Whenever the wind blows

I know you'll be thinking of me

But if you're afraid

Don't run

Just wait for me

But if you run

I'll follow you

And I know you'll reject at first

To wherever you're running to

But you can't say no

You've saved me once

Now I will get my turn

I'm standing still

But I'm already there

I'm right in front of you.

Rinoa

I watched the waves crash as they spilled onto the shore. The air was cold, but the wind was warm, and the water felt like a warm bath on my toes as I dipped them into the ocean liquid. I smiled as the sand seeped through the gaps between my toes again. Another lonely Sunday afternoon; but I didn't want to have it any other way.

Everyone was at a SeeD meeting, discussing what would be done with the remains of a failed mission that they had placed upon a party of three new SeeDs. I knew that once Squall returned, he would not be happy, because one of the members of the party he had become close to, and was a mentor for.

I knew that I had helped Squall as much as I could, and I knew that I had changed him so much. Everyone saw it in him now. He was happier, he talked more, he was easier to get along with; but when something negative drew his attention, he was back to square one again. Everyone knew then to leave him alone, and let him be. Sometimes it was hard, though.

Not thinking about the dangers of the fields around Balamb Garden, I had driven to the beach shore myself, without my blaster edge. I hadn't been training, and my GFs had been temporarily abandoned (not literally). On the battle field, I would be a complete mess. Part of me gave myself hell for this. My back was to the field; there could've been a monster right there and I wouldn't have noticed it. Another part of me didn't care, and didn't really think it mattered too much at that point. There was much more on my mind… More than anyone could understand. Worries flooded me nightly of the future. But the world was at ease. Every mission brought to the SeeDs was out of boredom and desperation.

As a bad habit of mine, I fingered my tiny silver ring necklace delicately, looking over my shoulder quickly. Nothing. Thank goodness.

"Rinoa!" I heard a tiny voice yell from behind me. Thinking it was warning, I jumped up and turned, going into battle stance.

All I saw was the tiny, lone body of Selphie running towards me, waving one arm in the air, smiling. I stood up straight and smiled.

"You're back early," I stated as Selphie finally got close enough to hear me clearly. She nodded and leaned over, trying to catch her breath.

"Phew, that was tiring… What are you doing out here all alone? It's dangerous, you know."

"I am quite aware of that, thank you very much. I'm a big girl, Selph. No worries," I responded, crossing my arms over my chest and grinning proudly. Selphie smiled and looked out onto the water.

"It sure is pretty, isn't it?" Selphie asked, her short brown hair blowing wildly in the wind. I smiled at her and nodded, moving my eyes to the water once again. I looked back at Selphie. She seemed content. My eyes moved to the ground quickly.

"Squall's been really quiet lately…"

Selphie looked at me. Clearly, she knew something. "It's about time you've noticed."

My eyes darted back to her. "What does that mean?!"

"He's worried about you, Rinoa."

"Why? I'm fine."

"Oh, he knows that! It's just… You're not training, but you still venture out on your own like you did today… So don't even think about denying it," Selphie commented. I looked away. I couldn't tell her. I just couldn't. "You never use magic, your GFs are… Who knows. Your weapon is probably long gone missing, now… Rinoa, what's up with you?"

"It's nothing, Selph… It's just… Lots of things on my mind, I guess. Nothing big, I guess."

"You guess?"

Selphie was now sitting on the grass cross-legged. I sat across from her, playing with strands of grass. "Things have happened, and…"

"Whatever it is, you have to tell Squall. He's freaking out, Rinoa. He barely sleeps, for God's sake!" Selphie yelled, now getting angrier. Selphie was not the kind of girl to get angry easily, but if you messed with one of her friends, you'd get a good lickin' afterwards.

"I don't know if I can…"

I felt tears well up in my eyes. I looked down at my legs and held my face in my hands. I felt so numb; so clueless to my real strength. Nothing was right anymore; I had let my happiness with the world get so out of hand, that I couldn't really function anymore. Everything had a sugar coating on it, and living in this world, that was not a safe way to look at things.

"Yes, you can," Selphie responded happily, leaning over, trying to look me in the eyes.

"…what if he leaves me?"

Selphie got quiet now, and she sat up straight.

"Is it really that serious?"

I nodded and sighed, looking up at the ocean again. Selphie reached out and took one of my hands. "Tell me. What is it?"

I looked at her. This was it. If I told Selphie, something would happen. Squall would find out, or she wouldn't tell anyone. What if she was angry? What if she called me bad names for what I had done?

"Um… I'm pregnant."

Zell

I walked up the stairs to my dorm room with Squall exhausted. Another boring SeeD meeting, telling new SeeD members that they had to either quit or grow up more. Squall was, of course, the one doing all of the yelling and lecturing. I, on the other hand, along with Selphie, Quistis and Irvine, stood there, staring at the ceiling.

"Can you believe those kids? … Ridiculous. It was such a simple mission, and they still managed to put us all in danger!" Squall yelped, still angry, huffing and puffing.

"Um, I can't imagine they were exactly like we were when we started out a year ago."

Squall looked at me quickly. "I guess you're right."

Somehow all of us had managed to live in or nearby Balamb Garden. Quistis, Squall, Selphie and I all were SeeDs, but we also acted as mentors to students who were about to become SeeDs. Irvine and Rinoa lived in a house built just outside Balamb Garden. It was originally built for all of us SeeDs, but only Rinoa and Irvine actually lived in it. Living in a dorm room sucked, but it was a good break from the constant battle that had happened almost a year and a half ago.

"Have you spoken to Rinoa lately?" I asked Squall, a bit afraid to touch on that subject. We began heading up another flight of stairs, and Squall pounded his fist against the wall as soon as I finished.

"No…"

"You both seem… Distant… Is… Everything alright with you two?"

"I'm not sure. I'll see her and she's happy and smiling and everything… Then I go up to her, and it's like she's seen a ghost or something. Maybe she's sick."

"I'm sure that's it…"

Okay, so?! That's my first chapter… I know, I know... Oh another pregnant story, well... That's not the case! The pregnancy is actually a small part in this, so pleeease! Just wait! Hehe, there's so much planned for this story, I'm soo excited! So pleeaassee!!! REVIEWWW! =D Thank you, much love!