What Would Happen?
by j-chan
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Yami no Matsuei
Every single time I hear this song, Muraki and Tsuzuki come to my mind. I finally had to write something, or go crazy. It's been in my head too long. And this is the only way to make it go away. So this is the first--and probably only--songfic I'm going to write, since in general, they drive me bonkers. And this has no plot; it just happens. This occurs through all of the anime, since I haven't had time to sit down and read the manga yet (I read Japanese very, very, *very* slowly...) So if you haven't seen the whole thing, you might be kinda confused. (OK, more confused. This is a weird fic, and I know it). This is an experiment for me--it's first person, which I've never done as well as third, and it's also going to be doing a lot of perspective hopping, from Tsuzuki to Muraki and vice versa, and time hopping--some happens in the beginning of the show, some at the end. It's all goofed up--like I said, an experiment, and it very well may have blown up in my face. Please, let me have it if it fails, 'kay? Arigatou!
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Electricity, eye to eye Hey don't I know you I can't speak I
can't speak right. I try, but the words get all tangled up in my mouth.
I feel so clumsy. I apologize; I've interrupted something private. The
man was on his knees before the altar...I guess he was praying. he was
crying. he stands, and I'm trapped; he's overwhelming me and I don't know
why. He is...he simply is, and I can't speak. The words are clumsy, tripping
around my tongue. I'm uncomfortable, I'm embarrassed that I've seen this
man I've never met crying. I've never met him before. But i'm on egde
somehow. I don't know what this is...I think I might fear him...he's got
me on edge. I fear something i've never seen before, something focused
on me. Stripped my senses On the spot I've never been defenseless I can't even make sense of this You speak and I don't hear a word hands
on me. What would happen if we kissed Would your tongue slip past my lips Would you run away, would you stay Or would I melt into you Mouth to mouth, lust to lust Spontaneously combust
Tsuzuki-san. You have no idea how perfect you are, do you? That perfect
shattered innocence. It only takes a few words. A phrase that's haunted
you forever, and you capitulate. Tsuzuki...you will gaze only upon me.
You will be my possession. I will have you before I use you. Do you know
that, Tsuzuki-san? Do you? I whisper the words of your undoing in your
ear, feeling your body so close to mine. There is nothing but us, do you
know this? The boy was amusing. The boy would have been destroyed by the
world had I not destroyed him first. I let him die before he could turn
into me. He was like I once was. Before. The room is spinning out of control Act like you didn't notice Brushed my hand
Waiting. I know how to wait. It's such a nice day, but I can't really
think about it. There's a little girl who fainted, and there was something
not natural about it. I thought so, at least. Something just didn't feel
right. Forbidden fruit Ring on my finger You're such a moral, moral man You throw it away, no question Will I pretend I'm innocent ...i'm human, right? i am...but...how does he know? shut up, please shut up, stop...please, muraki...i can't talk, can't speak...he keeps talking...help me, someone help me...someone...but who would help me? i'm not human, i'm a demon, i'm...i'm...i'm sorry, i'm so sorry...i'm so sorry...i'm so...so... What would happen if we kissed Would your tongue slip past my lips Would you run away, would you stay Or would I melt into you Mouth to mouth, lust to lust Spontaneously combust
Tsuzuki-san. I was so close to you. I gave you up gracefully. I don't
want you simply won with a deal of the cards. Not like that. You're too
fragile for that. I'll break you, but not like that. I see that uncertainty
in every movement. When you don't have a purpose in front of you...and
when it's not for that damnable brat...you're going to give into me, Tsuzuki-san.
I struggle with myself again Quickly the walls are crumbling Don't know if I can turn away
Oh no oh no oh no...i lost. i lost. oh no. oh no. oh no. no. don't come
any closer, please don't...when did a wall get there? wait, was i backing
away? i don't remember getting up or.. What would happen if we kissed Would your tongue slip past my lips Would you run away, would you stay Or would I melt into you Mouth to mouth, lust to lust Spontaneously combust
Tsuzuki-san. I long to press my lips to yours. To feel that fluttering,
terrified heartbeat under my hand. To feel that soft flesh. You're gone.
You're somewhere within your own world; within your mind. You aren't aware
of anything. You don't notice when I gently strip you of that suit and
tie. You don't notice how my hands roam over you as I dress you in the
yukata. You don't react when I brush that beautifully mussed hair out
of your glazed eyes. |