Loss

When she died, I didn't know what to do. I didn't know what I should do.

It was like all the knowledge of the world left me. I gathered everything in my power not to run aroundn while screaming and bashing windows though I sincerely wished to do so. Magic training didn't cover such things. For the first time in my life, I was at a loss.

I used to use magic for everything in school and out. It was easy to command such a rare power to do my bidding. I could technically skip out on chores if I could make it happen magically. Yes, it's very lazy and she used to get mad at me for it, but that was how it was supposed to be. Using magic even for the littlest things was practice for sharpening my skills.

All the magic and knowledge was useless. It was futile. The greatest magic was still birth and death. It's still the most mysterious and enigmatic mystery.

I couldn't think of anything that could possibly help me revive her. It was unconceivable, impossible and tabboo. But what can I do? I was ready to risk anything and I was ready to die. If she was not alive... I cannot live without her.

You might say I'm just a kid. I'm ten-years-old and I'm just a child. I can't do anything but accept what happened and move on. How can I? I'm ten and I've already lost the love of my life. How can you tell me to quit feeling and just go through the motions as though nothing's happened?

Kagurazuka Asuna... I can't believe I lost you. I want you to come back because I...

I really love you. I don't want to suffer your loss without telling you that much at least. So I want to do everything in my power to revive you and bring you back to life. Because I don't want to lose you and I'll never want to. You mean a lot and that's what's in thius ten-year-old boy's heart.

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A/N: This is the first story I made on my laptop... I guess I'm just starting a good relationship with Negima! and the new laptop with the same name. I hope you liked this.