Billy pulled his jacket tighter as he walked along the streets of Manhattan. A crumpled piece of paper in his hand with Jenn's new address written on it. He memorized what she wrote and really didn't' need it, but he still held it tightly n his hand. A small backpack thrown over his shoulder he walked faster. He couldn't wait to hold her. To look into her eyes again. To feel her love for him. How could he ever be so foolish letting the only person who felt anything for him feel pain. Pain that he himself caused. Joe was being himself no matter what Billy did. Why waste his life away trying to protect someone who didn't care about himself or anyone else. It was early when the plane landed in Jersey. He took a cab to Manhattan dropping him off at her apartment. She wasn't home and the only place he could think of was her school. It had

been a few months since they had spoken, but he knew that the second she laid her eyes on him she would be just as happy as he was. Butterflies flew recklessly in his stomach making his need to see her worsen. This was where he was going to start over, start a brand new life like they had planned. He smiled to himself as he got closer to her school. He had asked for directions a while back and refused to forget them.

Her school was now in view as his heart pounded. He jogged the rest of the way. One thing Billy didn't have, was patience. Closer he got to the large set of stairs that flowed across the entire front of the building. Several students walked passed him, some sitting on the steps others going in and out of the building. One group of students caught is eye right away. There were several people standing up and a few sitting down laughing and talking. The girl sitting in the middle of it all, her long brown hair pulled back in a neat ponytail. Her face so perfect and sweet. Jenn. He stopped walking, not because he didn't want her to see him, but because he just wanted to savor the sight of her. He smiled to himself as he watched her have a serious conversation with one of the girls she was sitting with. Slowly her smile grew as Billy watched her. She started to laugh. He missed that laugh. It was a real meaningful laugh. The type of laugh that made everyone else laugh. He chuckled to himself. She was just as beautiful as she was the last day he saw her. He wouldn't even say a word when he walked to her. He would just grab her and kiss her as deeply as he could. Let the whole world know how much he loved her.Jenn's face turned a pale pink as one of the guys she was talking to sat next to her. She grabbed the ends of her ponytail and twirled it with her finger. She looked at her feet as he talked, a small childish grin across her face. Billy's smile slowly faded away as he watched the love of his life do the same uncomfortable flirting she did with him the day he asked her out. Her fingers kept twirling her hair faster and faster until the guy whose attention she had, grabbed it. She giggled and looked away.

The sweet happy expression that was placed on Billy's face was replaced with a twisted, more sinister glare. His eyes glazed over as his entire world came crashing down. She was fine without him. She was smiling and happy - and flirting. She had moved on and it was now too late. Billy wouldn't let himself be known now. He would make a fool of himself. Billy's stomach turned, his face feeling like it was on fire. His fists clenched at his sides. His chest was hurting, his head pounding from the anger he was feeling. He was having trouble breathing as his chest caved in and out. He looked back at the girl he loved and felt nothing but hate. Nothing but a new sour feeling that sat deep in his belly. He turned away, never wanting to look at her face again.

Billy stared at the ceiling as old memories soaked his mind. He sat up quickly reaching over to his nightstand for his cigarettes. He lit one and leaned back against the wall. His covers moved as the naked blond that was sharing his bed started to wake. She had been sleeping for hours, something he normally didn't let happen. Once he was done - he was done. But this time his mind was on something else. No matter how much he drank or how much drugs he did, the other night was still poisoning him. Jenn kissing him, her lips on his again. At that moment, if she hadn't stopped he would have had her right there under the dull lights that lit the parking lot, for all that passed to see. He wouldn't have stopped. He couldn't. But she pulled away from him, snapping him back into reality. Into the real brutal truth. That he completely hated her."What time is it?" the girl whispered as she pushed her self up into sitting position. Billy coolly looked over at her his eyes falling on her body. She huffed at herself when Billy didn't answer. She reached on the floor and grabbed her bag. She pulled her phone out, her eyes widening at the time.

