I walk in my past,
in and out of my mind everyday
People don't know what I'm thinking,
even my best friends.

I feel sad. I feel confused.
I feel that I am falling
in my own mirage.
And then there's him--
the boy who I am mystified of,
the boy who I can't speak my feelings to--
in which too many girls have already
told him the same thing

I feel my heart skipping a beat
as he walks on by.
I never knew that he could be
so close that I could touch him,
hear him breathe,
and listen to his heartbeat...
He's so close that I don't even know what to say,
don't even know what to think, don't even know
what to do.

I could feel the wall separating us.
I can never tell if he's thinking about me.
All I know is that he is my past.
My first love.
My first heartbreak.