Chapter 4

What is it called when something happens in realty, but your mind is ready to block it out as though there's another topic it could be focused on? It can't be called denial in this case, because it was all right in front of her. If Kagome left this bathroom she was currently hiding in at this Cafe then she would have to sit down with the lawyer who would continue the conversation, if she called Sesshoumaru who was running late he would confirm what she'd been told, and what was up with Inuyasha? He usually always had his phone on him, but for the last few days he hadn't been answering at all.

After finding the note on the counter Kagome managed to push all the bad thoughts out of her head thinking that maybe her husband was trying to surprise her. Maybe he was planning on returning to his work schedule and showing her that he was willing to make time by taking her out the very next day. Instead she walked in, met with a lawyer of his that wasn't even his primary retainer, because this one was very expensive even for Sesshoumaru's taste. It was this idiot with his nice hair cut and shiny shoes that told her they were going to work on filing divorce today.

She didn't do anything wrong....did she?

She wanted to figure out why Sesshoumaru would do this to her, but her mind couldn't move. It was frozen in the moment wanting her to remove this weight from it so she could think of more nice things like getting Rin a study buddy and decorating the living room. She was on the brink of being alone again, and what about the children? Would she lose them?

There was a knock on the door.

"I'm in here," Kagome said in a low voice.

"Kagome," she could hear Sesshoumaru's soft voice.

"Leave me alone," she whispered as though if acknowledging his presence would make this all come true faster.

"Kagome please come out."

"Tell me this is a joke. If it's not a joke then leave me alone!"

"Kagome it's not a joke. Come out so we can discuss this."

"Go away Sesshoumaru!"

He let out a sigh before turning the small handle in such a forceful way that he could hear the lock snap. He quickly went in, got on his knees and embraced Kagome.

"Please just get away," Kagome cried into his shoulder her whole body and mind feeling numb.

"I'm not going away that easy," he spoke softly, his hands going through her hair.

"Of course you're not. That's why you got a lawyer, so you can tell me that I'm not good enough. Did you find another crazy woman on this street who wants what was forced on me?"

That angered him a lot. She honestly thought he would make the same mistake he made before? Didn't he prove to her that he was changed, that he would never put anything as petty as quick sex before her and their children again? What really broke the straw on the camel's back was how she said this was all forced upon her. Was that all they thought about their situation now? It was nothing more than a burden to her?

"Kagome," he tried to hide the anger in his voice, "I'm not an idiot. I would never make a mistake like this again. I love you, do you believe me?"

She didn't give a response.

"Kagome!" he growled.

"I believe you," she said slowly not wanting to believe the nightmares that had come out of her mouth and were processing through her mind.

Using his real hand he grabbed cupped her chin, "Look at me Kagome."

She refused at first, but eventually she had no choice as he bushed her bangs out of her eyes. Finally her mind registered that he seemed to be filled with as much remorse and confusion as she was.

"Kagome," he spoke softly, "my marriage to you is the only thing that has ever brought my life meaning, and I would never wish to break it if it was only my interests I was looking out for, but that's not the case. I'm doing it to protect you and the children Kagome. As long as you share my last name you are in danger right now."

"Sesshoumaru," she didn't understand, how we're they in danger.

"Kagome," he attempted to lift her up, "come on. Let's go sit down and discuss this. No love of mine is going to be discovered crumpled up on the floor like this."

"Why can't we just discuss this," she whispered holding on to him, "why in public, why with him? It's as though something bad is suppose to happen. You don't want me to make a scene."

"I've already told you Kagome," he nuzzled her cheek pulling her in close, "the home I've provided for you and my family I want to be a place of refuge, and I would never compromise that. For that I apologize that I've got to bring you out into this bleak world I told myself you were unfit for, and as for him we have to get this done as soon as possible. We should have sorted this out a month ago, but I couldn't stand the thought of doing it to you."

All she could give him was a faint nod as they departed the restroom. He quickly apologized to the cafe owner and promised he would pay to have the door fixed and then sat down ordering them a round of coffees. The whole time Kagome was lifeless being dragged around like rag doll.

"Are we ready to begin?" his lawyer asked.

Sesshoumaru nodded holding Kagome's hands, "I'll try my best to explain it to you. It's all very complicated."

"I don't care how hard or how simple it is," she spoke ignoring her coffee, "just tell me why. Why would you do this to me?"

He frowned holding her hand, "I and the company are in major trouble. I'm on the verge of losing everything."

She didn't even give a moment for that information to sink in, "Sesshoumaru I don't care! For better or for force. Even if our marriage wasn't founded on anything but Rin's happiness that's what we agreed upon. Look at what I came from before you found me? I don't care about your money and are kids aren't really that spoiled they can handle it."

