LOST

By: Polaris N'reath

Disclaimer:I do not own, nor have I ever owned InuYasha or any of its characters. Rumiko Takahashi owns it. No money is being made from this work. No copyright infringement is intended. However, all original characters and plot lines are mine.

SUMMARY: When Sesshoumaru was a child he was abandoned and sold to a brothel, where he learned the art of being used. One night a man demands more than a willing body, he wants a heart. Will Sesshoumaru be able to give something that's already lost. AU, rape

PROLOGUE: As beginnings as aways bwgin...

December 21, A Day better left forgotten…

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"Sesshoumaru? Sesshoumaru where are you?"

"I'm over here daddy!" The silver haired boy replied cheerfully, if he was older he would have seen the flash of regret on his father's face.

"Sesshoumaru…" Inu Taisho started, "I-"

"I love you too, daddy!" Sesshoumaru smiled, "I know that daddy can't say the l word, isn't Sesshoumaru smart? Aren't I, daddy?"

"You are, and I am proud of it."

It was going to be hard, no doubt about that, but he never realized just how much it was going to hurt. Inu Taisho looked forlornly at his only child. He watched as the little boy was playing with his toys, Inu Taisho sighed.

"Sesshoumaru, I have a surprise for you."

"REALLY?" He couldn't help but smile at the way the boy's eyes grew impossibly large at the mere mention of a 'surprise'. Even if the supposed 'surprise' was something horrible and disgusting…

"Yes, and if you get ready quickly and get into the car before I count to ten, maybe I'll even throw in some food too." Inu Taisho smiled softly.

"Can I have some candy?"

"One!"

"No fair!" Inu Taisho watched as his son raced up the stairs. He smile dropped, Sesshoumaru was much too naïve. Inu Taisho hoped that his son would forgive him, even though there wasn't any hope of that happening.

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"Sesshoumaru I want you to go with these men for awhile okay?" Inu Taisho looked down at Sesshoumaru, who was glancing back and forth between the creepy men and him. His amber eyes seemed to be screaming 'WHY!'

"Sesshoumaru… I want you to do whatever they say…"

"But dadd-"

"Sesshoumaru. Listen to me. I want you do everything they ask of you. Do you understand?" Inu Taisho said firmly.

Sesshoumaru nodded, tears sprouting from the corners of his eyelids, "I understand."

"Good." The silver haired elder turned his back at the boy.

"You may do whatever you may please with the boy; his is no longer of my concern."

With that Inu Taisho walked away from his eldest son.

"Daddy! Wait-"Sesshoumaru cried after the fading image of his father, he didn't want to be left with these bad people.

"Shut up! You brat!" One of the men yelled, Sesshoumaru couldn't help but flinch at the aggressiveness of the yell.

"Y-you l-leave me a-alone! O-or my d-daddy's gonna get y-you!" Sesshoumaru childishly yelled back, not liking the creepy smirk on the guys face.

"Your daddy doesn't want you." The man smiled evilly.

"Y-your lying!" Sesshoumaru heart thudded in his chest like a drum, he could feel something bad was going to happen. He knew it.

"Your daddy sold you to me, so shut up and strip!"

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It was the first time little Sesshoumaru had ever felt pain.

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"What are you doing?" he hissed in pain. His breathing became rapid and he tried to struggle free.

One of the men grabbed a fistful of Sesshoumaru's hair and slammed his head hard against the wall, making Sesshoumaru cry out in pain. Tears threaten to fall from his amber eyes.

"I wouldn't try resisting if I were you." One laughed.

"Look at him boys; I already know how much fun we're going to have!"

"Let me go!" Sesshoumaru struggled to free himself, but it was useless against a much larger and physically stronger foe.

The man holding his hair pulled harder, "What the hell did I just say boy?"

The guy laughed along with his two cronies who Sesshoumaru thought looked like they haven't showered in years. "Or I'll just have to make you shut up my self." He said his other hand caressing Sesshoumaru's cheek.

Sesshoumaru felt panic when the three men surrounded him.

"Why, are you afraid?" The one his right rasped, his eyes were screaming differently. "We aren't going to hurt you…much."

"Leave me alone." Sesshoumaru whimpered, the pain from the wall banging was starting burn. The larger man smirked, his hand going lower, caressing Sesshoumaru's chest.

"Or what? Are you going to hurt me with your little claws?"

"Please…Please I want my daddy…"

The man laughed again, much sinister this time, "Hey boys, we have ourselves a little beggar here." He leaned closer to the sliver haired boy, so that his mouth was touching the boy's earlobes.

"Listen here boy; your precious daddy left you here. He did that because he didn't want you any more. But I want you."

"But I just want my daddy..."

"I'll prove it to you." The man smirked.

"Do you know where we are? This is a brothel, a place where people pay for sex. I paid daddy three hundred dollars for your ass…"

Before Sesshoumaru could scream out for help, one of the men stuffed a balled piece of cloth in Sesshoumaru's mouth. Sesshoumaru tried to struggle but the man slammed his head hard against the cement wall again.

"Take off his clothes." The guy ordered them as he held Sesshoumaru in place. He had grabbed Sesshoumaru's arms from behind and was pressed up against the boy's small backside. His rough voice sounded hungry and in need.

The three men literally ripped his clothes off, they had started with the shirt and then they pulled off his pants. During the whole thing, Sesshoumaru kept his eyes shut. He wanted to scream and kill these people, but the strong hands kept him in place and the ripped fabric in his mouth kept him from screaming.

The on holding leaned over and whispered into Sesshoumaru's ear, "I can't wait to eat you all up."

"I've always wanted to ever since I first laid my eyes on you boy."

He pushed Sesshoumaru harder against the wall. Sesshoumaru's left side of the face was scraping hard against the rough cement wall.

"Hold his arms and spread his legs." He commanded his cronies when he let go of Sesshoumaru.

Sesshoumaru felt tears streaming down his face. The man pulled down his pants revealing his already throbbing cock. Sesshoumaru shuddered as he felt the man's fingers run down the side of his hip and up the left cleft of his ass.

"Spread them wider!" he hissed. Sesshoumaru was now exposed, all three could see everything.

"So tasty…" he whispered to himself as his eyes roamed Sesshoumaru's body, stopping only to gaze at the boy's behind. The men holding Sesshoumaru smirked while examining Sesshoumaru's body themselves, their own member hardening in their pants. They couldn't wait until it was their turn.

"Saku, you're going to let us a turn to aren't you?" The one holding his arms asked, Sesshoumaru's seven year old mind couldn't understand what the man meant by have a turn. He didn't even know why he was naked or pinned to the wall, all he wanted now was to be with his daddy.

"Of course, I will. What kind of friend would I be, if I didn't share the goods?" Sesshoumaru couldn't see it but he knew that the pervert man was smiling, and it wasn't a nice smile at all.

The man called, Saku walked up and pressed himself against Sesshoumaru's behind, causing the seven year old to squirm. Sesshoumaru didn't like the feel of the man's privates rubbing against him.

Saku rubbed the head of his penis between Sesshoumaru's bottom, gliding across the boy's anus and his scrotum. Oh, how he loved playing around with his victims. He smirked and reached around Sesshoumaru grabbing his limp member. He squeezed it with his calloused hands, tugging, pulling, and letting it harden slowly.

"Here's a good boy." He hissed in Sesshoumaru's ear, licking it in the process. "Get hard for me."

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It was also the day when little Sesshoumaru lost innocence. It was the day when the happy, cheerful Sesshoumaru became no more. Nothing but an empty shell…

AN: I going to leave it off there for now.