So, this is a oneshot I wrote for my collection of Jacob/Bella oneshots Cloudburst, but I decided to turn this into a full story.

I own nothing, everything belongs to the incredible Stephenie Meyer.

If you hate a person, you hate something in him that is part of yourself. What isn't part of ourselves doesn't disturb us.

Hermann Hesse

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„Jacob Black! Let go of me!"

My voice was high-pitched and sharp, a reflection of pure anger and hate pulsing through my veins, making my blood boil and my limbs tremble.

"Jacob!"

I had no chance at all, ensnared as I was, hold tight by Jacobs massive arms, pressed against the insanely hot side of his stomach. In a pathetic attempt to free myself I tried to push Jacob away from me, struggling in his grip as he pulled me through the staring crowd of people. All their eyes seemed to pierce into my every pore and the unfamiliar anger inside me reached new heights. This was certainly not the way I had wanted my night to end. This so far amazing night.

"Jacob!"

Pretending to not have heard me, he dragged me toward the back door of the old warehouse, speeding up with every step he took. This caused me to trip over my feet several times, still there was no way to fall down since I was pressed so tightly against his huge body.

Aggression now reached my fingers and I pierced my nails deep into Jacobs forearm with all the force I could gather, knowing it would not bother him at all.

Instead he continued to ignore me and when we reached the doors, he kicked it open with his bare foot, stepping outside into a dark side street.

Cold wind blew against my sweat-covered face when he dragged me through the doorframe and kicked it closed behind him again. I felt my hair stick against my forehead and cheeks, my body still trembling violently.

"Jacob Black! Let – go – of – me!"

Pronouncing every word with a punch in Jacobs stomach, he finally loosened his hold on me.

"Stop that Bella, before you hurt yourself," he said with a steady voice, but I could very clearly define the slight tremble in it, the way his fingers were shaking almost unrecognisable. This was dangerous. I knew that. Still that was no valid reason for me to stop. Never before had I felt so angry.

"What the hell were you thinking? Why are you doing this?"

I was still yelling at him, seeing no reason to lower my voice. He deserved this.

"Same question," he answered with more anger in his own voice now, staring down at me, his hands still wrapped around my wrists. The darkness made it almost impossible for me to see properly, but one thing I did realize was the deep black in his eyes, the piercing anger in them. A mirror of my own, I supposed.

"I was having fun. So who do you think you are to just appear out of nowhere and play daddy?"

"I think your definition of fun has slightly changed over the past hours. That was not ´fun´, Bella."

"Yes it was. So let go of me. I want to go back."

Even before my feet had the chance to move an inch Jacob pushed me against the brick wall behind me, holding my wrists next to my heaving chest.

"STOP!"

"You are not going back there. I'll take you home. So stop fighting."

For a few seconds I hesitated, considering my chances and the danger erupting from Jacob. A danger I had never really consciously thought about before.

He was always my sun and my friend, never a threat to my eyes. But he was. No matter what, his self-control was just as fragile as my bones compared to his.

Then again, my own safety was unimportant to me. He would not hurt me.

"You are neither my brother nor my father Jacob. So stop acting as though you were."

"That´s not what I'm doing."

"Then what is that?"

"I'm just trying to save you."

"From what? Having fun? I thought you wanted me to be happy again."

I could clearly feel Jacobs hand trembling over my skin when he took a deep breath, still towering over me, holding me close against the cold wall.

"Bella, not like this!"

"What?"

"You weren´t having fun in there. You were getting yourself into something you would have regretted later. This is not YOU Bella. So don´t pretend anything. I know you better."

"You think way too much of yourself, Jacob. Don´t you think I deserve to let go and have fun, no matter how? Or do you want me to stay broken so you can continue to fix me and play the tragic hero?"

The sarcasm in my voice was killing and I felt Jacobs grip tighten, burning my skin.

"Don´t say that Bella," he said with pain in his voice, pain I could not care about at the moment.