"Fuck, Billy!" She got up and started to dress. "Since fuckin' when do you let me sleep, now I'm fuckin' late." She hissed. "Rossco's gonna have my damn head." She mumbled. She threw her form fitting dress on and grabbed her heels. She stood in front of Billy, one hand on her hip the other in the air, palm up. Billy looked up at her, his eyes heavy. He reached down into his jean pocket and pulled out a small clear baggy filled half way with a powdered substance. He slammed it in her hand. She looked down at it her face twisted with anger."Your fuckin' kiddin' me right?" She grabbed the baggy with her other hand examining it closer. "This is all I fuckin' get?""You'll get paid better, when you do your fuckin' job better." He barked. Her eyes widened and her mouth tightened. She turned around and stormed to the door. She opened it and looked back at him.

"Well, if that's the fucking case, why are you my best customer, Billy boy?" She said with sarcasm. Billy shot her a hard look. She smirked at him one last time before she slammed the door behind her. Billy sniffed, his eyes wide. Who did that bitch think she was? He didn't have time to dwell on a whore. Now that his head was clear again he needed to go deliver some money to Bones.

Billy pulled up to the gate guarding Bones' Body Shop. He climbed out, his eyes scanning the place before he proceeded any further. He knew never to trust the man. Even if he was there to deliver, Bones could take him out at any time. He had made that very clear over the years.

He walked his most intimidating walk as he made his way into the building and past some late night workers. They all knew Billy and knew not to fuck with him. But they also worked for Bones, which meant they had someone more powerful then him at their side. He nodded his head at some as he walked by. Bones' office was open and he could hear laughter coming from inside.

"If it aint' the fuckin' Nazi himself." Bones laughed as Billy entered the room. Billy could tell he was drunk and the petite brunette sitting on his desk had to be drunk to be there, with Bones.

"What the fuck, are you doing here?" Billy threw the brown bag he was carrying on the table. Bones looked down at it. He pulled his glassed off, switching them with another pair. He opened the bag and looked inside. He glared up at Billy, his shiny face glowing bright under the lights.

'What the fuck is this?" He asked. Billy straightened his back.

"That's our night." He said, his hand gesturing towards the bag.

"Your fuckin' night isn't over yet. I know this because I was outside and it isn't morning' yet." Billy pulled his head back slightly, his eyes peering down at his father. He didn't' say anything as Bones sighed before he started counting the money. After Bones looked more then satisfied he leaned back in his chair. Billy had worked hard for once. But Bones wasn't a commendable

father. He only got that warm happy feeling in the center of his belly when he made his son feel like shit. And Bones knew something that would make Billy want to drown himself in a pile of whichever drug he was doing this week.

"I hear your girlfriend is back in town." Bones said. Billy glared at his father.

'I didn't know you had a girlfriend Billy." The girl on the table spoke.

"No… I'm sorry. That's right. She's your ex- girlfriend. Couldn't hold on to Jennifer, could you. Not man enough I'm sure." Billy was holding his lips together so tightly they were hurting. "Yeah, my Billy over here would be something by now if he would have made a different choice in life. But if she really wanted you Billy, she would have waited." He smirked up at his son. Watching the redness creep up his neck, Bones knew his job was done. He reached over grabbing his original glasses and put them back on. His friend hoped off the desk and right into his lap. Bone moved her head out of his way and peered at his son.

"You can get the fuck out of here." Billy sniffed before he grabbed the bag off the table. "Keep putting that shit up your nose Billy. You'll be dead from that before your dead from anything else." Billy turned and headed back to the door.

"Speaking of dead," Bones continued. Billy slowed down waiting to hear what else his father had to say. "I hear Jennifer's back to take care of her mother." Billy turned his head slightly. His interest showing. "Cancer from what I'm told." Billy continued to walk out of the room and down the long hall.

He didn't think she was back for him. He hadn't thought about why she was back much at all. But now hearing it's because her mother was dying was making this situation worse. Then to hear it from Bones of all people. Billy cared for Jenn's mom like she was his own. Why hadn't he known she was sick?

The day was too nice to just stay in. Climbing in her mothers car Jenn drove to the boulevard, planning on spending the day clearing her thoughts from the one thing that had been on her mind for days. She wanted to regret kissing him. Letting herself be that vulnerable. But she didn't. To feel him that way and then look into those cold eyes didn't make sense to her.

