"Sasuke-kun," I started. "Nani?" "Ano….do you love somebody?" he looked at me
strangely. Ever since he returned and lived with me, I never dared to ask about love life
in front of him. He made face. "Gomen." I said as I looked down at the pillow covering
my feet.
"Yeah." He suddenly replied.
"Eh?"
"Yeah, I love somebody."
"Who?"
"Whay'd dya ask?"
"Nothing special. Just curious."
"Fine."
"Who is she?" I got excited.
"You."
"Eh? It's a lie."
"No it's not."
Then, the next thing happened is that I cannot explain. All I know is when I came
to sense; I saw his lips pressing mine. It was so passionate and I can feel his love for me.
I closed my eyes and responded to his passionate kiss with all I got. It lasted for about a
minute. Then without me noticing it, a tear fell down on my cheek and something struck
my brain which I wished I didn't remember.
Flashback
"Sakura-chan," I looked around and saw my best friend who is not Ino but Karin.
She approached me so slowly that I began to ask "Nani?" She looked at me
strangely and said, "Sakura-chan, do you love Sasuke-kun?" I began to be
worried; I don't know why. "Doushite?" I asked her once again. She looked at the
ground, and began to shiver. 'Maybe because of the coldness' but I was wrong.
She was crying. It appeared to be that I was part of her problem.
"Sakura-chan, do you love Sasuke-kun?" she asked again.
"Hai." I replied. She wept louder then gazed at me.
"I love him!" she shrieked. I was motionless.
"I asked him but he said that he loves you…." Then after she said those words,
lightning pierced my heart. At first, I was really happy that he chose me out of the
million girls who had confessed their love to him; but to see my best friend in that
state made me feel that somehow I was being selfish which I don't want her to feel.
I comforted her and said, "Do you really love him?" I was really nervous of the
answer she is going to give me. She nodded. I was taken aback. "Daijoubou…" I
said. I looked at the scenery ahead of us; resting my arms on the bars surrounding
the top floor. She looked at me confused. I tried to smile; even a fake smile made
my heart twitch. "I'll give you to him," she smiled at me. To be honest I was
really mad at her. I really wanted to push her of the floor and see her lying on the
ground asking for help. "Arigato, Sakura-chan!" "Temo, you have to be very
patient in getting his attention. He doesn't like girls who are really getting
attention or overacting." I instructed her. "Hai!" she replied eagerly.
End of Flashback
I felt once more the softness of his skin on me as he wiped the tear which fell
down awhile ago followed by a couple more. "Doushite?" he asked. I just shrugged. I felt
my body move closer to his as he continues to talk. "Sakura, gomen." I looked at him. I
was in fact surprised of what he just said. A prodigy like him asking forgiveness to an
ordinary kunochi like me? Insane isn't?
"You did nothing wrong." I replied. But he insisted. "Really, I'm sorry." "About
what?" I asked. "For leaving you without…" I didn't let him finish his sentence.
"Daijoubou. I understand how you feel. Temo, I think you did what a man should do, but
for some reasons, I disagree with you. You should have told me where you were going.
But its okay, it's already past." "Arigato." He said and I smiled at him as he kissed me on
my big forehead.
The next day…
"Ohayo Sasuke-kun." I said as usual early in the morning after I finish preparing
our breakfast and lunch. He looked at me with sleepy eyes and stood up; walking towards
me. "Ohayo…" he replied and kissed me on the cheeks. I was startled. Then he gazed at
my eyes then smiled; a true smile which I waited for so long to see in his face.
After that, we went down to have breakfast then went to school.
"Ohayo!!" Ino greeted us with a warm smile on her cheeks. He gave Sasuke-kun a
good morning kiss on the cheeks which I think annoyed him. "Yamero!" he protested.
Ino glared at Sasuke-kun which didn't affect him though.
Classes went well that day except that lunch…………………………….
"Umm… is Sasuke-kun there?" I asked on of his classmate. He searched in the
room and shouted "Oi, Uchiha-san! Ms. Sakura-chan is looking for you!" he suddenly
stood up and pushed the guy who just called him. I was scared. I just looked at the floor
in embarrassment.
"Nani?" he asked. "Umm… I was just wondering if you could join me for lunch?"
I replied. "Let's go." He moaned and took my arm; letting me walk away from their
classroom. "Mate, Sasuke-kun." I whined. It wasn't going my way. He rolled his eyes
and said "What is it this time?" "Umm… can Karin join us for lunch?" He sighs. "Fine."
he replied.
We went straightly to our classroom and I talked to Karin, telling my plan.
"Temo, I'm not prepared!" she protested. "What did I tell you? You should always follow
me right?" Honestly, I really don't like her to go with us but since I made my promise, I
can't simply deny it. How bad am I?
