Because You're Here

I've been in the darkness since I was eight years old. Those memories have pained me to the point that I became cold and distant. Ruka, my best friend, never abandoned me even as I pushed him away. It wasn't the life that I wanted to take but I never had a choice. My alice, I never liked it one bit. To me, it was a curse, one that I could want or appreciate. It was the reason for those missions. He used our classmates against me. I'm glad Ruka was there or else maybe I would have completely lost myself to the darkness. I'm glad he was there.

Then you came along, all happy and care-free. I hated it or more like I was jealous of it. I always wondered, how could you keep smiling while you knew that you were treated differently. A No Star, that's what they called you and in short you nothing compared to us. But maybe that's what made you different. I can't believe that it was because of you that I wanted to change. You saved back when I was kidnapped by Reo and that day you told me, "Let's go back to the academy together, Natsume." With those words, I felt that I was wanted. Shunned because of my alice, you couldn't believe how happy I felt because you wanted me to come back even after what I put you through. In that moment, you began to mean more to me.

Everyday you stayed the same and everyday I felt more drawn to you. I needed you like a lifeline. I loved you from that day. Of course I knew that Ruka already fell in love with you and he was the one I acknowledged as my rival, my rival for your heart. I'm rude and mean to you on purpose because I have to be on guard. Anyone can fall in love with you easily. You may not notice it, because you're so naïve and innocent, but we've been competing for you. "I'm not gonna lose." He said. "I don't plan on loosing either." I replied. To get us to fight is an amazing ability. I guess, no, I know that you're special.

I'll admit that I'm possessive, arrogant and I'm a complete jerk and I don't deserve you. Remember that one time when I pretended to be stuck to you? It was nice to hold your hand. I told you that night, "Let me hold you just for tonight." I felt it for the first time, contentment. Yes, just holding you I'm content. That moment I wished that that moment would never end. I want to hold you forever. Of course the night had to end and our charade of being stuck ended.

Persona tried to get rid of you. That's proof that you've changed me.

So many years have past since you came into my life. Guess what? I'm still obsessed with you and your underwear. Yup, not much has changed. I'm still handsome, smart, brilliant and hot and you're…beautiful, kind, naïve but wise, at times. And I'm still in love with you.

Now, standing beside you in front of the altar, I still can't believe you chose me over Ruka. I say "I do." You say "I do." And then we kiss. God your lips taste so sweet. They're so addicting!!! You're so addicting!!!! "I love you Mikan Sakura." I tell you. "And I'm prepared to say it over and over again." You giggle at my words. I honestly can't believe that I'm saying them myself but then again you changed me.

The academy changed because you were there.

Everyone changed because you were there.

I changed because you were there.

And I'm sure that my future will change because you're here.