A/N: I'm not getting a lot of response for this. But, it doesn't bother me that much. This is more of a personal challenge. But- by all means: review! This is a very short, slightly angsty vignette. First person point-of-view with Joey. Polarshipping references.

Warnings: Angst.

Song: Johanna- Jamie Campbell Bower (From Sweeney Todd: The Demon Barber of Fleet Street)

Pairing: Mai/Joey

They said I couldn't do it Mai. They said that I was stupid for even trying. But I didn't care. All I thought about was saving you. And even then, it wasn't enough. But what can you do for trying?

When you look at me, I know you're thinking that I'm just some kid who's lost his way in the big, wide world. Maybe that's true. In fact, it probably is. But you still can't blame me for trying.

When I look at you, not only do I see a beautiful woman, I also see someone who's searching. Searching for someone, acceptance, rejection. Nothing particular. Jus' searching. And I can't blame you for that. Everyone want's a human connection. And that's what you struggle with Mai, you're too afraid to let someone in. And yet, you're always wanting to. You just don't know how to open up.

I'm not sure how you feel for Valon. Personally I think he's just a loud-mouth prick but you could say the same for me. Is that why you went to him, Mai? Because he reminded you of me? Why didn't you come to me, instead? I would have been there instantly. At the drop of a hat. Just for you. Why can't you understand that?

It doesn't matter to me, I guess. As long as you're happy. Even if it's not with me. Everyone thinks I'm stupid anyways for trying to "pursue" you. Still, you can't ignore me forever. You know you can't.

So, when are you coming home, Mai?

It's a nice song. "Buried sweetly in your yellow hair" made me instantly think of Mai when posting on my LiveJournal. So- when the inspiration struck- I wrote.

Please review.

-Nuit Songeur