Well anyway, she agreed to come and eat with us in the rooftop; carrying her own
bento. Well, in Sasuke-kun's place, I was the one carrying his. We laid the blanket where
we're supposing to seat. All went well 'cause I was the only one talking.
"Ne, Sasuke-kun, ano, do you have any plans for Saturday?"
"You promised we will accompany me to the cemetery." He replied.
"Gomen, I almost forgot." I said making an excuse. 'This isn't going in my plan!'
"How about you, Karin-chan?" I asked her.
"Nothing…."
"Why don't you come over to my place and let's have dinner together?"
"…Umm, I really don't know, temo if you insist."
All of a sudden. Sasuke-kun just stood up giving me his finished bento then left
us. "Oi, mate Sasuke-kun!" I called him. He stopped then I pulled him closer to
me so that Karin cannot hear.
"What's wrong with you Sasuke-kun?"
"…"
"Sasuke!"
"I don't like her to be with us." He complained. I understand how he feels; I really
don't like too, but I have no choice.
"Listen, I have to tell you something. It's very important." He gazed into my
emerald eyes; I gave him a serious look. "Fine." He answered. Then he left saying
that she has no right coming inside our house. In some points, I agree with him.
"Ano, Karin-chan, gomen, Sasuke-kun said he and his friends are going to stay at
our house tonight. Maybe next time okay?" It's a lie, okay? But, since its Friday
maybe, Naruto and the others will really stay at my place…
"…Okay." She answered then left me alone in the rooftop.
My place, after school…
My guess was wrong. Naruto and the others didn't come as I expect. I came home
a little late 'because I still have to buy groceries for the weekend. "Oi, Sakura." Sasuke-
kun greeted me as usual. I tried to analyzed his actions, which I can't.
He gently placed his hands on me and wiped the sweat out of my face. I smiled at
him saying "Thanks." Then I once again found him kissing me; without any notice! I just
replied to him besides I like it also.
"Welcome home…" he said. 'Strange' my inner self whispered. I agreed.
He smirked. I guess I have to get used to it. He led me to the living room asking
"What do you have to discuss with me?"
I looked down on the floor. I sigh. Taking all my courage I said to him "Sasuke-
kun, I'm sorry but I can't love you anymore…" I cried. I couldn't take it
anymore…. I glanced at his face, gazing at his emotionless appearance.
"Gomen…." Tears heavier than before raced down at my cheeks.
He patted my head then said, "Doushite? Is something bothering you?" I kept
avoiding his eyes. Realizing that I actually needed to tell someone what my
feelings are, I told him.
"Sasuke-kun please love Karin-chan for me…"
"…"
"Please… for me…"
"I won't."
"Temo…"
"Tell me why…"
"BECAUSE I'M FED UP WITH YOU!!!"
"…"
With that, I realized that I am the most stupid person in the whole universe. I cried
bitterly and went straight to my room and mourned that night. I don't know what
really came to me when I said those words…
I called Ino and told her everything including the promise I made with Karin-
chan. She just listened to me and exclaimed "What the hell did you do? You
wasted an opportunity!!!!"
What she said was right. I did everything in my childhood to be loved by him and
now, I just wasted all my efforts… because of a stupid promise.
The next morning…
I woke up as usual and felt nothing has happened. I woke him up saying
"Ohayo Sasuke-kun…" then he looked at me. As fast as the blink of an eye, he
grabbed me; letting me sit in his bed.
He gently placed his lips on mine; enjoying every swirl of his tongue into my
mouth. "I won't give up on you…" he said in between breaths. He tenderly laid
me on his bed; whiffing my smell. He started to kiss me on the neck. I struggled
in his grasp and after a few moments he let his grip loose.
"I'm not giving up on you…" he repeated. He stood up, leaving me in his room.
Then we went to school together, as usual.
Karin welcomed us on the front gate. "Oi, Karin," Sasuke-kun said. I looked at
him and so as my best friend. "I need to talk to you." Then he left; without saying
where they would meet. Idiot, isn't he?
"Karin-san, Uchiha-san wants to talk to you!" the caller boy in our room
screamed. I gazed into her eyes and realized that she was trembling but I can feel
her excitement. I stood up and went to see Sasuke-kun before her.
"Sasuke-kun,"
"…"
"Ano, what are you going to tell her?"
"…"
"Sasuke-kun,"
"None of your business, Sakura."
"Temo…"
"Ano, Sasuke-kun nani?" That irritating voice interrupted my interrogation. I
turned around to see who I was and how I wish I didn't and continued what I was
about to tell him. The three of us exchange glances and Sasuke-kun spoke, "I have
to talk to you in private." He said, grabbing Karin-chan's arm.
