OK THIS IS MY FIRST RIN AND SESSHOWMARU FAN FIC AND IM HOPING THAT IT GOES WELL! IT KINDA JUST POPPED INTO MY HEAD WHEN I WAS READING OTHER FAN FICTION. SO I HOPE YOU ENJOY IT. I WAS GONNA MAKE IT A ONE SHOT BUT I DIDN'T WANT IT TO BE TO LONG OF A CHAPTER AND I WANTED TO SPREAD IT OUT MORE. SO ENJOY!!

Hurt Feelings

Rin was sitting at the edge of the river, gazing at it as the sun shined off of it. The fish swimming fluently and the little ripples that the wind made as it flew right over it. She sat there for the past 5 months. The same place at the same time in the same sitting position. She was thinking about what had happened 5 months ago with her beloved lord. They had made love for the first time. She had become of age where she should have been married but was not. The time where she should have settled down to have a family but have not. Clear memories of that night appeared in her mind. But the saddest memory she held in her mind and heart would always haunt her until she knew why he did what he did.

-FLASHBACK-

Rin and Sesshomaru laid down after their blissful evening that they just shared. Rin was on top of him as he wrapped his arms around her. He had taken her fully that night. Even though he had not marked her as his he still loved her. Even so he didn't truly she was ready for that kind of bond.

"Lord Sess-", Rin started but was cut off by his glare.

"Sesshomaru is what you will call me from now on. Never Lord anymore".

"I understand. May I ask you a question? Why have you not marked me as yours? Do you not love me enough for me to be truly yours?"

Sesshomaru didn't answer. He knew this was coming. He had taught her all about the mating rituals and the fact that he didn't mark her was a sign.

"I have my reasons", was all he said as he got up and started to put his clothes back on.

Rin was hurt. 'Does he not love me? Have I done something wrong?' She thought.

"Was I not good in bed? Was I not as good as the other females you have been with?", she started to cry.

"No. it has nothing to do with that. Its-"

"Then what does it have to do with"? She screamed. "Tell me?! Do you not love me?! I want the truth Sesshomaru"!

He never heard he scream at him before. And he wasn't staying for it either. He knew he was hurting her by not telling her the truth but he had to leave, to get something's in order before anything else came about.

"I do love you Rin."

"Then why hurt me? Why not make me yours forever?" she was raking with sobs.

"Get dressed Rin. And head back to the village."

Rin did as she was told and got dressed. She saw Sesshomaru leaving and caught him by his arm.

"Where are you going? Are you not coming back with me?"

"No. I have things to take care of."

"Why are you being so cold to me? Please don't leave me again. Im begging you. Please."

Sesshomaru was shocked. Rin…was begging him to stay with her.

"I cannot Rin, now release me".

Rin released him with ease. She knew better than to trouble him in stupid ways.

"Head back to the village and happy birthday Rin", he said as he walked off.

Rin stood there shocked. She had completely forgot that it was her 20th birthday. Tears started to stream down her face as she saw the one she loved walk away from her. Turning around she walked the other way also sobbing on the way.

"And Rin."

"Yes"

"I'm sorry for the near future", and with those last words he disappeared into the black forest.

-FLASHBACK OVER-

That was the last time she ever saw him. She cried every night for a month until she found it pointless. That is she got a little surprise of her own. After a month of crying she found out she was pregnant. And the only person she was with and had ever been with was Sesshomaru. Sesshomaru was going to be a father. A father to her baby.

But it still kinda saddened her. He was going to be a father to her half breed child. Sesshomaru hated half breeds. Even though he got along with his half brother Inuyasha, who was indeed a half breed that didn't mean that Sesshomaru wanted half a breed child. It made Rin sad at this fact. She looked down at her growing tummy. It was very round in her bright pink kimono with black obi.

"Your going to be born soon", Rin said as she rubbed her tummy up and down. "One more month to go and then I will see your pretty face," she smiled.

Rin was radiant. She felt more beautiful than she ever had while she carried her child. Her face was glowed with happiness and her smile was always bright. No matter what the people of the village thought of her or said about her, nothing could bring her spirits down. She never felt like this before. It felt so different to have another body inside of her. To feel her baby kicking her gently and sometimes roughly when it wanted something. Besides that it was as quite as her. As the sun went down Rin felt a little nudge at her side. She giggled.

"You must be hungry by now aren't you little one"? She asked as she continued to rub her tummy. "Well another day has gone and another day awaits for us. As each day passes it brings us closer to each other". Rin kissed her fingers and placed them back on her stomach as she got up and headed back to the village.

Unknown to her there was a shadow figure watching her from the forest. The amber eyes showed sorrow within them. He watched her for the longest time. No, he watched her all day. As she left so did he, back into the depths of darkness.

As Rin reached the village she could her the voices of her fellow 'neighbours'. Even thought she held her head held high she wanted to kill those people. She could careless of what they said about her but when it came to her child she wanted them to rot in hell.

"Have you heard. The father of her baby left her for another woman"

"No. I think the baby was fathered by a demon. It would be a half breed. What a filthy combination to have.

"What a slut. She isn't even married and she pregnant. No wonder she cant keep a man."

"Her baby is going to grow up in a broken home. That child deserves to be treated badly, it's the reason Rin isn't married."

"Maybe we should tell her to leave. I mean she thinks none of us men are good enough for her and she goes of having sinful sex with God knows who."

