The four days passed and the day was upon us. The day, well the night that my love will be taken from me. The whole palace was abuzz, everyone was so excited. Other then Rin, Shippou, and myself, I refuse to leave my room and I not going to talk to that pig headed MUTT or anyone else. I guessed Rin and Shippou understood that because they didn't bother me and that morning or after lunch… I thought I was going to make it through the day without anyone disturbing me when that knock I was dreading all day came at my door…
"Go away" I said running to my bed and covering my head
"Kegome?" The deep voice I've been avoiding all day said at my door. I knew who it was even before he said my name.
"I said go away" I turned on my side because it still hurt me to lay on my back for to long. The left side of my bed dipped in and my body slid to the middle of the bed.
"Why are you in my bed?" I said peaking out from under my sheets
"I had to see you before… well before tonight!"
"Well I didn't want to see you… hints to why I was staying in MY room all day" I said trying to sound annoyed but really trying not to cry.
"Kegome" he said again
"I don't want to think or talk about it"
"But it is going to happen my LOVE"
"UGH there you go with all that MY LOVE stuff! If you loved my things would be different!" He sighed and looked at me
"As in different you mean you being my mate! We have talked about this"
"I know I know, I'm not strong enough, pretty enough, worthy of baring your children" I said numbering off on my fingers
He pulled his face close to mine
"I am doing what's right for my kingdom… That doesn't mean that I'm happy about it"
I don't know what it was about something he just said but it got me thinking… I sat there in deep thought and then it hit me. I jumped and startled him
"YOU DON'T WANT TO BE LIKE YOUR FATHER"
"Now you understand"
"Yes…" I looked down and kept thinking and then something else hit me. He loved me!!! He just didn't want to compare himself to his dad!!! OMG he loves me.
"You love me!" I whispered
"What?"
"You really do love me!!" I said louder sitting up and throwing my around his neck and kissed him then I looked into his eyes.
"I love you to and I understand what you have to do… And I'll be here when ever you need me, if you ever need me!" I said almost cheerful!
"Kegome…I"
"But you know that loving me and marring Ambera is the same thing you father did."
He looked at me amazed.
"I have a heavy mind right now with to many thoughts to bear I must have time to think.
"I will not bother you my lord… I must rest anyways" I said smiling he kissed my forehead and left me in my room. Looking at the door my love just left through a pain shot through my body not from my back but from my heart. I knew that I was loosing a part of him that I never really had to begin with, and it still hurt like hell. I went to run myself a bath. I needed to try and relax so I can heal faster.
SESSHOMARU
She was right I was turning into my father! Mating Ambera and having her as my lover… Damn I was more like my dad then I wanted to be. I want Kagome GOD I want all of her! I want her to be all mines. MY KAGOME!!! But what would I do with Ambera? This is stupid I am lord of the west I shouldn't have to bother with stuff like this (we could always get rid of her…she is annoying me anyways) Of course my demon side would say that but I couldn't that would start a war that is not needed… a war that I would win but a war none the less that I would like to avoid.
"CRASH" the sound came from outside my office and I peaked out the door
"YOU LITTLE BRAT, I'm about sick of you. You are very lucky that Sesshomaru has you Protected or I would blow you into little specks and feed you to Ah-un" Ambera yelled. She had Rin by her arm and her feet were not touching the ground
"Stupid witch, I hate you. You can't tell me what to do!" She spat back. I was surprised on how bold she had become. Ambera sat her down and then struck her across her face. The force behind it sounded like it would break Rin in half but Rin stood there smiling. Ambera wasn't happy that she was still standing and the fact that she was smiling made it even worse.
"I told you not to harm her didn't I Ambera" I said stepping into view
"Sesshomaru?"
"Was it that hard to comprehend? I said you will not harm Kagome or Rin and yet you just slapped Rin"
She shook her head
"In my office"
"But my lord"
"NOW AMBERA" Both of the girls jumped at the harshness of my voice and Ambera ran into my office
"Rin?" I said reaching for her but she pulled away and looked into my eyes
"I'm sorry she hit you… it won't happen ever again" She smiled and ran to me instead of running to Kagome's room
"Sorry I yelled at you, I didn't mean it"
"Everything it well MY Rin, no go to bed"
"It's only eight"
"Please Rin" She listened and ran to her room I took a deep and turned to my office and walked in. Ambera was sitting in front of my desk
"Sesshomaru let me explain"
"Shut up" I said in a harsh voice
"I am tired of you trying to run my home I am the Lord of the house and you are not and will not be the Lady any longer"
"Sesshomaru can we talk about this, you and I both know what will happen if you send my back what my father will do to me. Disown me or even worse!"