After lunch break….
I saw her crying from the roof top. 'Something's wrong…' I thought.
'So why do you care?' said my inner self.
'Because she's my friend.'
'Do good friend hurt each other? She knew from the start that you loved
Sasuke-kun but she still told you that she doesn't and lied to you all this
time…'
'Temo…maybe she doesn't have the courage to tell me…'
'Oh really… meaning she just use your knowledge in understanding Sasuke-
kun more and used it for her own good?'
'…'
'Let's just stop this, okay?' Then she disappeared for awhile in my thoughts. I
searched for Karin-chan in the entire village after classes. I rummage her every
where.
"Oi, where are you going?" I turned to see who it was. "Sasuke-kun…"
"Shouldn't you be home already?" he asked. I looked down. "But…" He grabbed
my arm then said "We're going home!" "NO!!!" I let go of my arm forcefully. He
looked at me straight in the eye.
"I still have to look for someone…"
"It's her, right?"
"Yeah." I whispered.
"…"
Then I sense his touch; caressing my face. I looked at him in his eyes. He leaned
forward and kissed me on the lips. I really realized that he is worried about me.
He swirled his tongue into my mouth; exploring it. I did the same. It was so
passionate that I don't want to let go.
He broke the kiss and said, "I'll help you…" My heart jumped for joy. "Temo,
after that, we'll go home straight." "But…" "No buts." I nodded. "Fine." I replied.
Without me noticing it, he already placed his arm on my waist. "Oi, Sasuke-kun!
Yamero!" He just smirked at me and continued what he is doing. We searched the
places where she would usually go and finally we found her.
"Karin-chan!!!" I screamed; running towards her. She looked at me then said,
"Sakura-chan, Sasuke-kun…." I smiled at her saying that everything is going to
be fine. "Sakura let's go." Sasuke-kun said. "Can I stay a little longer?" I looked
at him with beautiful eyes but he replied "Stop it!" he said while covering my
eyes. "Fine but come home at exactly 11:00 pm, 'kay?" "Okay!" He left us alone
I the park; under the stars.
"Karin-chan, daijoubou?"
"Yeah."
"Are you sure?"
"Mmm…" she nodded.
"Why did you suddenly disappeared in the middle of the class?"
"I'm sorry to bother you Sakura-chan but I'm really okay. I just needed sometime
alone."
"Okay. Sorry to disturb you." Then I offered her to walk her home but she refused
and said that she will just stay in the park for awhile and go home.
"You're late." A sermon greeted me when I got back. "Do you know what time it
is?" I gazed at his face then replied, "11:00 pm." "No. 11:20." "Eh?" I examined
the clock and found out that what he said was true. "Gomen…" I apologize.
"Whatever." He uttered.
I went to my room which I shared with him so he followed. "Turn around." I
instructed him. He turns around and I began to undress. It was normal to us because
we've been doing his for quite some time already.
"It's okay now." Then he stared at my night gown. "Nani? Is there something
wrong Sasuke-kun?" He smirked. "Doushite?" "I just can't imagine that Kasan's
clothes would fit you." "Don't underestimate me Uchiha Sasuke…" I warned
him; giving him a serious look while pointing at his forehead the gesture Itachi
usually does.
He swiftly changed our position; I being in top now at the bottom. He stared at
my body then began kissing me on the neck; nipping and licking. I moaned. I
couldn't help it.
I tried to stop him but my inner self forbade me from doing so because she
reasoned out that I really like it; which was true. He untied the ribbons that
surrounding my body; leaving me half nude.
I the realized that he was already relished of what he is doing to me. "Yamero!!!"
I screamed at the top of my voice when he reached to my pussy and tried to caress
it. He took a break then stared at me. I felt a shiver down my spine. I recognized
that I'm still a pure and not yet at the point of having sex with the man I love.
Unexpectedly, he stopped. 'Maybe tired…' I thought. "Gomen," he whispered.
"Eh? What do you mean?" "Gomen…" he repeated. "I know that you're not ready
yet…." He said, looking at me. "Gomen…" he took a bow then left me on the bed
alone.
'Weird…' my mind wondered. I took a deep breath and went to him in the living
room. I took a peep and saw that he is watching TV. "Ano… Sasuke-kun, do you
have a second?" He twist his head a little and said to me, "Change first." I obeyed
him and wore my night gown; the one he gave to me.
I took a step in the living room and sat beside him. Fortunately the show he is
watching is over.
"Sasuke-kun, ano…"
"…"
"I'm sorry too. I should've not worn that…"
"It's not your fault. I was the one who initiated."
