DISCLAIMER:I did not write any of the twilight saga, I am not Stephenie Meyer, I am not pro or cool enough to be, and I own no characters here! There we go, I feel much better now!
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Jacobs POV
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I took a final leaping stride before turning back into my human self. Sweating from head to toe, I removed my cut off jeans from my ankle and pulled them up my legs, snapping the top button closed. With a sigh of relief I sat down beside a near by tree. Sometimes being a wolf was just too hard, what with all the thoughts of the rest of my pack coming into my head unannounced. It was always annoying, I don't even get how the bloodsucker could stand it all the time with anyone within a mile of him. Well at least I found one thing to give him credit for, I thought, chuckling to myself.
'What's so funny?' I looked up to see Leah walking towards me in a white tank top and jeans, pasted to her curves from the perspiration that covered her from her run. I cringed a little, hoping she wouldn't notice. I always couldn't tolerate Leah, but lately, lately it was a whole different reason I was avoiding her. Leah wasn't the annoying little wolf, the misfit that I couldn't stand, the one person who didn't fit in the pack. No, lately I had been seeing Leah in a completely different light. And I didn't know how I felt about seeing her this way yet.
'Nothing' I replied. 'Just thinking'. She came and sat beside me, she seemed to be a lot more comfortable with me ever since we helped with the Cullen's to protect Renesmee. The thought of Renesmee always brought a smile to my face, to think of the little cherub cheeked girl who I thought of as a niece always gave me a feeling of pride, like for once in my life I had made the right decision by letting Bella have her, keeping the pack away from her by any means possible, not to mention if it wasn't for Renesmee I would never have become so close to Leah. Oh Leah, with her fiery attitude and her plump lips set against her mahogany skin that matches mine like the sun setting into a warm dessert landscape. Warm dessert, the same heat I would feel if I just grabbed her frail figure in my arms and pressed her against me and--- WOAH STOP! STOP IT JACOB! I need to get these thought under control. I thanked god for the hundredth time this week that I didn't let my thoughts trail like this when Leah and I were in our wolf forms, not to mention if the guys ever knew it wouldn't take long for her to find out. And she couldn't find out, I wouldn't let her, we were finally getting along, I couldn't just up and ruin it like this! I couldn't just –
'EARTH TO JACOB! HELLLLLOOOOOO!' I clued in to the curious face and the waving hand in front of my face before shaking my hair out and blinking a few times, hoping Leah didn't notice the blush creeping into my cheeks.
'Sorry… did you say something?' I asked, hoping I didn't miss too much, whenever I started letting my thoughts of Leah go off I never knew how long I was missing out on reality.
'Yeah, it began with a 'what's wrong with you, you're not yourself and it's fairly obvious you've been avoiding me' and ended with an 'EARTH TO JACOB! HELLLLLOOOOOO!' she chuckled at the last part and I let myself join in.
'You know laughing isn't an answer Jacob, you're really starting to scare me lately…what's wrong? You can tell me anything you know that, brother for life right?' she said with a smirk on her face, punching my shoulder lightly. I pretended that my cringe was to her punch and not to her ...that's all I meant to her, just another Seth. Well I can't say I expected anything else, I mean I saw this coming from a mile away but still...
'JAKE! You're out in your happy place again!'
'Yeah...happy place...that's it' I muttered.
She gave me a bit of a dirty look and snarl before looking at me expectantly. That's when I realized I hadn't answered her questions, and she was looking more and more annoyed by the second.
'Look Leah you can calm down and stop being all motherly now. There's nothing wrong with me, I've just been thinking a lot you know... ' I trailed off in mid sentence, not wanting to continue and accidentally slip up on who exactly it was that had been haunting my thoughts lately.
'Yeah. That's kind of obvious. But what have you been thinking about Jake. Come on you can tell me, I know you're like avoiding me and I don't like it, and if its cause of all these thoughts, well I wish you would just tell me what the hell is going on cause I'm seriously starting to get scared here, your not yourself and…oh!' she said looking straight at me like she figured me out. I gasped in a quick breath of air, scared she knew everything when she finished 'this is about Bella isn't it Jake? You're still not over her are you! Oh I'm so sorry, I'm just so stupid! I should have known Jake! Oh god of course you're upset they left off out of the country and then you wanted to head off in the opposite direction just you and me for a break from the pack! Oh god Jake it makes so much sense! Of course you wanted a break, oh I was just so stupid and---
'WOAH! WHAT?!' I cut her off 'Leah, nonono Leah you have no clue how wrong you are! This isn't about Bella at all! I'm over Bella; I realized that she wasn't the one for me before the wedding even happened! I love her like a sister, I feel protective of her, that's all Leah, I swear on my mothers grave that I have no feelings for Bella anymore other then a close sibling like bond!' I was out of breath by the time I was done my spiel, looking at Leah to see if she believed me.