"You just try to bind me to you. You try to be so mature and caring and everything. Well, do you know that you don´t understand anything? How could you.."

Silence.

The only thing I heard was the rapid beating of my heart, my and Jacobs heavy breathing and the muted echoes of music from the old building next to us.

"I guess I can not blame you for that. Since your drunk. And that's why I'll take you home now. Charlie will be very pleased indeed. And maybe you think about what you just said tomorrow. You won't ever have to see me again if that's what you wish."

I had expected pain or at least a hint of it in his voice, but there was nothing. Instead it was calm and even, the trembling slightly fading. And it made me even angrier.

"That would be fine with me. But you will not take me home. You're not responsible for me. No need to pretend then anymore. I hate you. Let go of me. Or I'll call for help"

"You don´t think anybody would hear you, do you?"

He was right, though I would never admitted that. I looked up into his face, only vaguely recognizable in the dark and my heartbeat was suddenly increasing speed.

For a heartbeat nothing happened. My breathing stopped and so did my heart, time was over, everything that WAS were Jacobs eyes, only a mere hand away from me, piercing into my own eyes, full of pain and anger.

He was a good liar in the dark. His eyes betrayed him, though.

Then, before I even realized my own decision, I crushed my lips on his. Fire crawled through my veins, making me boil, stars appearing behind my closed eyelids and the heat of Jacobs soft lips burned my lips, dry from the awful air in the old ware house.

The only thing I could possibly image to be similar to what I felt at that moment was to be struck by lightning. Never before had such electricity been running through me, switching off my brain and making my body feel like a weapon to me, something which belonged to someone else or was out of my control.

A second passed, a second in which Jacob was stiff and taken aback by my action.

But then the electricity in me took control over him as well and I moaned when he started to kiss me back with more passion than I had ever thought possible. His lips moved feverishly against my own, the friction even increasing the intense heat between us.

Jacobs fingers, still wrapped around my wrists, grabbed brutally tight when I traced his bottom lip with my tongue, begging him for entrance. He did not just grant it, he answered with such force that my load moan got lost in his mouth, mixing with his hot breath. The scent of wood and damp forests filled my mouth when his own tongue plunged into me, making my knees feel like jelly.

All of a sudden, my hands were free and I felt their former chains, burning hot, on my waist, pushing me closer against the wall.

The bricks hurt my back but I didn't care, didn't even really feel the pain at all. All I felt and saw and heard was Jacob, Jacobs tongue dancing with mine, our breathing heavy and loud, his soft lips roughly brushing over my own, his hands grabbing my waist.

Desperately trying to hold on to something I put my arms around Jacobs neck, pulling him closer to me. He took that as a hint and I suddenly felt the ground leaving underneath my feet and before I understood what had happened I was pinned against the wall by Jacobs body, the heat overwhelming me.

I ripped my lips away from Jacobs and moaned louder than before, wrapping my legs around his waist. The moment I felt his own need for me through his jeans against my core Jacobs hands grabbed my wrists once again, pinning my arms above my head and lowering his head to my neck.

My eyes rolled back into my head when his tongue drew small circles on my pulse point, my whole body trembling with desire and need.

This was going way too slow so I decided to take the lead. I tightened my legs around Jacobs waist and grounded my hips against his erection. Both of us moaned at the sensation and Jacob released my hands again while his lips found mine.

As our tongues continued their dance I stroked my hands over Jacobs bare chest, feeling every muscle twitch underneath my touch. Jacob mirrored my actions and a low scream escaped my mouth, muffled by Jacobs mouth, when his hands cupped my breasts, gently massaging them. A shiver ran down my spine, apart from all the killing heat surrounding us.

With all the force I had I parted our lips, tracing Jacobs lips with my tongue before kissing his jaw, grinding my hips against his once again. The incredible pleasure running through my body took control over me and my hands moved lower, tracing the outline of Jacobs jeans.