"Still, I'm sorry….really sorry…" I bowed in front of him. He taps me on the
head and vowed that he will never do that again to me.
"Temo," he started. He stood up; walking towards our room and continued to
utter this. The words he seems to love to repeat; and I love to hear them "I will
never give up on you…" He glanced at me and emits a small smile on his face.
"Mate Sasuke-kun!" I called out to him. That night went well….
The next day…
"Ohayo Sasuke-kun…"I greeted him. 'Still looks sleepy.' I noticed his eyes tried
to snap-out of it. "Daijoubou. Since I'm on the mood, I'll give you 5 more
minutes." I said to him.
"Eh?" I was surprised when he abruptly approached me. He gave me a morning
kiss; which sometimes he does to me. Well I'm used to this kind of situation but
his kiss currently is demanding yet very mouthwatering.
He unexpectedly controlled my body back to my bed. He then started placing
gentle, wet kisses on my neck. I couldn't help but to moan. He loomed over my
body then whispered softly in my ear, "I'm not giving up on you…." He rubbed
his lips against mine quickly; exploring my mouth. I welcomed his tongue of
course but he rapidly broke the kiss then left the room.
I laid at my bed for minutes; still gasping for air. His kiss always leaves me
breathless. He peeped into the room; only wearing his shorts. I already saw his
chest a hundred times so another one doesn't matter. I noticed that he by now
finished taking a bath; seeing the towel clung into his neck.
I stood up, grabbed my towel then started walking towards the door.
"Eh?!" I was taken aback when he swiftly blocked my way.
"Oi, What's wrong with you Sasuke-kun?!" I questioned him, a little annoyed.
"Hayaku." he said. I just shrugged then went to the bathroom and followed his
orders. I dressed up then got ready for school when suddenly I felt a peck on my
neck knowing that it was only him doing it.
"Nandayo?" I irritated asked him. He paused for a moment. We actually had a
little staring contest at that time but of course I won. He closed his eyes and
gently rest his lips on mine sending shivers on my spine.
His lips are really satisfying and it leaves you breathless. I broke the kiss for air to
enter my mouth.
He gave me a smooch on the forehead then carried me, bridal style.
He placed me in the sofa and pulled out something from his pocket. It is a red box
carved with my name 'Sakura' in a gold script found on the hood.
I blink my eyes several times… wondering if the thought that is occurring in my
mind…
"Sasuke-kun…"
"…"
"…"
"Open it."
I opened the hood and found a necklace with my name carved in gold. The
Uchiha crest is also visible at the side of my golden name.
I found myself shocked-yeah, shocked with mouth open. I mean, how could this
be? I promised Karin-chan that I would support her… now she will think that I'm
a big fat liar.
"Sasuke-kun… I … don't know what to say…."
"Do you love me?"
"Yes… but…"
"Forget her." He mentioned Karin-chan's name with coldness in his voice. I find
it somehow, disturbing.
"What will… I …"
"I SAID FORGET HER!"
He kissed me forcefully. He licked my lower lip; met my tongue and danced with
it. He paused the kiss to catch his breathing while I gasped for air. This is the
most forceful kiss I had encountered with him – yet. I discovered that the more I'd
be with him, the more forceful kiss I would receive.
"I love you…" I whispered. "I love you Sasuke-kun temo… Karin-chan…"
"Why do you care about her? I mean… it is about us not her."
I was convinced of what he said. I mean -Karin-chan has nothing to do with
our relationship.
But she's my friend!
Your new friend! Do you remember who came first?
"Karin…" he mentioned my friend's name. "She is good…" he paused. I don't
know what I felt that moment. Fear? Angst? Mixed emotions entered my heart…
worrying me. Jealousy I presume took over my body at that moment.
"But you're better." He avoided my eyes. Before I could comment, he took my
hand and kissed me – sweetly this time. I couldn't hold my feelings anymore. I
know that I love him – more that I could imagine. I took the privilege of kissing
him back, wanting him to feel the same intense feeling yet so new. I knew the
feeling of wanting me had always been in my heart ever since I came to my
senses and acknowledge the feelings I harbored just for him. Yet the need of his
affection has never been this way – paralyzing my mind from thinking the other's
welfare.
"I love you." He whispered while catching his berating.
"I love you too…" I decided that from that day on, I would continue loving
Sasuke-kun. Karin-chan would always be my friend despite the complications we
encountered. Though it would be awkward, it's okay. Love will conquer nearly
everything right?
Fin.
Note: I wrote the fic 2-3 months ago. I just finished it today. Hope you like it. :)) it's not my kind of writing but I think an author like us explore the art of writing while knowing who we really are/