Rin heard all the whispers of the villagers. It made her want to cry. How can humans hate one of their own so much till the point of exile? Rin has never done anything wrong to deserve this. And her baby defiantly didn't deserve this kind of treatment. Maybe they were right, maybe she will leave after the baby was born. No, before the baby was born. Lady Kaede would gladly take her in. After all Lady Kaede did offer to take her in the first time but she refused thinking that she could go back to her old village that she grew up in. But was Rin wrong. They shunned her once she came back and even more when they found out that she had rejected what they called the most eligible bachelor in the village. Saying that "she doesn't deserve him" and "she doesn't know what she's talking about". To Rin he was like all the other guys. Shallow because he knew all the single women fawned over him and his good looks and Rin wasn't into that kind of persona. Sure, he was a great looking guy but his personality sucked. Big time.

Rin entered her hut and started a fire with a pot of water boiling over it. Her mind racing to her thoughts.

'I miss him. I miss him so much. Why did he have to hurt me? What did I ever do to him for him to leave me? Maybe…maybe he doesn't love me like he said he did. Maybe it was all a lie to make love to me and then leave me. Well in his mind it must have been just sex. He's had sex so many times before to fuck me would have made no difference to him I'm guessing'.

Rin added some seasoning and fresh veggies and some meat that she bought from the local market to her pot of water. As the food boiled she changed into her night time kimono. It was a dark blue with golden sakura petals on it. She loved this kimono dearly. It reminded her of Sesshomaru. It's the only reason why she bought it, besides the fact that she loved it herself. The midnight blue sky was always dark and mysterious. You never know what it holds with in its shadows. A surprise in each turn. Just like Sesshomaru. He never showed his true colours. Just like how some people believe the sky is black at night. You could never know its true colour, just like her Sesshomaru. He always surprises her when she least expects it. And the gold sakura petals represented the stars in the sky. The stars the light up the way when the moon isn't out. When she looked at the golden colour she saw Sesshomaru's eyes. Those eyes always haunted her. In her sleep, in her mind. Sometimes she could feel those eyes watching her every move. She knew it was kind of staker-ish to think like that but she couldn't help it. She loved him, wanted him, no need him by her side. In all truth she was scared to give birth by herself without him by her side.

'What if there were complications, what if something went horribly wrong? What if her baby…' NO she couldn't think like that. Her baby will live. Come on, the baby will have the blood of its father. The strong Lord of the Western side. The demon to be feared.

Rin smiled. Her soup was finally done and finally her child would stop kicking her as soon as she feed herself. Her mind wandered to her child that was easing her from kicking her. Wondered if it was a boy or a girl. If her baby would come out with silver hair like her father or black hair like her. Amber or brown eyes. Ears like their father or ears like Inuyasha. Doggie ears. Those cute triangles on the top of Inuyasha head. His triplet babies has his ears. They were the cutest things.

After she had finished her dinner she cleaned up washed her face and prayed to the distant stars above. Every night she said the same prayer and wish. She did a little star gazing till her eyes drifted her off to sleep. Those same amber eyes watched her from the distant tree tops. His white kimono blowing in the wind along with his long silvery tresses. His face still held the same sorrow from earlier. He hated to see this woman in a depressed mood. The man sucked in a deep breath of air and jumped from tree to tree back into the forest.

"Soon. Soon it will all be over for you. You will never have to know pain ever again".

Those were his last words before he completely disappeared into the night.

Dawn had come once again for the childish woman. Yes, she hadn't completely changed from her childish ways and she was a 20 year old with a baby on the way. With one more month to go she started to get herself prepared for bringing her child into this world that she dubbed as Hell. If it was up to her she would bring her baby into a world of peace. No fighting, no separation. Everyone would be equal. Isn't that what the God of the world would have wanted? But humans would never behave in that kind of manner. She did her daily routine; making her breakfast and then washing her face. She changed into a different kimono that was all green. Light green. Rin made her way to her favourite river. Across the river was a forest. The trees always had bright green leaves and when they changed colour from green to reds, orange, yellows it was a pretty site to see. But winter was her most favourite time to see the forest go through its seasonally change. The pure white snow frozen to the branches and icicles hanging off the tips of them. She loved to see the change happen. It was her solitude.

As Rin reached the river she released her dark green obi a little bit to loosen its grip around her still growing tummy, letting the gentle breeze caress her skin lightly. She enjoyed this feeling. To be alone. Just her and the baby. Talking and rubbing her tummy. Letting her baby know that she will always be there for him/her. Never going to miss a moment of their childhood.

Running her right hand through the crystal clear water, while her left hand stood on her round tummy. She failed to notice a figure standing on the other side of the river watching her actions. It was only then she realized that the figure was there when it spoke.

"My beautiful Rin."

Rin knew that voice anywhere. The voice that was in her dreams day and night. The voice that she wanted to hear for the longest time. That same voice that told her goodbye was across the very same river that she enjoyed to sit at.

Rin looked at the demon that left her side so many months ago. He hadn't changed one bit. He still had that same expression plastered on his gentle features. But this time it was some what gentler.

"Sesshomaru"

He smiled at her shocked expression. He looked over her once more before he jumped over to her on the other side of the river. He stood in front of her and gave her the rarest smile that he hardly gives anyone.

"I missed you Rin".

WELL I HOPE YOU ENJOYED THE FIRST CHAPTER!!!! I WAS LISTENING TO YIRUMA WHEN I WAS WRITING THIS CHAPTER. IT REALLY SETS THE MOOD. 'KISS THE RAIN' AND 'RIVER FLOWS IN YOUR' WERE THE SONGS I WAS LISTENING TO OVER AND OVER AGAIN AS I WROTE THIS CHAPTER. ANYWAYS TILL NEXT TIME

JA NE!!