Billy had become something she couldn't help. A person who was so broken, so many pieces missing, she knew there was no putting him back together. She had to push him as far back in her mind as he would go. The pain she was feeling for him was taking over her every thought and it wasn't like her anymore to be that weak.

She had done exactly what she planned. Shopped half the day away. Buying gifts for her mother and even for her sister. Buying things she knew she didn't really need, or even want. But that didn't matter as long as it helped erase his name.

Grabbing her many bags tightly she headed back to her mothers car when someone yelled her name. She knew right away who the someone was. Her heart raced as she tried to make believe she didn't hear him. He was persistent, just like ever other man in her life. He jogged to her repeating her name.

"Jenn," he said as he stood next to her. "I know you heard me." Jenn turned at a smiling Conner. She smiled back, something she couldn't help. His eyes sparkled from the bright sun above. She could feel her knees getting weak being that close to him.

"I'm sorry Conner, I'm just in a fog today." She smiled again.

"Ok, I'll forgive this one time. Where you going?" he looked down at her bags. He leaned over to grab one when Jenn pulled back. She looked around quickly trying to see if any prying eyes were on them. Conner looked at her suspiciously.

"I'm sorry, I've got them. And uh - I'm heading back to my car." She turned to walk, Conner right next to her. Her stomach was filled with excitement and nerves. She loved being this close to him but knew that others hated it.

"So, how's life been treatin' ya Jenn?" Conner asked in that Irish brogue that still, after all these years still made her weak.

"It's been, well let's just say it's been different." She said.

"Different yeah?" Jenn nodded her head. She didn't want Conner to leave, but she knew it would be a bad idea for him to stick around.

"Well, there's my car, right there." she said trying to point her finger from under one of the bags. Suddenly as if God himself was trying to make this happen, the wind picked up making her hair wrap around her face. Conner noticed this right away. He reached over to her lightly pushing the loose hair behind her ear. Jenn watched him as he did this, her heart fluttery from his touch. She smiled cutely at him, her face looking innocent and beautiful. After several seconds of staring into each others eyes Conner brought both of his hands up placing them on the sides of her face. He pressed his lips against hers. Jenn couldn't think. She just allowed him to kiss her. It was deep and meaningful, sending sparks flying between the two of them. Jenn wasn't sure how long they were kissing, but when Conner pulled away she didn't want to open her eyes. She was lost in him.

"I'm sorry," Conner whispered as he slowly let his hands fall. Jenn opened her eyes.

"Don't be sorry." Jenn could barely get the words out.

Across the street Bodie watched. His eyes wide. He had to blink to try and focus on what he just witnessed. Jenn had been warned once already to not see Conner again. If Billy knew about this - embrace - he would lose it for sure. Bodie watched as Jenn and Conner walked to her car. After talking for a few more seconds Conner kissed her again. This time Jenn giving as much as she was taking.

Bodie waited for Jenn to leave and for Conner to be no longer in view when he stepped out of the deli. He shook his head knowing he had to tell Billy, be the one to break the news that his threats did't seem to be penetrating. He walked down the block until he reached a white van. Jumping in, his cell phone began to vibrate in his pocket. He sighed after seeing the number on the screen. He knew if he didn't answer Billy would keep calling until he did.

"What up dog?" Bodie said as he placed the phone to his ear.

"Bodie you fuck, where the fuck are you?" Billy said.

"Had to collect some money." Bodie said as Spink pulled away.

"Well get your ass to the bar. We're starting early today." Bodie could tell Billy had thrown a few back already.

"Alright, we're on our way." Bodie hung up not looking forward to his conversation with Billy.

Spink stopped short in a spot in The Four Roses parking lot. Bodie jumped out walking to the entrance of the bar. Ripping open the door, Bodie's eyes adjusted to the new environment. At the back of the bar in his usual spot was Billy. Bodie stood over Billy his arms crossed over his chest. He had to tell him, but didn't want to. Billy was laughing at some random joke Heco was trying to say when he looked up at Bodie. He knew that face all to well and his smile fell.

