No. You are not dreaming. I really did update! However, it's just a little outtake I did. The first time Bella met Edward for the actual first time and the time they met on the street. So it will be in her POV obviously. I can't express enough how much I regret not updating. I haven't forgotten about this story! I really do think about it all the time. Well I hope this tides you over until the Next chapter. Thank you understanding. Oh, and thank you to lilmissfireball for the encouraging mails! Enjoy!

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It was the first day of the ninth grade. I was nervous as hell. Although I knew almost everyone in Forks, I didn't really communicate with very many people since my mom was diagnosed with breast cancer.

I was dreading this day, not because I was worried about my classes or where I would sit at lunch, or if my clothes were in style. But, because I knew everyone would rush up to me telling me how sorry they were that she passed.

She died in her sleep a month and a half ago.

Calm down Bella, don't think about that right now.

But, ever since... then, my dad and I haven't really talked and the house is rather tense most of the time. He works all the time and drinks more than usual. And frankly, he scares me when he drinks.

Alice Brandon ran up to me in the school parking lot and enveloped me in a large hug. "I'm so sorry Bella." I really did appreciate her sympathy, but that was the last thing I wanted to think about today.

The rest of the day was filled with moments just like that. Some people I didn't even know almost broke into tears right in front of me. This is what made me decide that I did not want to go to lunch today. Instead, I wandered the empty halls by myself.

I stared at my feet, which I knew I shouldn't do because of my clumsiness. I should listen to myself more often because I bumped chests hard with someone in front of me.

Oh shit please don't be one of those tall blonde bitches that will make my worst day ever, worse.

Instead though, I looked up, only to see a handsome boy I vaguely knew. His name? It was Edward. Edward... Well I couldn't remember his last name.

"Oh my gosh I am so sorry! I was looking where I was going. I was just being stupid and reading while walking, are you alright?" Edward scrambled to help me to my feet.

Hey had green eyes. Bronze hair. And blue braces.

I was in love.

Months later and I was still obsessively in love with Edward Cullen. Alice, who happened to be one of his best friends, had told me his last name. She was the only one who knew about my obsession with Edward.

Who I was currently staring at from across the lunch room. He smiled and laughed at something Jasper Hale, who Alice has been going out with since forever.

My heart was pounding in my chest. Edward had gotten his braces off today, October 23rd, and holy flying fucks was he even more gorgeous than before. I will marry that boy.

Okay I won't, but a girl can dream, right?

Alice was jabbing about what her and Jasper did this weekend while I continued to make googly eyes at Edward.

It's junior year and my love and obsession over Edward has only grown.

But, now, there is no way I could possibly date Edward. Or anyone for that matter.

See for the past year and a half, I've been making Charlie really upset on accident. And when he's angry he yells and shouts and me. He also hurts me, I know he doesn't mean to and that he regrets it a lot but it still hurts. It's hard to cover up the bruises. Especially in gym, I have to change in the bathroom.

I'm not going to think about that right now, though. Because right now, I was in the same room as Edward. I stared at him from across the room. He was so perfect.

"Hey Bella!" I turned to Mike, who once again asked me out on a date this weekend. Once again, I shot him down. Mike was an okay guy. He wasn't my type and definitely wasn't an Edward, but he was nice.

I glanced at Edward one more time before the class ended.

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The long day was over. I was finished. Not only did I have multiple tests, but today in gym we played dodge ball. I was only able to dodge a few balls.

When I got home I knew I had to make dinner, but I was so tired.

I sat on the couch and contemplated my options. Maybe I could fall asleep for two seconds, not even fall asleep. Just rest my eyes.

I felt my eyes shut and I drifted off into a perfect land. In this land Charlie didn't exist, and not only did Edward know I was alive, but we were in love.

I never wanted to wake up.

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"Where the fuck is my dinner, bitch!" I felt two large hands shake we awake. As soon as I opened my heavy eyes, I was wide awake. I was staring into Charlie's pupils. He was furious.

"I'm so sorry, Dad. I swear I didn't mean to. Today was so long, I was so tired..." I felt him slap my face so hard my cheek went numb.

Don't cry. Don't cry. If you cry that means he won. Don't cry.

"You think you're day was long? You think you're tired? I spend all day, all week at work and for what? For you to fall your lazy ass asleep? All I ask is for dinner made when I get home! Are you so spoiled that you can't even make your father dinner? You're a waste of space!"

He gripped my hair and dragged me to the kitchen.

I chanted the word 'no' like it was some kind of prayer.

He slammed my face against the fridge. As soon as he let go of my hair I slid to the ground where he kicked my stomach hard. Continuously.

I really don't know what I was thinking when I said it, but I did. "If mom could see you now she'd be disgusted with you!" I saw his mood change from furious to raging.

"Get the fuck out of my house right now!" He kicked my stomach one more time and dragged me to the porch. Locking to door behind me.

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I didn't know where I was. I just knew I was sitting on a bench in some dark street.

I needed money to call Alice with a pay phone so I didn't have to sleep on the bench like a hobo. But, everyone who walked passed me was scary and shady looking. I really didn't feel like dealing with another person like that tonight.

In the distance, I finally saw someone who looked normal. When they got close enough I decided to attack.

"Um, excuse me. I don't want to bother you or anything but do you have any change?" I lifted my head to see Edward staring down at me. Oh no. No. No please anyone but him. Why did it have to be him.

Just play it cool. Don't let him catch on.

He didn't say anything. Oh, God. Did he recognize me? Did he think I was a complete weirdo or something?

Say something!

"I mean, I would have asked someone else but every one else walking around seems kind of shady and scary." I felt my blush shade my face. So much for playing it cool. "I guess I seem a little shady too, asking for money in the middle of the night."

Fuck, I was a total retard. I was blabbing and he was obviously uncomfortable with talking to me. Just let me go.

"Um, yeah sorry I uh..." He dug into his pocket for what I hoped to be some coins. He gave me a five and a one dollar bill. "Sorry that's all I have." His voice is so mesmerizing. I couldn't help but to smile at it.

"Thank you s-" I was suddenly not feeling so hot, at all. I was coughing uncontrollably.

I could see the panic in his eyes, "Are...Are you alright?" I could only shake my head. I looked into my palm to see a small amount of blood come out. This has happened to me before so I knew I would be okay, but Edward however didn't know that.

God, why do you hate me?

"Oh my gosh! We have to call 911!" He put a warm hand on my shoulder, I shook my head violently. "No, anything but that. Please, I'll... be... 'Kay..."

Then my first actual conversation with Edward Cullen stopped. Because as if I wasn't uncool enough, I fainted.

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