Heartfelt Sacrifices

So I'll Go

If I should stay,
I would only be in your way
So I'll go, but I know,
I'll think of you every step of the way…

He thought if only they could keep this a secret, hidden and tucked away between the folds of their mind and heart, everything would be fine. If no one knew, they wouldn't have to trouble themselves thinking whether to accept it or not and in doing so, also having to decide their political standing which also affected their family relations. It was like a domino affect with the pieces just getting bigger as more of them fell until all came crashing down with the last piece.

If no one knew, they wouldn't have to be hurt.

But the longer they had to keep it hidden, like a shameful secret, for that was indeed what this was, the more it hurt him. And the more it hurt him, meeting his eyes became more difficult, smiling genuinely became harder, feeling joy at his presence became tainted with the pain that never seemed to cease.

Some thought a secret affair was romantic, exciting, thrilling. When would the time come for things to be discovered? Would their feelings be strong enough to stand any adversity that came their way? He heard enough girls squeal about it to make him sick.

Secret affairs weren't romantic or exciting or thrilling. It was just painful. So painful it was all he could do to try to breathe properly.

Like now.

Hissing air between his lips and pearly white teeth, he ignored the insistent screams at the back of his mind telling him he was making the biggest mistake of his life and that he should stop this now. Even his body was rebelling against him, his chest aching with a pain that was nearly unbearable, spreading to his throat with a burning intensity that threatened to stop his airflow and choke him altogether.

But he needed, needed to do this. It was the only way to end things quietly. Instincts or emotions didn't matter. He was working on logic and reality, telling him if he didn't do this, the end result of the path they'd been planning to pursue would've had dire consequences.

He was someone easily submissive to his emotions, but he could easily override them when it came to him, the other counterpart involved in this 'affair' – if it could even be considered such – and what was best for him.

Before things had gotten so out of control, he'd loved her. Loved her with everything he had. Yes, he thought bitterly, everything. It just showed how much blood bonds could twist your own emotions around.

And after this, he would go back to loving her, as he should. There should have been no room for someone like him to interfere in the possibilities that lay between the two, none. He'd been alone since four years ago and that shouldn't have changed.

Letting out a silent gasping sigh, he finished the last symbol, his hand trembling around the brush coated with his blood. He let out a smile that felt anything but victorious and slowly walked towards the figure sleeping in the middle of the bed. Setting himself down silently, he reached out to gently stroke a smooth pale cheek, the ache in his chest growing impossibly stronger as he gazed down at the beautiful face below him.

"Mm…Zero?"

"Ssh, it's okay, go back to sleep, Kaname. Everything will be fine." Yes, everything will go back to the way it was supposed to be by tomorrow.

"You look tired, Zero…" Sleepy wine red eyes looked up with a sliver of concern.

"I'll promise to sleep more, alright? You nag," Zero laughed, but was unable to keep the tremble from his voice.

"Mm, yes. Love you…" The pureblood whispered as he closed his eyes, too exhausted to recognize the small negative signs he normally would have no trouble seeing.

Zero nodded stiffly, "I know Kaname," and this time, he couldn't keep his voice from breaking.

But you never would have if not for this bond and you never should have.

Clapping his palms together, he spoke the keywords needed to activate the blood seals before his lost his nerve or Kaname caught onto what he might be doing.

"Just say those two words after you're done without any hesitance or spot of doubt in your heart and everything should be fine."

Everything should be fine…

"Heartfelt Sacrifices!"

Bittersweet memories
That is all I'm taking with me.
So goodbye, please don't cry
We both know I'm not what you, you need…

"Zero are you ready?" Jamie softly murmured. He couldn't help but think the child had made a life altering decision with way too much haste, his pure untainted love for the pureblood who'd been (past tense now) equally as smitten only furthering that haste and had resulted in the present circumstances.

"…Yes."

"Take as long as you need, Child. We need not hurry so soon."

"I told you not to call me that," the young vampire groused.

Jamie laughed softly, the sound not unlike soothing bells to Zero's ears, and gently cupped Zero's cheeks, "You're going to be, my dear, you might as well get used to it now."

"Don't call me that either."

Jamie playfully stuck out his lip, "But you are a dear. If not that, then do you prefer darling? What about sweetie?"

Zero's Glare of Death was back and currently in full effect, but it failed to bring out any desirable results, merely making Jamie more amused.

"You're adorable when angry, Zero, I'm sure your soon to be brothers and sisters would love that as well." He chirped.

Zero grimaced. Jamie just sounded like the chairman. As if perfectly following his train of thought, Jamie smiled, "They both love you, you know this. They'll also miss you something fierce. I can see their tears."

Zero narrowed his eyes, easily able to see both the chairman and Yuuki (her love would now be returned, as it should've been) shedding tears when finding out about his departure and couldn't help the slight bit of guilt that welled up at only leaving them a short note. "You're here to take me, not make me stay!"

"Yes, I am. Hold on tightly to my hand, Child."

And they were off.

I hope life treats you kind
And I hope you have all you've dreamed of…
And I wish to you, joy and happiness,
But above all this, I wish you love…

Disclaimer: No own Vampire Knights. No own I Will Always Love You lyrics either.

Uh, I think some parts may have been a bit confusing...sorry if that's the case. *scratches cheek sheepishly* Well, the gist of it is, Zero breaks things off with Kaname and, well...leaves...*runs from an enraged inner fangirl*

This is just a little something that may turn out to be a bit more depending on the readers' general opinion and my own whims. But if I decide it's not going anywhere, I'll just delete it, so no worries. Either that, or someone else can take up the reigns *shrugs*