is." I said blushing like a lobster. He turned to me and pressed his cool marble lips to mine. It felt good since my face is hot from blushing. He was a good kisser. His lips move in time with mine. He pulled away for me to breath. He kissed along my jaw line to my pulse spot. I moaned softly. He kissed me one more time and smiled.

"So you like my journal entry correct." I teased.

"Yes I did. Bella I am in love with you too." He said. My heart was beating in my chest with tons of love inside

"Oh Jasper." I whispered and kissed his lips before pulling away.

"I love you too." I said.

"Good now let me get our stuff out." He said. I walked in the house and it was huge. I took it the opportunity to play hide and go seek for a little fun. I hid in the top closet. All I have to do is waiting for Jasper.