"What?" Billy asked. Bodie nodded towards the door then turned to leave. Billy downed his shot then rose to his feet. He lit a cigarette then headed out of the bar. Bodie was leaning against the wall, his head down.

"Dog, I got some news for ya," He couldn't tell him about the kiss, he wouldn't. Billy sucked on his cigarette, his cheeks caving in as he his eyes looked hard at Bodie. "I seen Jenn with Conner when I was pickin' up earlier." Billy ripped the cigarette from his mouth as he shifted his weight. Bodie looked up at him seeing the hateful expression Billy wore. "What happened?…" Billy asked, wanting to know everything. "He walked her to her car, that's all." Bodie lied. Billy started nodding his head. He had been made a joke, something that didn't sit well with him. He would take care of this in the morning. Now he needed something harder then a drink.

Apparently he wasn't making himself clear enough to Jenn that blood was going to be shed if she kept up her "friendship" with Conner. He knew what would come of their friendship and he would be damned if he let Conner have something that was once his. He needed to relay the message on his own. He wanted to be the barer of bad news. Billy drove his mustang to the only place he knew the McManus twins would be in the earlier afternoon. Doing what they did best - drinking.

The matching mustangs pulled onto the sidewalk in front of the small Irish bar. Billy and Bodie opened their doors, both climbing out almost in sync. Heco, Baggy, Joe and Tommy climbed out of Heco's car. All following Billy into the battlefield. Billy reached up grabbing his sunglasses off. His eyes scanned the bar. The place was empty minus the two old men at the bar. The bar tender noticed Billy and his crew right away. He knew exactly who they were and sent one his workers in the back. Several seconds later Conner and Murphy walked out of the back room.

Their faces grim as they both looked at Billy.

"What can we do you for boys?" Conner asked his face softening a bit. Murphy was still in the same stance. He was ready for a fight. Gun or fist, he was ready. Billy stared back at the twins a cigarette sticking out from in between his lips he glared at them through squinted eyes.

"I know you fuckin' heard him." Murphy spat. Conner put his hand up in front of Murphy, silencing him. Billy ripped his cigarette from his mouth glaring across the room at Murphy.

"You're here for a reason Billy," Conner crossed his arms over his chest waiting for an answer. He hated Billy but he wasn't like him. He would give them the chance to speak.

"Unfortunately, I have to take time from my busy day to come down here and remind you of where your place is in Boston." Billy bellowed. Conner's eyebrows raised, a small smirk grew.

"Why don't you just say what you came to say." Conner spat. Billy cracked his neck.

"Stay away from what isn't yours." Billy hissed. Conner stood a little taller, his eyes peering at Billy knowing exactly what he was referring to.

"Do I have to tell you where the fuck you are right now?" Murphy barked taking a step closer to Billy. Bodie jumped in front of Billy just to have Billy push him back. Billy's finger rose in the air pointing straight at Murphy.

"No, I'll tell you where the fuck you are," Billy's voice rose as he barked the words at Murphy. "Your in my end of the fuckin' sewer buddy." He looked back at Conner as he lowered his arm. "Now you better get that through your fuckin' head, because there's no more warnings." Several seconds passed as the two men stared down at each other. Testing to see who would make the first move.

The corner of Billy's lip curled as he turned to leave. Bodie continued his stare at Murphy until Billy pulled on his coat. Billy opened the door then stopped. He turned his body around looking back at the brothers.

"Fuck with me Conner, and I'll be comin' for some fuckin' family time." He said before he turned and exited the bar. Murphy's blood was going, his breathing erratic. Conner stood calm and cool as he watched Billy and his crew jump in their cars. Billy spun his tired causing the whole front of the bar to be covered in smoke.

The brother's stood together looking in the direction of where Billy and his crew had been. Their faces serious as they both were deep in thought. Ridding the streets of Billy Darley was the most important thing they had ever wanted to do. Now he came into their home and threatened their family. Waiting for the right moment was no longer a rule.

"Destroy all that which is evil." Conner spoke.