'Oh, sorry I just thought. Cause...well' she stammered looking for the right words.
'No its fine Leah, I realize that it might have seemed that way, I just want you to know I don't feel for Bella that way anymore, okay? If were going to be a close pack there can't be any confusion you know?'
'No Jacob I totally agree. And there shouldn't be any secrets either right?'
I tried not to give myself away n my face 'yeah Leah, a good pack isn't built on lies' I was slightly upset by how true the words I had just said were true, a good pack shouldn't have lies, any lies, but in a circumstance like this, I felt the pack would suffer more over the truth.
'So are you going to tell me who she is then?' Leah surprised me by her unexpected question.
'Who who is?' I asked confused.
'The girl'
'What girl'
'the girl you're always thinking about, I can see the love struck look on your face whenever you're thinking, I can hear you mumbling lovey dovey stuff in your sleep, come on Jake, just tell me. I've been trying to think of who it could be for weeks now but the only girl who came to mind is Bella! I mean you don't even hang out with any girls other then bloodsuckers, and I highly doubt your into Rosealie or Alice' she laughed loudly at the last thought. Shock struck my face, then relief when I realized she hadn't even considered herself as a girl/ I guess sometimes it was a good thing she had accepted she was just one of the guys to the pack..Well most of the pack anyways.
'Look Leah I have no clue what your talking about! There's no girl, I've just been debating where to travel next you know, I mean its up to you really we could keep heading north up into the Yukon and stuff and try polar bear, or we could stay head east a little more into Ontario and find some moose, I hear they're way bigger then they look in all the pictures and stuff, like almost as tall as me maybe! That could be pretty cool to see! Or we could—
'Oh Jake shut up! You're not fooling anyone. You have no clue how horrible you are at lying!' I let myself pout a little bit, I thought I was actually fooling her for a bit, but I didn't swipe the pout off my face before it was noticed by Leah. 'SEE! Jake I just don't get it! I mean I thought we were getting close! It feels so different with you! You'd think you could tell me a little thing like a crush, but no! If you cant even trust me with something like a stupid little crush how can I expect you to tell me when something important happens? Come on Jake just tell me, one word, just a name, that's all I want to know—
'Wait why the hell do you care so much anyways Leah? Since when have you even given a second glance to who I liked! That's my business and mine alone, I don't ask you about who you liked, what guy is running through your mind when you stare off into space, who you dream about, you've never cared Leah so why?! Why now! What's any different now that would make you care so much more about who in the FUCK I LIKE?!' I realized I was getting out of control, but I was scared, scared I was figured out, scared of what it would mean if I was figured out, scared of what this could all mean'
I was so into my screaming anything to get myself out of this confrontation that I dint even realize Leah's face tightening, her body retracting into herself, the tears leaping to her eyes. Not until she spoke, so small, so quiet, so frightened, a voice I never had and never expected to hear coming from Leah's mouth 'I...I...I don't know, its just, weve been getting closer and, I thought you trusted me but, its just.. I don't know...I'm sorry, I'm so sorry, I can go home...i can leave ..I can' she started sobbing in between words, sniffling and hyperventilating through her sentences. I had never seen Leah look like this, so frail, so vulnerable, so unshielded. I didn't know what to do so I did the first thing that came to mind, I kneeled down onto the ground where she was crumpled into a ball and held her, I wrapped my arms around her small body and hugged her. She froze at first, not moving, not breathing, and I was so scared I had ruined everything, that I had finally gone to far, just as I was about to retract myself from her and apologize I felt her arms reach around me and pull me closer to her, her small face going into my chest, feeling her hot wet tears slide down my bare chest.
'Leah, you're not going anywhere, you're not leaving, I don't want you to go anywhere, I know we've been getting closer, and I don't want to lose you Leah, I shouldn't have yelled I overreacted, but please Leah, don't leave, do anything you want, but please don't leave me, not now, not like this, just…don't go' I pulled her even closer to me, shifting her bottom into my lap, her arms still around me back and her face still pressed into my chest.
She looked up at me, her tears starting to dry, she looked so simple, so perfect, so Leah, so…. Perfect. I looked her straight in the eyes, and before I could think of what I was doing my hand was cupping her chin, pulling her face up to mine, looking for any sense of hesitation or protest in her eyes. Seeing only confusion, I sucked in a sharp breath and before I could stop myself, harshly pressed my hungry lips to hers.
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Well there you go, remember this is my first story so sorry if its incredibly horrid, but ummmm, yeah, I would respect and love you for any reviews good or bad, input is great, and im not continuing unless I get a review and or fan that says 'please continue' and my friends do not count lol. You know who you are. So thankyou, and puhhlease you know you want to push that tempting little button saying review! Kay? Wonderful! Looking forward to it
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