Twisted Love Chapter 18

"No! He can't know! Everything is ruined! I can't become a vampire now!" I screamed and started to burst out crying. Jacob woke up and ran over to my bed.

"Bella! Bella what's wrong? What else can possibly be wrong?"

I looked at him and kept crying. I just couldn't stop. "I-I-I can't live forever… my dad knows about my cancer. If I become a vampire, I'll heal and he'll become suspicious."

Alice reached down and hugged me. She was whispering in my ear but it was the same thing over and over. "I'm so sorry Bella, I'm so sorry." What else could she really say?

Just then, Jasper walked through the door and walked over to my bed. "Oh geez, what's wrong now?"

Alice hit him in the shoulder. "Have some sympathy Jasper!"

He smiled and kissed Alice on the forehead. "Sorry babe."

I kept crying. Nothing and no one could ever make me stop. I could feel the calm vibes that Jasper was sending me, but they weren't working. The tears kept coming and coming. Edward suddenly walked through the door with Rosalie, and Charlie was right behind them. Everyone turned and looked at Charlie. I even stopped crying, which was a shock. He stared right back at me and I could tell that he had been crying. His eyes were all red and puffy. I tried to force a smile… but I couldn't. Nothing could make me happy anymore, well not right now anyway. He looked at everyone in the room and then back at me. "Uhhh, can I have some time with Bella?"

"Of course Charlie." Alice said as she grabbed Jasper's hand and started walking out the door. "Come on guys." Everyone followed Alice. Edward looked back at me before he walked out the door. I could tell that he was worried… they all were. Charlie walked over to my bed and sat in the chair. He put his hand on mine and sighed. Tears started to flow down his eyes again. I just stared at him.

"How long?" He managed to say.

"What do you mean how long?" I replied.

He looked at me with his eyes filled with tears. "How long have you known about this?"

I sighed. "Three days dad."

He looked back down. I think it was to cover the tears coming down his face. He didn't like when I saw him upset. "Why didn't you tell me Bella? I am your father."

My eyes started to tear up. "I was afraid to tell you dad. I wanted to tell you… but I wanted to figure some things out first. I just wanted to get everything straight before I told you. I was going to I promise."

"How could this have happened Bella? You were always so healthy. I don't know what happened." He looked up. "You're not on drugs are you?"

"Dad! Of course not! Why would you think that?"

"I could believe anything right now. I wouldn't be surprised if you were married by now."

"Dad! I'm only 18. I'm not getting married anytime soon."

He sighed. "I know Bella. I'm sorry. I am just so upset. You're the only one I have left… and I'm going to lose you soon. I just can't imagine living without you. I wish there was some way…"

I looked at him. I wanted to tell him my plan… but that would put him in danger. "There is one way dad… but everything would change about me."

He looked up at me confused. "What do you mean Bella?"

"There's one way to save myself. Only one… but everything would change about me. I couldn't see you for months, and I would look so different. We could only talk on the phone for a while, but we'd see each other eventually. Is that what you would want?"

He looked at me confused. "Bella… I don't understand. But either way, I'll never see you. And I just can't stand that."