Disclaimer:I do not own Fruits Basket (Furuba) it belongs to Natsuki-sama.

Addiction, depression, self-injury, yaoi, and suicide are all implied and carried out in this story. If you don't like any of them, back off. Italics are for emphasis and thought. (Yuki's POV) Bold is for other people on the phone.

A Way to Let Go

"Yuki, I just don't know if that's okay," Shigure whispered.

We were in the kitchen corner talking about Kyo's condition with drugs. It was obvious to me, yet no one else knew.

"Shigure, I understand that you love Kyo, but I need to help him."

"Do you honestly think that your way of going about it will work? Yuki?"

Kyo had walked in at that exact moment and walked over to the counter. His tanned fingers picked up the house key but lingered for a second. Crimson eyes watched the knife set…longingly. It was something trivial, but it was Kyo. He smiled and turned around to walk out of the kitchen.

"Yuki?"

Shigure's voice didn't faze me, I was after Kyo. I walked into the living room to see him nod to Miss Honda. She walked over to the door and said something about a jacket. I walked over to their place and glared at his head. The words suddenly slipped out, I wasn't going to say anything.

"If you appreciate what Miss Honda has given us, you won't do this," I said the phrase with hate, it disgusted me.

His eyes lingered on my body for a second, and mine on his. He looked at me with confusion, but he turned around anyways.

"Whatever, let's go Kauri," he seemed like he didn't want to go, but like he had to.

Kauri looked between the two of us, but followed Kyo when he realized that he was leaving. I still didn't have control of my body, because I never would have spoken to Kyo the way I did, but the words spewed out like poison.

"I hate you Kyo! I hate you so much!"

He never stopped, he kept walking away. He was walking away from the love we could give him. Kyo needed help with his problem, he just wouldn't cooperate. It was true, I had mixed feelings for Kyo, but I wouldn't show it. On certain days, I was nice, on other days I hated him. I didn't understand myself at all.

I want to love Kyo.

Of course I did. I had always tried to get his affection. It was just recently that I brought up our past. That hat…..it had meant a lot to me. It held Kyo's feelings of warmth and kindness, things he never showed me. I must have blocked out all noise, due to the fact that Miss Honda had to tap my shoulder.

"Haru is on the phone," she said softly.

I walked over to the cordless and picked up.

"What is it?"

I know that Kyo is on drugs. I want to help him Yuki.

"So? Is that my problem? If you want to help him, do it!" I abruptly ended our phone call when I slammed the phone on the hook in a fit.

I was steamed. I needed to just relax. Walking to my room, my memories of Kyo playing with everyone at public school flooded my thoughts. How long had I been standing in the hall? I just remember the hole that was my heart. Footsteps echoed in the hall. Mine? I wasn't walking though……then…who? Kyo?

I turned to see Haru carrying Kyo down the hall. Kyo looked at me with pained eyes, like he was sorry. I followed Haru and Kyo to his bedroom and stood in the doorway while Kyo hugged Haru.

Haru was released and he just glared at me when he walked away. I couldn't help myself, I had to tell him.

"You're an idiot," I said hatefully. He whispered my name. I walked over to him and he raised his hand to my face. Consequently, I smacked it away, "I warned you Kyo. You didn't listen. I hate you."

I walked out and slammed his door. Slouching, I walked slowly down the hall. Prince Yuki was a monster and no one saw how much I just wanted Kyo's attention. Everything was spinning as tears came to my eyes. There was a soft thud from Kyo's room. I ran back to his small room and found him on the floor.

"Kyo! No!" I shouted.

I sat next to him and held his head. He didn't notice, he just smiled and said my name. His eyes were dark and he looked so happy to be there.

"I must be dreaming already. You're always here when I dream," he mumbled softly.

"Kyo…no…," I whispered, wishing he wouldn't die.

He said it, "I love you, my prince."

"I love you too, Kyo…..don't die," tears ran down my face and a sob escaped my lips.

"I'm not dying… I'm living for the first time."

I kissed Kyo gently, he just couldn't die. I had so much to tell him.

"I love you so much, Kyo…..Tohru! Call Hatori! Tell him Kyo's dying!" Kyo slightly cringed under me.

"Why are you crying, Love?"

"Kyo…hang on. You'll be safe, I promise. And once you're okay, I'll love you for real."

Kyo smiled a desperate smile that had no hope or life. He closed his eyes and he kissed me again. He leaned away and I could feel his body growing stiff and cold.

"KYO?!"

I shouted for so long, I was still shouting when Hatori grabbed my shoulder.

Am I crying?

Yes, but why?

I love Kyo… He was my everything… It hurt to hold him like that…

My heart had a hole in it and I could feel myself losing everything. The pain subsided and the love vanished from my being. How long had I sat in my room by myself? It felt like forever. I had the lights off and I was turned with my back towards the door. Everything was useless… Just like Akito said it was… Like always, he was right.

"Yuki?"

Miss Honda's voice flooded the thick air. I didn't turn, I couldn't.

"It's morning… Did you want breakfast?"

I shook my head slowly. The light from the hall still flooded my room, meaning she was still there. I was silent until she came in and sat down next to me.

"Miss Honda?"

"Yuki, what is troubling you so?"

"I loved him… he loved me back… I was stupid enough to tell him that I hated him…," my voice sounded foreign to my own ears.

"Yuki? His funeral is in three days… You don't have to go…"

"I'm going," I said slowly.

She kissed my forehead and walked out. Just like Tohru to care. My heart was sore, what was the pain? Heartbreak or sorrow? Both if I'm correct. It hurt too much to think about. I got up and walked to the bathroom without a noise. I stood and looked at myself, a beautiful boy stood in front of me, but his soul was ugly and tortured. I lifted my fist up and slammed it against the mirror. Blood and broken shards scattered every which way. I smiled at my blood spilling down the mirror. Tears welled up in my eyes and I fell onto my butt and screamed out.

"Kyo! Don't leave me!"

No one came running up to the bathroom, no one screamed for me, no one cared. I was officially alone. No one to love, no one to hate, no one to fight, only the emptiness that was there before.

My Emptiness

Life is over…… He's really gone… He isn't coming back to me!

"No!" I screamed for as long as I could, just curled up in a ball on the bathroom floor.

I only remember seeing his face and hearing his warm voice saying, "Come to me."

I only did it because I didn't want to be alone like before! I wouldn't live alone and be beaten by Akito! Kyo understood me! He really loved me. I didn't know why I was doing it, but I just remember opening the cabinet and pulling out every bottle of medicine. I remember opening up every last bottle and taking every last pill.

I remember never waking up.

This is the last chapter. I hope you all enjoyed Yuki's POV. I was really hard to get him just right. Thanks for reading!