"That is your fault you should of thought about that before you made yourself to much at home you will be leaving tomorrow" she looked at me and nodded then she left my office it was 11pm and there was something that I had made my mind up on and that I had to make sure happened.
KAGOME
I soaked in the healing water for a while and before I knew it, it was already 11:30pm. I looked at my back and all my wounds were closed, and they didn't even hurt any longer. If I keep these long soaks up I'll be healed in no time. I got out and dried off. I sat down at my vanity and started to brush my hair. "Ugh he is probably with her right now" I said out loud to myself and it almost made me sick. I knew I was not going to get any sleep tonight but I was at least going to try. I wrapped myself in a towel and walked out of my room I walked to my closet and then did a complete 360 turn to see Sesshomaru sitting on my bed.
"What the hell" I said jumping, he smiled, got off the bed and started to walk towards me.
"Shouldn't you be with Amb—" I was cut off by his kiss. He picked me up and started for the door. I broke the kiss "where are we going"
"Don't ask so many questions Kagome" He told me smiling and pulling me closer to him.
We arrived at his room he opened the door in one swift movement and closed it the same way. It took me a moment to notice that I was still in my towel. He laid me on his bed, climbed on top me, and kissed me once again. He had me so caught up in the kiss that I don't even remember him taking off his clothes. He took my towel into his hands and pulled it off me.
Ugh I want this!! It's really going to happen… Hold on he was just with Ambera... AHHH STOP..STOP..STOP.
My mind screamed at me and my body didn't want to obey but it had to. Laying nude under Sesshomarus eyes my body locked up and I covered myself with my hands.
"What are we doing? We can't do this Sesshomaru you said you didn't want to be like your father" I said
He looked at me and smiled then kissed me
"Hush MY MATE" He said leaning into my ear. My heart stopped, and my body started to shake. He called MATE which meant he chose me… He is choosing me to be with him forever. He smiled and kissed me once more but this time he moved to my neck then to my breast. He flicked his warm tongue across my nipple and then suckled on it. Which made a slight moan escape my lips, he moved lower to my inner thigh and left little kisses all over them. He moved to my inner folds, and his breath was hot and sent chills running up and down my spine. He took two of his fingers and slipped them into my folds. I grabbed the sheets and arched my back. His tongue found my bud and he started to stroke it first them he increased his speed. My body started to shake and fallow the motion that his fingers were making. My moans started to get louder and more common
"Se—Se…" I can't even get his freaking name out. He looked up ant me and pulled his fingers and I growled in protest. He smiled and moved to where his member was at my entrance .
"Are you ready?" he asked looking into my eyes
"Ye—Yes" I said stuttering. I was ready but it was my first time and of course I was scared. His eyes got big
"It's your first time isn't it"
I groaned "There goes the mood" I mumbled
"Yes it's my first time…But I want it to be with you. I LOVE YOU."
He relaxed
"I love you too, I'll be easy."
He slowly entered… he came to my walls and he had to put some force behind it to break through. When he pushed through I yelped.
He stopped and looked at me.
"NO don't stop I'm ok"
He nods and starts to move in and out. Soon the pain subsides and this wonderful feeling rushes over me. My whole body was hot and I was sweating. It was amazing and I wanted more
"OOO…faster please" I begged and he answered by speeding up. My moans got louder and louder to the point that I was almost yelling.
A feeling was building up and I knew what it was. I was a virgin not stupid. I was about to go mad my body started to shake and I couldn't control it, my moans had no breath between them… it was just a yell. I dug my nails into Sesshomaru's back and my hips started to buck. He held me down and I let out a scream and my body stopped shaking. He let a slight groan and then he bent into my neck.
"This might sting a little" He bit my neck and surprisingly I let out a moan. He laughed and looked into my eyes.
"I love you mate" I smiled and then out of no where I flipped him over on his back and I sat on top of him.
His eyes were wide in shock, and I couldn't help but laugh.
"I thought you said I wasn't strong enough to be your mate" I said playfully biting his neck
"I was wrong"
"Wow a girl who proved the GREAT lord of the west wrong… She must be pretty amazing" I said smiling
He sat up and wrapped his arms around me
"She is one of a kind… She is my world" Those words made my heart stop and a tear fell down my cheek.
"I wasn't going to be my father, I did something he couldn't."
"What was that?"
"He couldn't marry the one he loved…The human he loved" I smiled
"I'm glad he couldn't because if he did I wouldn't have you" He looked into my eyes and then kissed me. I wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled myself in to him. We broke the kiss
"I am yours for ever"
"And I am yours my love" He said to me.