While I placed kisses all over Jacobs shoulder I quickly opened his belt, moaning loudly when Jacobs hand moved underneath my shirt, cupping my breasts again.

I closed my eyes, concentrating on the overwhelming amount of sensations running through my body when I felt Jacobs hot breath against my neck and his hands slowly retreated from my breasts, causing me to whimper about the loss of contact.

He chuckled slightly and I felt it through his chest. About to say something for the first time, the words were stuck in my throat when Jacobs hands moved underneath my skirt and up my thighs, setting my skin on fire.

I threw my head into my neck and my nails pierced into the muscles of Jacobs abdomen, before I pulled his jeans and boxers down, helping myself with my feet.

Jacobs groaned and pushed himself further against the wall, trapping me in his heat. He caught the waistband of my panties and ripped it apart, letting it fall to the ground. I put my arms around his neck again, catching his lips in another breathtaking kiss, his tongue invading my mouth with even more passion than before. My legs wrapped tighter around his waist and when his tip touched my entrance, we both groaned into each others mouths.

There was no way back now and stopping was the last thing on my mind.

Jacob grabbed my hips in his huge hands and entered me in one thrust, pushing me up the wall and breaking my barrier.

My lips left his immediately and I screamed, piercing my fingernails into his skin once again and my legs hurt because of the force with which I pressed them against Jacob. The agonizing pain mixed with otherworldly pleasure was too much for me. And I wanted more.

I moved my hips forward, taking Jacob even deeper, both of us groaning loudly as he caught my lips again, gently biting my bottom lips while he withdrew himself only to thrust back in with even more force than before.

My shirt had moved up a little and the bare skin of my back shoved against the bricks, causing me to scream again while I met Jacobs hard and swift thrusts.

His mouth was on my neck and, sucking the sensitive skin and drawing lines with his teeth, his force never faded.

My own hands moved into his black, smooth hair and when his next thrust pushed me up the wall even farther I pulled at it, pushing my hips forward, taking him in even deeper.

I lowered my head into the crook of Jacobs neck, pulling him closer to me while we met each other thrust by thrust.

My legs felt numb, the muscles burning, sweat ran down my forehead and the stinging pain in my back got worse, still I didn't want him to stop.

We both groaned each time we met and I scratched my nails over Jacobs broad back while his left hand moved from my hip under my shirt where he cupped my breast again.

Suddenly I felt my stomach twist and it felt as if something grew inside it, hot and breathtaking, making me grind my hips harder against Jacobs, both of us screaming in pleasure.

When Jacobs hand moved underneath my bra und stroked his fingers over my bare nipple, the knot in my stomach loosened and fire ran through my veins, burning my blood, making my heart beat twice the pace it had before. I felt myself tighten around Jacob and before my surely deafening scream would betray us, I sank my teeth into Jacobs shoulder, muffling it, my fingers desperately trying to hold on to him while my legs caged him deep inside me.

My whole body shivered and the sweat on my skin burned me like lava, adrenaline shooting through me and I felt strong and weak at the same time.

Jacobs reaction to my own height was just as intense. His whole body trembled, though this time it was not the wolf trying to break free but something else, something even stronger than the animal inside him.

His thrusts did not stop, instead they became even harder and faster as he tried to live every second of our intoxication.

The wolf inside him did not hide entirely though, Jacobs groans resembled an animal more than a human and when I felt my muscles relax and Jacob slowing down, I took my teeth away from his hot, salty flesh, lying my cheek against his shoulder instead.

Two more slow strokes was all it took for Jacob to be spent and he stood still, holding me against his brutally heaving chest. Our rapid heartbeats melted into one as they were so close to each other.

This was heaven and hell. We were two different pieces of the same thing, so very different and still so equal at this very moment.

It was violent tenderness and I never felt more alive.

No mistake. Just something that happened. Happened and remained.

So, please review and tell me what you think.

I will try to continue this as soon as possible and reviews are always a great motivation ;-)