"So that which is good may flourish." Murphy added.

Emily climbed out of the car, a smile on her face as she made her way to the entrance of the bar. She couldn't stop thinking about Murphy all day. Jenn was in a good mood, Emily not sure why but she knew it had something to do with Conner. The sound of his name left her blushing. Emily knew that blushing face all too well. She looked back at her friend as she came up behind her. Emily turned to open the door but jumped at the sight of Murphy on the other side of the glass. He pulled it open quickly taking a step out. Emily and Jenn took a step back, their smiles fading at the crazed look on his face.

"Murphy," Emily started but his eyes fell on Jenn.

"Your fuckin' boyfriend was here today, barkin' orders telling us to stay away from you." Murphy said his eyes narrowed at Jenn.

"My boyfriend?" She asked confused.

"Yeah, Billy Darley. He was in our fuckin' bar, threatenin' me and my brother." He took a step closer. "I don't take to threats lightly Jenn. If a war is what he wants, a war is what he'll fuckin' get."

"Murph!" Conner yelled coming out of the bar. He grabbed his brothers jacket pulling him away from Jenn. "Chill the fuck out, man."

"Murphy…" Emily said again grabbing his arm. He looked at her his eyes narrowed as he pulled his arm from her. He turned and stormed back in the bar.

"Don't mind him. He has a hot temper and after our little meeting today, he's going to be in a mood for awhile." Conner said to Emily. Emily turned and headed back to Jenn's car. She was embarrassed and didn't want to be there anymore. Conner looked over at Jenn, his hand gently on her arm.

"Is there something you want to tell me?" Conner asked, his voice kind.

"What, what do you mean?"

"Billy doesn't come outside of his territory unless if its important to him. Why would he come here himself to tell me to stay away?"

"I have no idea," she said. Conner smiled at her.

"Listen, just until this blows over maybe we should keep our time shared, for only the phone." Jenn shook her head not believing what she was hearing.

"Fine," she said before she headed back to her car. Conner didn't stop her or say another word to her. He watched her climb in her car and pull away.

Jenn's stomach was feeling sick thinking of Billy being there, threatening the twins the way he did. She needed to stop this. She needed to make Billy understand she wasn't going to play this game with him. She reached over grabbing her cell phone she dialed Joe's number. Several rings later he picked up.

"Hey sweetheart."

"Hey Joey," she sighed feeling bad to get Joe involved but she needed to find Billy. "Do you know where your brother is?" There was a short pause on the other end.

"Why?"

"Joey please. This is important." She could hear Joe sigh.

"He's at the office."

"The office?"

"Oh, right. You would know it as the spot."

"Your kidding me?" She couldn't believe he still went there. "Thanks Joey. I'll call you in a few." She drove to "the spot". A place that Joe had found when they were younger for them to hang out. A place that even Bones Darley himself didn't know about. Billy didn't like to go there at the time, but only did when he had to save his brother from a fight or get him because he was too wasted to leave himself. Jenn hated it. It was a run down hospital that no one would ever claim. Billy would always tell her that if he ever turned like his father that would be the perfect place to do his business.If he was just like his father? She didn't realize how fast she was driving. They pulled up to "the spot" and Jenn jumped out of the car. She stopped for a second, looking around to see if anyone else was there with him. She could see Billy's black Mustang to the far right. The only thing his father ever gave him. Jenn walked up the stairs into the front door. She looked back to see Emily behind her.

"Where is he?" Jenn asked. Emily knew an awful lot about Billy and his men. She knew Emily had to know where Billy went when he came here.

"I'm sure the only place he would go if he's here by himself is in The Chapel." Emily walked in with her. Why is he doing this shit to me? She thought. They walked down a long hall to the stairwell. They began to jog up the stairs and up a few flights until they reached the third floor. They walked down a long hallway and could see lights ahead. The hall was dark and smelt of rot and mildew. Jenn was beginning to regret this mission.

"He's got to be in there Jenn. I don't want to go with you, just incase he makes a scene." Emily said as she stopped walking. Jenn didn't stop walking, but walked a little more slow. Her anger was now turning into fear. She made her way to the open doors and into the decaying room. She could see him. Sitting by himself with his head slumped over in the first pew. She walked in slowly.

