"Bella?"
I had just stopped him from getting himself killed. We had just left Italy with our lives--so to speak. Being with him...being back in Forks, a familiar setting now, I began to think more clearly. We were in my room, unbeknownst to Charlie, and my angel was saying my name. "Stay...don't leave me...not yet," I tried feebly to convince him.
"Bella," he sighed my name like I was the sun that he hadn't seen since he'd left. "I'm not leaving you. Ever again. I was wrong. I'm sorry...I'll never..." He looked crushed, unable to continue. "Can you ever forgive me?"
Staring at him my hand twitched on its own accord. All these months and he'd lied? I couldn't stop myself. I slapped him. I didn't care if he didn't really feel it. The gesture was enough. "Sorry? All these months, just to be wrong? I was expecting something else, some other story." My eyes flashed with anger, tears of frustration welling up on the surface.
He was still. He hadn't looked at me since I'd hit him. "Bella," he could barely say my name. Was I really this horrible? I instantly felt guilty for my actions. "I said I love you and I swear I still do. I can understand if you want me to leave, though. I'm sorry," he closed his eyes, sighing in defeat.
How cruel could I be? Much worse, I decided, instantly making myself the villain. I was driving away the only one I loved. I clutched his shirt, leaning my forehead against his hard, cold chest. I didn't want to cry, I wasn't going to cry...instead I ended up sobbing. "Don't leave...don't tell me you're sorry."
He wrapped his wonderful arms around me, kissing the top of m head. "Tell me, Bella. How can I ever make this up to you?" He held me tighter, comforting me. I felt like heaven.
"Tell me you love me. Don't leave me. Prove to me why I should hand you a heart worth breaking." I whispered the last part, but I knew he had heard me. Why was I saying these things? Wasn't it enough that Edward was back? My heart was having a problem making up its mind; doing flips one minute, contracting painfully in my chest the next.
He held me like that for a long time, letting me have a good cry. Really, he was already forgiven.
Hey guys. It's really short, but it was in my head. Inspired by the song "This is How You Remind Me" by Nickelback. I took some lines from the song. Just another shot of me just putting moments down on paper. Enjoy. :)
KP