"No Kagome," he said quietly though very proud that his lifestyle hadn't affected his purity....but it didn't matter. She was almost out of his grasp.

"I am doing whatever I can to protect your husband," the lawyer told Kagome, "but it's not looking good. There is a civil suite against him."

It was being explained to Kagome why Sesshoumaru was in trouble, and she was sure whatever he did was wrong. That was corporate world after all, but her love for him made her not care. She had always stayed as separated from that world as she could to not tarnish the perfect image of him that took her a while to create.

"The problem is Kagome," Sesshoumaru was acting as the filter between his laywer's words and her knowing it wasn't registering, "it was stupid, but every single bank account I have I attached your name too, because normally when someone like me dies they freeze all accounts and spend months analyzing it as though there is something hidden in my will. This way you and the kids would be taken care of."

"And? I don't care if I have money or not. I told you."

"Well it looks as though I'm going to get sued for every penny I have and more...meaning I'm most likely going to jail Kagome, and with all those accounts being yours as well you'd acquire a huge debt throwing you in prison as well. It's bad enough to think of you under such circumstances, but I won't have my children separated from their mother at that young of an age. If we file for divorce today and claim to the judge that you don't want to fight me for anything....including the children it will be fast and your name won't be brought up in court."

"I can't have my child-"

Sesshoumaru stopped her, "I would never do that to you. Even though divorced it's not as though you're getting kicked out of the house or anything. It's just to make this faster and they'll be handed right over to you once I'm jailed."

He quickly wiped away a tear that was going down her cheek forbidding anyone at the table to she drank some water that was brought to her. His eyes watched her intently hoping she understood. He loved her, but he had no choice. This was what was best for them.

"Okay," Kagome then said finally cracking a smile, "you're going to jail. I don't want to you to...but let's face it you probably did something to deserve it."

Sesshoumaru glared, "That's nice of you...."

"Please," the lawyer commented said, "I'm trying to defend your husband."

"And from what I know from TV rich socialites like you don't stay in for long," she noted thinking to herself, "everyone knows your company and who you are. Do a few TV interviews for a price do some time and you'll be out before missing another birthday, and maybe I can get a hold of you easier in jail than I could when you are in and out of meetings?"

Kagome really thought everything she seen on TV was real did she? He could just go on a few shows and be out of jail like that? Interviews were out of the question, he wasn't going to allow himself to be humiliated and exposed for millions to see. He would like to come out of this mess with a clean slate able to operate a business to give his family the wealth they deserved. Even if he would have to take a loan from Inuyasha, who he trusted a few million with before cutting him off from his father's trust fund and everything else to do with the company in order to keep things from getting complicated.

"Yes cause prison is such a wonderful place where I can be on the phone all," he said annoyed with it all, but decided to leave it at that so he could see one last smile upon Kagome's list. He wasn't done with the news....

"I mean when we get married we hated each other," Kagome smiled at him, "it's nothing but a piece of paper that combines two people's assets...who cares if we're divorced. As long as we love each other...I was thinking I had done something wrong and you were done with me."

"What could you ever do wrong?" Sesshoumaru spoke quietly in her ear playing with her hair a bit, getting in any form of touch he could before it was too late.

"I don't know. I thought I was calling you too much and getting on your last nerve."

"If it wasn't for me trying to hide this information from you I would have never ignored a call from you Kagome," he said holding her hand, "now Kagome....please tell me you trust me. Just one more time."

"Well I would never trust you with my paychecks or anything like that," Kagome joked annoying him again, "but I trust you with my life. I love you Sesshoumaru."

He pulled her close, "Good Kagome...cause there's something you should know. You have to marry someone else when I'm gone."

"What?" she yanked her hand away, "what do you mean? You said it was no big deal?"

Sesshoumaru sighed moving away from her before taking out a contract, "This? Do you recognize it?"

"No," she said even though it clearly had her signature on it right next to his.

"I got you to sign it before we were married with a lot of other paper work. Kagome before we decided to marry I was ready to lock you up for the rest of your life as well as the doctors and everyone else who actually allowed a 16-year-old to adopt my daughter and produce a fake birth certificate. Well I tried to call the investigation off, but by that point they were too far in and were ready to make a big of mess of everything, so instead of getting you out of my way I bribed a lot of people and signed this contract saying I would pay them all a few million every year as long as they kept it quiet. It's almost time to pay the bill, and if it's not payed they are going to put you away for the rest of your life and expose me for bribe keeping me locked up as well."

"Sesshoumaru," she said trying to process it.

"Sorry Kagome," he said coldly, "but my children are not going without their mother. Today we are getting divorced, and soon you will be married to someone who can afford to keep those sharks paid.

"Sesshoumaru you can't be serious."

"I am. The basketball player, Bankotsu, he is the one who offered to take you in."

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