"Billy," she whispered. Billy's body tensed up his head slowly rose as she walked next to him. His head snapped to her, his eyes narrowed. Jenn looked down at the wad of cash he had been counting.

"What the fuck are you doin' here?" He hissed, his teeth clenched.

"What am I doing here?" She asked her anger slowly coming back. Who was he to be asking questions after what he pulled. Billy rose to his feet his eyes burning into hers.

"Yes, what the fuck are you doing here?" He asked again his hands now on his hips.

"Maybe I'm here because you're a piece of shit. Who the hell do you think you are threatening Conner and his brother like that?" Billy huffed through his nose a small smile spreading across his lips.

"So the little bitch ran to you?" Billy asked.

"No, I went to see him and,"

"You what?" Billy yelled. "After I told you not to see him again."

"Jesus Billy, I'm not your girl anymore. Remember, you're the one who chose to stay behind. God damn it Billy. It was nine years ago. I've gotten over it, I've moved on," She sighed. "Why can't you?" Billy's eyes were wide. His lips tight as he stared at her. He started to breath more deeply as he reached up and rubbed his forehead.

"Your right," he said putting his hand in the air. He smiled but not a happy smile. It was more a sarcastic smile. "I shouldn't stand in your way of whorin' around."

"Excuse me?" Jenn almost yelled. She was the last person to be called something like that.

"That's all you'll be to him," Billy leaned closer to her. "His little whore." he mocked. His eyebrows went up. "Unless you are already." Jenn pulled her hand back slapping it across Billy's face. Her eyes started to water.

"For someone who didn't want to turn into his father, your doing a fucking hell of a job being just like him." She hissed. She turned to leave when Billy grabbed her arm.

"Don't you ever fuckin' do that again!" He bellowed as he jabbed his finger in her face. Jenn knew she crossed the line but she didn't care. He called her a whore plain and simple. She didn't deserve that no matter what he thought. His face was red as his grip on her arm tightened. "If you ever fuckin' do that again…" He growled stopping himself before he really lost it.

"Get off of me, your hurting me." She said looking down at his hand. She tried to pull from his grip but it was useless. "Get. Off." She said again. She grabbed his hand trying again to pull out of his grip. Billy was getting more annoyed as he pushed her back, her body hitting the wall behind her, his heavy body pressed up against hers.

"Jenn…' he started. His eyes scanned her face. Slowly the anger was fading. He looked at her eyes then her mouth. He remembered their last kiss outside of the bar. How amazing it felt to have her like that again, even if it was for a moment. Jenn noticed his eyes looking different. She didn't know what he was thinking until he licked his lips before they crashed onto hers. Why she didn't fight him off of her was a question she would later ask herself. Instead she melted into him. His body pressing harder against her as their kiss became wild.

His hands roamed her body as she pulled him closer. His kiss did feel the same making her body ache for him. He grabbed her face making their kiss deeper. Chills ran through her whole body making it impossible to think. His hand was cold as it made its way to her belly quickly pushing up her shirt. She could feel him on her now, her mind creeping back into reality. She didn't want to stop but she knew he was going to want to go all the way. She just didn't know if she was ready for that. His hands quickly made their way to her button on her jeans. He unbuttoned it and was about to pull down the zipper when Jenn pulled away. He narrowed his eyes at her his breathing heavy in her face.

"Billy, I can't." She said trying to catch her breath. She pushed him away slightly, their eyes not leaving each other. Billy ignored her as he pushed himself back against her his mouth on hers again, his hand back at her zipper. For a second she almost gave in. She didn't want this, no matter how much she was loving ever second of it. Billy had become something she didn't like. What would happen if they finished what they started?

She didn't say anything as she pushed him away from her, making her way past him and out the chapel door. Billy watched her leave and didn't stop her. He was out of breath his whole body on fire. He put his hand on the wall and leaned in trying to catch his breath. He would let her go this time. But next time he wouldn't be so nice. He wanted her again, and not only in his bed.