You Can't Have It All

sequel to "Starcrossed Lovers"

Chapter 1: Flashbacks

Lil just thought about what she had said to her mother. Was this a mistake? Was she dreaming?

Flashbacks kept playing in her mind. Everything was a mess now.

"Lillian Deville, I love you so much. You mean everything to me and I can't stop thinking of you." Tommy finally spit out.
"Good." said Lil in shock.
"What's that supposed to mean?" answered Tommy.
"Now it's my turn." Said Lil. "I love you too Tommy. You are the world to me. I miss you everyday"

"Tommy, I think I'm ready." said Lil.
"What's that babe?" asked Tommy.
"I'm ready to lose it with you." Said Lil in amazement.

"Lil, I never felt like this in my life", said Tommy. "I love you very much."

"I never felt like this either." replied Lil. "I Love you too."

"When do you think we'll see eachother again?" aksed Lil.

"Probablly at Kimmy's party in a couple months." replied Tommy in a sad voice.

"I don't think I can survive not seeing you for that long."

Hi, are you okay?" said a girl.

Lil looked up and said "Not really."

"I'm Jessica Smith." said the girl. She didn't look like the rest of the girls at her school. She wor the same kind oc clothes as Lil and was nice.

"Okay then." said Lil. "I slept with the guy I love and now I missed my period."

"Oh my god." said Jessica. "Didn't you use protection?"

"No, he for got to bring condoms. I told him to pull out, but I guess that didn't work."

"Does the guy go here?" asked Jessica.

"Why don't you come to my house with me after school and you can take a pregnancy test." said Jessica. "That way if you're not pregnant, your mom never has to find out."

"Okay, I'll meet you outside in the front of the school." said Lil. "Thanks Jessica."

"So.." said Lil.

"Look yourself." said Jessica.

Lil looked and it was blue. She started to cry really hard.

"My life is over Jessica." Lil said between sobs.

"No it isn't." said Jessica. "You can hide it from your mom until you have a plan. But you should tell her in a few months, but you should tell your boyfriend."

"I just made the biggest mistake of my life." sobbed Lil, as she showed Ms. Smith her pregnancy test.

"Aww honey, what happend?" asked Ms Smith.

"Don't worry honey, you'll make it through this." said Ms Smith. "I know I did."

"Thanks." said Lil. "You guys have alredy helped me a lot."

"Stayt strong" said Jessica. "I'll be online all night if you need me. If not, call us. We'll try to help."

"Hi baby, whats up?" said Tommy.

"Tommy, I"m pregnant." said Lil.

"Oh my god. Are you fucking serious?" said Tommy in shock.

"Yes." said Lil. "I took a test at my friend Jessica's house today."

"What the hell are we supposed to tell our parents?" yelled Tommy. "We're going to get in so much trouble!"

"Oh my god Tommy, I thought you'd be the one who would understand." said Lil in a shaky voice. She felt like she was going to cry.

"Know what Lil..maybe we should of never snuck around. Maybe we should of never slept with eachother. I think this was a huge mistake." said Tommy.

"What's wrong? said Jessica, who could tell Lil had been crying.

"I told my boyfriend to call me." said Lil, who was about to cry again. "And i told him what happened."

"So what did he say and how did he take it?" asked Jessica.

"He only cared about what our families would think and he was yelling at me" said Lil, while she was sobbing "Then he told me to go talk to you guys because you'll understand more. And he said that sneaking around and doing me was a huge mistake. then when I told him, I still loved him a lot, he said he doesn't know if he still loves me."

"Jessica, I'm coming to your house. My parents are fighting again and I can't take it at all." said Lil.

"Okay Lil." said Jessica. "I'll tell my mom. Are you sure you're okay?"

"I'll be fine. I can't stay at my ouse though." answered Lil.

Lil arrived at Jessica's house. Jessica and Ms Smith gave her a hug, then showed her were she could sleep. Lil went to bed and Jessica came in.

"Lil..everything's gonna turn out to be okay in the end." said Jessica in a comferting voice. "Me and my mom will be here for you."

After a sleepless night, Lil rose out of her bed and got dressed. She ate breakfast with Jessica and her mom. Then Lil's phone rang. It was Betty. She was angry.

"Lil, what got into you. you scared me to death. I had no idea where you were. Seriously, what got into you?" yelled Betty.

"Mom..I'm pregnant." said Lil, with her whole body shaking.

Lil sat there in silence as her mother yelled at her. She was regretting telling her that she was going to have a baby.

Was Betty going to make her have an abortion? Was she ever going to talk to Tommy again? What if she was going to be alone forever?

Lil heard her mom yell "WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU!? WHAT DID YOU DO!? WHY THE FUCK DIDN'T YOU LISTEN TO MY ADVICE? WHO'S BABY IS IT?"

Lil couldn't speak. She was too scared to face the truth. All she could say was "um" and "uh". She knew those kinds of answers wouldn't make her mother happy,

so she caught her breath and finally answered.

She took a deep breath and said to her mom "Don't be mad at me mom, please don't be, but its Tommy's baby. We've been sneaking around. Anyways why are you

so against Tommy? It was his parents that ruined the friendship, not him or me or Phil or Dil. Anyways we broke up now and my life is ruined. He doesn't understand me."

Her mother sighed loudly. She replied "Honey, you made a mistake but still it was dumb of you to have sex without protection. And anyways, why Tommy? Children

take after their parents usually."

Lil was furious. "Mom, you act like you chose who you love. You don't. Anyways i thought Tommy was different. Couldn't you support me and have my back for once."

Betty quickly responded "I have to go, your father is being stupid again. Love you honey. Talk to you later."

Lil responded "So you know i'm staying here with Jessica and Mrs Smith. I don't want to be around you."

Betty had already hung up, but Lil said it anyways. She was angry with her mom for not trying to understand how she felt.