-1You know when you have a thought in your head but can't quite acknowledge it? It's always there, like something you need to remember, but can't until it's too late? Yeah, that's how I feel about Cullen and Bella. Is there anything wrong with liking a girl? No, it's part of life. Is there anything wrong with persistence? Maybe I should have taken a hint, but I just had a lot of hope that Bella and I would be together. That's a laugh, huh?

There was nothing wrong with me being attracted to Bella. I'm a teenage boy and I was attracted to a girl. Where's the harm in that? Oh yeah, I forgot. I'm not Edward Cullen. I don't have inhumane beauty, a superiority complex, and I'm not anti-social. I'm perfectly friendly, smart, I might be a little too eager sometimes, but that's not too bad, is it? Why wouldn't a girl want to date me? Oh yeah, because I'm not Edward Cullen. What is it with girls liking guys who are assholes? Do they honestly think they can change them? Unless the guy wants to change, he won't. Why would he- he's getting a bunch of girls.

I'm glad I moved on from Bella. You know what? I'm a teenage boy, and I had a crush. I moved on and I'm in a perfectly happy relationship with Jessica. I wish I'd noticed her earlier, but I was too busy drooling over Bella. I can't believe it. Sure Jessica has a tendency to gossip, but she's great to talk to, a good friend, and she likes me. Jessica actually appreciates nice guys, unlike some ungrateful brat.

People have called me a lot of things, such as a rapist. I would NEVER rape anyone! Yeah, I had a crush on Bella, but I wasn't obsessed! Sheesh! Why the hell would I rape her? But no, I'm not Edward Cullen, therefore I'm a bad guy. Let's get a few things straight. Asking a girl out numerous times does not mean you're going to rape her. My entire life didn't revolve around Bella. I had to help my mom in the store, see my friends, do homework- my life didn't revolve around one girl. When did I ever make Bella feel uncomfortable? Huh? Did I ever glare at her, or drag her somewhere against her will? Did I shoot down her opinions, or ignore her one day then act all buddy-buddy the next? Did I? No, I was perfectly nice to her, and that's how I'm represented: as a rapist. I swear people have no taste in relationships anymore. If they want the jackass, go right ahead.

I can't believe I was compared to a puppy! A puppy! No wait, it was like a golden retriever. I'm nice to a girl and I'm compared to a puppy? What the hell? What's wrong with being helpful? Everyone's always on your case to help others, and when you do, you're compared to a puppy. People these days have no chivalry and are a bunch of hypocrites.

There was a time I was jealous of Edward Cullen. All the girls wanted him and he could do whatever he wanted and girls would still love him. If I looked down my nose at people like Cullen did, I'd get labeled as a jerk. But Edward Cullen is gorgeous, so it's okay. It's too bad I wasn't born with the gift of hotness, it would've come in handy. Edward was everything I wasn't, but I'm okay with that now. Sure, lots of girls like Edward, but how long do you think the relationship will last? Oh yeah, I forgot, he's too good to date the likes of us lowly students. Jessica and I have a very strong relationship. Sure, Jessica had a crush on me, but we made it work. We talked and Jessica and I were already friends, so it worked. Now I can't remember what I ever saw in Bella. I can't believe that I wasted so much of my time on a girl who was obsessed with a jerk and wouldn't give me the time of day. I know better now. Girls will go through a stage where they want the bad boy and won't notice the nice guy that's right there. It'll pass, and when the bad boy dumps them, they'll be right there.